What stops you from CTB - fear of death or fear of pain or something else

[lugerepair]

Fear that I will fail and will no longer be able to kill myself afterward I wish that there could be a surefire way of doing it. I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up. I wish I was able to make it look like an accident, while also ensuring that the method would work. Suicide should be socially acceptable! What if we were able to organize our own funeral and say goodbye to people and then take N, and then people would say their farewells and then our organs could be donated to people in need???

 

[Wait-Bus]

Leaving my family. I am assured with everything else, death is a comforting thing for me that I wish for every day. But I do not want my family to experience such grief as I know they will.

Thank you for that comment - very thought ful :) your words completely resonate with me

 

[BRAINWORMS]

Hurting the ones I love. Losing access to my method if I fail and want to try again. Curiosity about what happens if I stick around; death is guaranteed, but another life to experience new things is not.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Lack of motivation to do some thing that seems scary and painful is what is preventing me

 

[Jadzia]

I cant get everything I need to do it. I tried the debreather and that didn't work.

 

[makethepainstop]

As long as it's not super painful, I can handle discomfort. So that is not really stopping me.

I know the fear of death will disappear when I am close to passing out and I just say to myself "just let it happen."

I am just waiting for the signal in my head that says "it's time"

Fear of failure delays me. This time I must be successful, for some life is far more painful than death could ever be. Love to all here.

 

[NumbCat]

I don't fear death but I do fear surviving a CTB attempt or leaving a mess behind. I also have cats. I would need to rehome them. There's a lot of steps that would go into planning and I would likely change my mind by the time I planned it all. My suicidal thoughts come and go. I go from just barely making it to being completely suicidal. I could schedule an email to go out 24 hours after I did it to have someone come and get the cats once my body was found and just shut them off in the living room.

 

[Capsaicin78]

Pure Fear. I really dont have the balls rn :(

 

[MaidenException]

In the past, fear that it would hurt or that my body would be left in an unpleasant state, should it be discovered. I was afraid that I would change my mind. I have attempted before and the aftermath was unpleasant.

Now my big hurdle is being able to procure my method. I am opting for N because I want it to be as peaceful as possible. You only get to die once and I want to do it comfortably and on my terms.

 

[RandomDude1234]

Fear of what happens after. Fear of getting a panic attack after I have done my steps to CTB. Fear of how it will affect my family and friends. Fear of not knowing if it's truly the right choice.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

As long as it's not super painful, I can handle discomfort. So that is not really stopping me.

I know the fear of death will disappear when I am close to passing out and I just say to myself "just let it happen."

I am just waiting for the signal in my head that says "it's time"

Nothing at this point