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searchingforpeace

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Nov 26, 2022
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I'm trying to basically mentally prepare myself for what would happen if I survive. I'm assuming I would Poop and pee on myself. Most likely throw up on myself. I don't think I could mentally recover from surviving so I'm worried about that. I don't know there's so much I wish I could say I don't even have the energy. I don't know what to do anymore I mean so much agony trying to survive I don't know what to do I'm so **** tormented
I'm guessing I would lay down on the floor if I made an attempt because I've heard of people falling and having brain damage they survive. But I'm so crazy that I'm worried about making my house messed up with the throw Up in poop in P because I have ocd
I wish I could do it on an impulse because it would be easier but instead you have to prepare which sucks
I wish I could do it on an impulse because it would be easier but instead you have to prepare which sucks
 
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dontwakemeup

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Nov 11, 2024
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I'm sorry you're having a hard time. Do you have a method in mind? If you don't want to share it, that's ok. I would suggest visiting the archives and see if your method has a high probability of success 1st. If you don't succeed, you simply wake up alive! It's an awful feeling and realization when you realize your method didn't work and you're still stuck here. Would you like to talk more about how you're feeling?
 
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searchingforpeace

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Nov 26, 2022
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yes the method is sn and i feel hopeless
 
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opheliaoveragain

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Here's a few recent minute by minute accounts. In my opinion and experience with others, SN is swift. Of course the time is going to seem long for someone wanting to be out in a shorter period of time, but as long as protocol is followed and you do not call emergency services or are found, and your purity is solid, it's a trustworthy method.



 
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cloudyskye

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Nov 11, 2024
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I'm trying to basically mentally prepare myself for what would happen if I survive. I'm assuming I would Poop and pee on myself. Most likely throw up on myself. I don't think I could mentally recover from surviving so I'm worried about that. I don't know there's so much I wish I could say I don't even have the energy. I don't know what to do anymore I mean so much agony trying to survive I don't know what to do I'm so **** tormented
I'm guessing I would lay down on the floor if I made an attempt because I've heard of people falling and having brain damage they survive. But I'm so crazy that I'm worried about making my house messed up with the throw Up in poop in P because I have ocd
I wish I could do it on an impulse because it would be easier but instead you have to prepare which sucks
I wish I could do it on an impulse because it would be easier but instead you have to prepare which sucks
I don't know why you would mess yourself if you survive. Usually that happens after death when every muscle in your body relaxes. If you're worried though you can wear an adult diaper. Use a trash can for vomit and or take sn in bathroom some have even done it in the tub. That would contain most mess.
 
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dontwakemeup

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Nov 11, 2024
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SN sounds like a great guaranteed method long as you follow the directions. If you are uncomfortable at the thought of you messing yourself after, take a laxative and fast a few hours prior. I think in death we all have some residual left and it will be expelled. Hope that helps.
 
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dontlook

watch out. the gap in the door
Nov 13, 2024
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If you're very worried about incontinence, I suggest perhaps doing one of the flushes they have people do before colonoscopy? Or similar? There was someone who used SN here last night and their last message was about soiling themselves, so it's definitely a valid concern.
 
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dontwakemeup

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Nov 11, 2024
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If you're very worried about incontinence, I suggest perhaps doing one of the flushes they have people do before colonoscopy? Or similar? There was someone who used SN here last night and their last message was about soiling themselves, so it's definitely a valid concern.
Bisacodyl tablets are very powerful. I suggest taking no more than 2 pills. Also, they are very cheap.
 

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