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LLJODYWOAH
Jul 5, 2025
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I'm 20 but i have 20k saved up currently (result of staying at home, cali minimum wage, working daily OT, and not really having anything to spend money on lol) and I'm kinda clueless as to what to do with it now

As for my will, i have a friend who has 3k in debt to pay off for her dog's medical bills. I also have a friend who's saving up for a car i can allocate a few K to. The rest would just go towards any other of my friend's debts or my mom/siblings. Does anyone have any other ideas of things I can use it for while I'm still here or how I can adjust my will? I don't really have any charities or anything like that I'm passionate about, I mainly want to support my family & friends

What if I want to do something fun/rewarding/splurge before I die? I dont wanna do anything like blow it all on hookers & coke, but maybe a vacation or something? I dunno, the problem is i dont really have hobbies or genuine interests like that that I can put the money towards

A thought I also have is obtaining a firearm. I've been pretty set on heights (if you look at my profile hard enough you can probably deduce which place i'd be choosing lol) as my method for awhile now but honestly shotgun seems like a less mentally terrifying method with seemingly less SI to overcome and the same instantaneous & painless death. The problem is I don't really know how easy/quick of a process that is to obtain the firearm or if I even have the mental energy for it living in commiefornia. I can use my brain to figure out how to acquire SN if I really wanted to but it has always seemed too convoluted/risky (the welfare check bullshit to worry about now)/not instantaneous. Anyways, any thoughts of putting the $ towards an ideal method?
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
1,114
It seems like you have two different threads here. First is, what to do with your money and you've got some good ideas

Second is, what method would work for you if you decide to ctb. Think about that on its own...try to get the details worked out of that. Then if your preference takes money, so be it.

And have a little fun. Maybe you and the friend with the dog would go out for some pizza?
 
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alwaysalone

Specialist
May 14, 2025
331
I'm 20 but i have 20k saved up currently (result of staying at home, cali minimum wage, working daily OT, and not really having anything to spend money on lol) and I'm kinda clueless as to what to do with it now

As for my will, i have a friend who has 3k in debt to pay off for her dog's medical bills. I also have a friend who's saving up for a car i can allocate a few K to. The rest would just go towards any other of my friend's debts or my mom/siblings. Does anyone have any other ideas of things I can use it for while I'm still here or how I can adjust my will? I don't really have any charities or anything like that I'm passionate about, I mainly want to support my family & friends

What if I want to do something fun/rewarding/splurge before I die? I dont wanna do anything like blow it all on hookers & coke, but maybe a vacation or something? I dunno, the problem is i dont really have hobbies or genuine interests like that that I can put the money towards

A thought I also have is obtaining a firearm. I've been pretty set on heights (if you look at my profile hard enough you can probably deduce which place i'd be choosing lol) as my method for awhile now but honestly shotgun seems like a less mentally terrifying method with seemingly less SI to overcome and the same instantaneous & painless death. The problem is I don't really know how easy/quick of a process that is to obtain the firearm or if I even have the mental energy for it living in commiefornia. I can use my brain to figure out how to acquire SN if I really wanted to but it has always seemed too convoluted/risky (the welfare check bullshit to worry about now)/not instantaneous. Anyways, any thoughts of putting the $ towards an ideal method?
Sorry I don't know the law there but general rule of thumb is shotguns are easier to buy than hand guns even in deep blue states.
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
919
The fact is most of us that attempt a suicide attempt aren't successful! I wouldn't do anything too drastic just in case you're stuck here.

If you like, you can mail a copy of your bank card to you're closest friend the day of your attempt with a password separately with details how to divide the money. But if your survive, they will have questions.

The days before attempt, do whatever you want to do that will make you happy! I'm always in a rush to leave so there was never a favorite meal I ate or a wonderful day. But thats my advice. If you leave a note, the police may hold it for months until everything is cleared.
 
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gracefulexit

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Dec 14, 2019
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I'm 20 but i have 20k saved up currently (result of staying at home, cali minimum wage, working daily OT, and not really having anything to spend money on lol) and I'm kinda clueless as to what to do with it now

As for my will, i have a friend who has 3k in debt to pay off for her dog's medical bills. I also have a friend who's saving up for a car i can allocate a few K to. The rest would just go towards any other of my friend's debts or my mom/siblings. Does anyone have any other ideas of things I can use it for while I'm still here or how I can adjust my will? I don't really have any charities or anything like that I'm passionate about, I mainly want to support my family & friends

What if I want to do something fun/rewarding/splurge before I die? I dont wanna do anything like blow it all on hookers & coke, but maybe a vacation or something? I dunno, the problem is i dont really have hobbies or genuine interests like that that I can put the money towards

A thought I also have is obtaining a firearm. I've been pretty set on heights (if you look at my profile hard enough you can probably deduce which place i'd be choosing lol) as my method for awhile now but honestly shotgun seems like a less mentally terrifying method with seemingly less SI to overcome and the same instantaneous & painless death. The problem is I don't really know how easy/quick of a process that is to obtain the firearm or if I even have the mental energy for it living in commiefornia. I can use my brain to figure out how to acquire SN if I really wanted to but it has always seemed too convoluted/risky (the welfare check bullshit to worry about now)/not instantaneous. Anyways, any thoughts of putting the $ towards an ideal method?

The fact is most of us that attempt a suicide attempt aren't successful! I wouldn't do anything too drastic just in case you're stuck here.

If you like, you can mail a copy of your bank card to you're closest friend the day of your attempt with a password separately with details how to divide the money. But if your survive, they will have questions.

The days before attempt, do whatever you want to do that will make you happy! I'm always in a rush to leave so there was never a favorite meal I ate or a wonderful day. But thats my advice. If you leave a note, the police may hold it for months until everything is cleared.
I decided to rent an RV and drive across the country , eating exploring nature parks until I'm maxed out, then park on an BLM land and grill some food with some whisky, benzo and bud then bring the grill inside the rv and hope to peacefully rid myself from this pos government world.
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
919
I decided to rent an RV and drive across the country , eating exploring nature parks until I'm maxed out, then park on an BLM land and grill some food with some whisky, benzo and bud then bring the grill inside the rv and hope to peacefully rid myself from this pos government world.
That sounds like a wonderful idea! It sounds peaceful and exciting. I think that's a great idea!!
 
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gracefulexit

Member
Dec 14, 2019
48
I'm 20 but i have 20k saved up currently (result of staying at home, cali minimum wage, working daily OT, and not really having anything to spend money on lol) and I'm kinda clueless as to what to do with it now

As for my will, i have a friend who has 3k in debt to pay off for her dog's medical bills. I also have a friend who's saving up for a car i can allocate a few K to. The rest would just go towards any other of my friend's debts or my mom/siblings. Does anyone have any other ideas of things I can use it for while I'm still here or how I can adjust my will? I don't really have any charities or anything like that I'm passionate about, I mainly want to support my family & friends

What if I want to do something fun/rewarding/splurge before I die? I dont wanna do anything like blow it all on hookers & coke, but maybe a vacation or something? I dunno, the problem is i dont really have hobbies or genuine interests like that that I can put the money towards

A thought I also have is obtaining a firearm. I've been pretty set on heights (if you look at my profile hard enough you can probably deduce which place i'd be choosing lol) as my method for awhile now but honestly shotgun seems like a less mentally terrifying method with seemingly less SI to overcome and the same instantaneous & painless death. The problem is I don't really know how easy/quick of a process that is to obtain the firearm or if I even have the mental energy for it living in commiefornia. I can use my brain to figure out how to acquire SN if I really wanted to but it has always seemed too convoluted/risky (the welfare check bullshit to worry about now)/not instantaneous. Anyways, any thoughts of putting the $ towards an ideal method?
Btw, the only way that a steal of heat would work is if you aim for the medulla oblagata
 
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TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,526
As for fun things, others have already mentioned going in an RV, though if you are able to travel internationally just to see other areas of the world before you CTB that could be something to consider. Travelling can also be expensive too, depending on what your plans are, where you go to, and what you do. You also have some charitable ideas such as paying your friend's debt (which I'm sure she'll appreciate) as well as others' in your life. Just as a caution if you give away too much money, it could also raise suspicion because pesky pro-lifers, anti-choicers, and preventionists are always scouring for 'signs' of potential CTB, and sadly, one of them is giving away possessions, large amounts of wealth and what not. It sucks that the world (or rather society) is rather cynical when it comes to charity, especially in this context, but I digress.
 
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