What scares you most about SN

[Leiden]

I'm so scared of SN and although it is one of the more quick, and I guess painless ways to go, it really scares me. The things people say that happens to them before passing out is scary. The things they may feel that they may not be able to communicate, is petrifying. Who the hell would ever think CTB is cowardly, you've got balls of absolute steel if you have managed to do it! This shit ain't easy!

Is there anything that scares you most about SN?

Do you think after losing the ability to speak, that seemingly looks like you are unconscious,you are actually aware and are suffering badly, but cannot communicate that? I know we will never know for sure, but just the thoughts on it.

What do you guys think and feel about it?

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

I'd be more scared of the police showing up than the sn itself.

 

[lofticries]

Too many mixed results. I've heard stories where people feel a bit dizzy on it and pass out while others are heaving and feeling nauseous for a good 3 mins or so.

Still I'd rather SN than the gun, drowning, or hanging methods.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

What is SN?

 

[lofticries]

What is SN?

sodium nitrite.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-megathread.1156/

 

[HopelessFight]

Losing the ability to speak, making you look unconscious while you're not? I didn't hear of this yet. Where did you read about this?

 

[Breakout92]

I already have a heart problem, so I'm scared that if I were found and "treated" with meth blue that it will become even worse.

 

[muffin222]

I'm mostly concerned about the rapid heartbeat. I already suffer from anxiety and have had countless panic attacks, so the idea of tachycardia is unnerving.

Other than that, SN sounds like a fairly quick and very effective method. It's not ideal by any means, but I don't think it's as horrific as people make it out to be on here.

 

[aminend]

If u can control anxiety and its panic attacks all other symptoms and side effects are tolerable. U can think about what u want to see after death. That gives u more sense of peace.
For my self it's hard time is vomiting.
The peacefulness of SN is 70% which is good enough

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I'd be more scared of the police showing up than the sn itself.

Yet another door would pay the ultimate price.

 

[Leiden]

Losing the ability to speak, making you look unconscious while you're not? I didn't hear of this yet. Where did you read about this?

In the CTB by SN accounts from others who watched them, there is a time when the person seemingly goes unconscious and no longer is able to speak. Are they really unconscious and just can't speak or move and feeling awful things. I have no idea obviously, but I remember reading one post that a Fella failed using SN and was just stuck there unable to move or speak. I guess he just had to wait it out, I don't remember all the details and I have been trying to find it to link, but I'm not having any luck finding it.

I'm mostly concerned about the rapid heartbeat. I already suffer from anxiety and have had countless panic attacks, so the idea of tachycardia is unnerving.

Other than that, SN sounds like a fairly quick and very effective method. It's not ideal by any means, but I don't think it's as horrific as people make it out to be on here.

Yes, the rapid heart rate scares me too. I also have anxiety and panic and the fast heart rate sets the panic attack off for me, feeling it scares me so I'll probably have a panic attack.

Too many mixed results. I've heard stories where people feel a bit dizzy on it and pass out while others are heaving and feeling nauseous for a good 3 mins or so.

Still I'd rather SN than the gun, drowning, or hanging methods.

Yes, it is my preferred method, my ideal would be N. Also, jumping would be horrific as well.

 

[ClairyFairy]

I couldn't physically drink the drink and the thought of the burning vomiting. I just couldn't do it. I prefer to have some though so that I always have something that will 100% work

 

[shijsrzh]

Not knowing where to get it. Also, there is no possibility to tell whether the stuff has the necessary chemical quality/purity to be effective and not cause aforementioned scenarios. You can't even tell if it truly is SN and not some scam.
I still have my good old rope sitting next to me for drop hanging. But these methods unfortunately involve survival instincts kicking in which I have not been able to overcome so far.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Not knowing where to get it. Also, there is no possibility to tell whether the stuff has the necessary chemical quality/purity to be effective and not cause aforementioned scenarios. You can't even tell if it truly is SN and not some scam.

People are able to test how it reacts to blood.

I still have my good old rope sitting next to me for drop hanging. But these methods unfortunately involve survival instincts kicking in which I have not been able to overcome so far.

Nice, I'm doing full suspension like the pleb I am lol.

 

[shijsrzh]

People are able to test how it reacts to blood.

Thanks, didn't know that. Still have no clue where to get it though.

Nice, I'm doing full suspension like the pleb I am lol.

Yeah, would be nice if I weren't the coward that I am. Seriously, sometimes I ask myself how any human ever killed himself looking at the nerve and courage it takes. And yet, so many people have done it.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Yeah, would be nice if I weren't the coward that I am. Seriously, sometimes I ask myself how any human ever killed himself looking at the nerve and courage it takes. And yet, so many people have done it.

I think it's more about determination and having confidence in your own beliefs and decisions. Also facing situations that put a time constraint on when you can kill yourself; whether that be facing bad life-situations, chronic pain mounting up or actual paranoia.

 

[Leiden]

I couldn't physically drink the drink and the thought of the burning vomiting. I just couldn't do it. I prefer to have some though so that I always have something that will 100% work

I always thought it would be around, I am from the US and when I went on the big river site, and the bay and the LW site and they were taken off. I started to panic. I want ahead and bought one of the two left that I saw on the river site and it made me less anxious knowing that at least I had some.

The burning, yes, with all the possible side effects of SN, I guess it depends on the person. I have read of the burning throat and stomach. I don't see that happens to everyone although with my luck I'll have every side effect there is and more.

 

[Trisolaris]

Doesn't scare me at all, I wish I had it.

 

[Leiden]

Not knowing where to get it. Also, there is no possibility to tell whether the stuff has the necessary chemical quality/purity to be effective and not cause aforementioned scenarios. You can't even tell if it truly is SN and not some scam.
I still have my good old rope sitting next to me for drop hanging. But these methods unfortunately involve survival instincts kicking in which I have not been able to overcome so far.

I still have no idea what I bought and if its good. I've said before but how is it that they took every SN off of the river site but two were left, one being from India ( which I wouldn't trust) and the other one which is the one I bought.

 

[lofticries]

Yes, it is my preferred method, my ideal would be N. Also, jumping would be horrific as well.

If I could find a high enough place with no security or people around I'd jump. Yes SI will be a bitch to get over but at least I won't be dealing with it for more than a few seconds. I could get drunk or high (or maybe both) before jumping. My body will be basically obliterated from the fall but I plan on being cremated anyway so either way I won't have much of a body in the end.

 

[Leiden]

Thanks, didn't know that. Still have no clue where to get it though.


Yeah, would be nice if I weren't the coward that I am. Seriously, sometimes I ask myself how any human ever killed himself looking at the nerve and courage it takes. And yet, so many people have done it.

Agree

 

[shijsrzh]

I think it's more about determination and having confidence in your own beliefs and decisions. Also facing situations that put a time constraint on when you can kill yourself; whether that be facing bad life-situations, chronic pain mounting up or actual paranoia.

You're probably right. I'm actually not confident in my beliefs and the decision of dying, and I sometimes notice that as a hindering factor.

 

[Leiden]

People are able to test how it reacts to blood.

Nice, I'm doing full suspension like the pleb I am lol.

I will test it when I receive mine. If it turns dark it is okay then?

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

At least it's better than cyanide or drinking bleach, pesticide I guess.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I will test it when I receive mine. If it turns dark it is okay then?

Idk, my method is full suspension. I think it's supposed to turn dark blue or sum, there's a thread about it.

 

[booray]

I will test it when I receive mine. If it turns dark it is okay then?

Unless you're planning on using it soon thereafter, I suggest you don't open it because once it's exposed to air, nitrite turns to nitrate given some time.

 

[Fehler]

I'd say the feeling of suffocation caused by hypoxia. I've been through a few tachycardia and found it curious rather than overwhelming. I see vomiting annoying but bearable.
Still, I see it as a peaceful death compared to other methods. I feel pretty calm having it

 

[Symbiote]

Yet another door would pay the ultimate price.

Door Lives Matter!

 

[Escape Artist]

I fear the vomiting, nausea, thinking about what comes next, headache etc. My headaches are severe and I feel like that will happen.

I've been thinking about how SI is worse for me on days when I'm more sick and distressed, but that's when I'm usually trying to go through with it. I've always thought when I get worse I'll be ready but I think that's not correct at all.

I think I've got to train myself to get serious about it when I have another good day (if I ever do). I've noticed this thing where the SN seems more terrifying the worse I feel even though it seems appealing. Really hard to describe. My first reaction to having a slightly better day is to just want to rest but now I think that's when I'll have to CTB because I'm getting the impression that it's counterintuitive but that feeling a little better is my ticket. I also need to feel better to have the ability to make sure I'm doing it right. And the physical strength to go somewhere to do it. I will definitely feel more sure of myself if I'm slightly calm.

 

[Leiden]

I'd say the feeling of suffocation caused by hypoxia. I've been through a few tachycardia and found it curious rather than overwhelming. I see vomiting annoying but bearable.
Still, I see it as a peaceful death compared to other methods. I feel pretty calm having it

I agree. This would be the most terrifying.

Unless you're planning on using it soon thereafter, I suggest you don't open it because once it's exposed to air, nitrite turns to nitrate given some time.

I will wait to test It then, think you.