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Busticket

Busticket

Student
May 18, 2021
185
This is honestly what scares me most about death.
That it's eternal/never ending.
That I am not going to be dead for just a billion or a trillion years but FOR EVER and EVER.
In other words my death is NEVER going to end.
I just can't wrap my head around that.
And it's not the same as the time before I was born. Because that period wasn't eternal as I was eventually born.
My mind simply cannot cope with NEVER existing again after I die.
How do you guys deal with this?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,383
This thought comforts me actually. I love the sound of non existence. I believe there is nothing after we die.I think consciousness is a nightmare, once I die there will be no more thoughts, no more feelings, just eternal peace. I see this world as a cruel place and dying is freedom. My mind struggles to cope with existing. Death makes life meaningless, all this pain is temporary and that is the best thing. I wish I was never born.
 
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eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,169
I was fine for billions of years before I was born. I will be fine for the next billions of years after I die. Dying is easier said than done though. Otherwise none of us would be here right now.
 
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Freakazette

Freakazette

May you find the light that was stolen from you.
May 18, 2021
215
You won't even know once you don't exist anymore that you don't exist.

You just know beforehand, you experience the feeling of going into *nothingness* and probably that is what terrifies you to the core at that particular moment, when your CTB already started... When you're about to let go and it's too late to stop.

When you're about to let go of knowing - to not knowing nothing at all, when you're about to let go of your own existence...

Peace,
Overthinking Nuclear Explosion GIF by Fran Borzea
 
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StupidLizard

StupidLizard

snake charmer
Feb 21, 2019
45
Its normal to fear death. Actually, it is among the most natural feelings you could ever experience.

Your energy, once you die and decompose, will be redistributed back into Earth. This isn't some spiritual boho talk. Energy is what makes us, us. Its what keeps us and other animals and ecosystems alive. Your energy will still be here after your consciousness ceases. That is truly what you are losing: consciousness. Your brain function.. thoughts, memories, personality attributes, character, you are your conciousness. Unfortunately at death, that will indeed be lost; unless there is some type of technology developed to preserve it.

Some religions and cultures consider part of our consciousness to be our soul or spirit. Whether you believe that or not is your decision.
 
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NoWayOut22

NoWayOut22

Member
Nov 13, 2020
47
if we can be born once, then couldnt we be born again? just think of that for a second.

if that does not make sense then being born once doesnt either.

why can we only do this once? when we shouldnt be here at all.

we are born once, in a place we have no control over, location wise, into a gender we had no say over and then one day we die? life is cruel but its not that cruel.

this is coming from a person who has his SN and doing everything I can to delay the inevitable but I know thats how im gonna die, sadly.

Ive studied death, life after death, reincarnation since 2016 and after all these years im very content and happy with what ive come to learn happens when we die.

I hope you change your perspective because if not it will eat you alive, being stuck here tortured like I am or one day ending your life. Both suck.

Good luck to you in future what ever happens.
 
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Pookie

Pookie

Somebody you used to know.
Oct 18, 2020
1,051
I see death as going under general anaesthesia. One minute you're here and the next minute you're gone. There's no eternity to experience because there's nothing to comprehend it. Consciousness is lost so there's no thinking process.

I'm always bewildered when I come to from anaesthesia, it takes a while for me to realise where I am and what just happened. It sometimes feels as though I've just been under for a few minutes when the actual surgery was about two hours. It's like your brain has been switched off during surgery and then suddenly gets switched back on again afterwards.

Now of course I can't guarantee that this is what happens when one dies because I've never died before. :pfff: But this is what I'd like to believe.
 
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capitalJ

Member
Aug 16, 2019
5
I'm in the same boat for this one.
I was fine for billions of years before I was born. I will be fine for the next billions of years after I die. Dying is easier said than done though. Otherwise none of us would be here right now.
Well yes, but after the state of being born comes the actual birth. But after death, you stay dead. Nothing. While of course, I won't be there to even think about anything since I'm dead, I'm still scared of the eternal nothingness that is death for some reason.

I'm not scared of dying at all, but I'm scared of the eternal nothingness that is death.
 
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Beachedwhale

Mage
Mar 3, 2021
526
How do you know that there will never ever be another conscious 'you' after death? How do you know that death is not like the time before you were born (implying a conscious 'you' will be 'born again')? How do you really know what consciousness is or why you were born in this body of yours? What if after death 'you' will exist one quadrillion years from now as alien X on planet Y in galaxy Z? What if there will be another big bang? What if the Boltzmann brain or multiple universe theory is real? What if...
 
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EnnuiCat

EnnuiCat

Completely Catawampus
Nov 20, 2020
57
I relish the notion of eternal nothingness. The peacefulness of non-existence. What would actually terrify me is if my consciousness were to continue on for eternity. That would be a hellish nightmare.
 
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Lupgevif

Lupgevif

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Jul 23, 2020
928
I can only trust there is no conscience after death, then I won't even feel or realize all the centuries I've been dead for.
 
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Callie Arcale

Callie Arcale

It’s a tale told by an idiot signifying nothing
Feb 10, 2021
852
For me it's the opposite: I'm counting on it being eternal.

Sweet, neverending non-existence!!!
 
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Beachedwhale

Mage
Mar 3, 2021
526
Also, there won't be any 'you' to experience nothingness. Let's say that after death an almost infinite time passes. Perhaps there is an almost infinitesimal chance that this world or one like it occurs again. But since so much time has passed, it happens. Then, there may be another 'you' (but maybe a happier one).
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
If there's eternal, I'll probably just try to ctb every single time lol and if I can't die anymore, f*ck!
 
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All Things Must Pass

All Things Must Pass

Mage
Apr 14, 2021
557
You already made this thread 4 days before this one. Here.
And it's not the same as time before I was born. Because that period wasn't eternal as I was eventually born.
It is! You are counting forwards from point X (the beginning of time) to point Y (the time you were born) which you shouldn't do because there is no beginning of time! And even if there was, you aren't concious waiting in a lobby.
 
Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,082
Some of us believe in reincarnation. Whether it's good or bad to be reborn hundreds or thousands of times, I think it happens.
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
905
For me it's like being sleeping without dreaming. But never wake up again.
 
Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,732
Same, and everyone who tells you otherwise is (respectfully) kidding themselves. The human mind can't even really fathom what infinite means. Even suicidal as I am, I think it's terrible that anything dies at all.
 
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Efilismislife

Efilismislife

Psychopath family tortured me
May 25, 2021
642
Well human arent vampire whos immortal.
And dont know if vampire is real, but its cool
like the movie dracula
Same, and everyone who tells you otherwise is (respectfully) kidding themselves. The human mind can't even really fathom what infinite means. Even suicidal as I am, I think it's terrible that anything dies at all.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I'm scared too. However I just wish I was never born so I didn't have to experience anything here during this age. Nothing but humiliating torture
 

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