I struggle with this almost every single day. Average 5-6 days a week I keep trying to come up with possible solutions to motivate myself to keep going. Also reminding myself, the longer I remain depressed and unmotivated, and delay taking action towards building a better future, the further behind I will become, and it will just compound and get even worst later.
Yet I'm still not able to move forward much, and just stuck at the same spot, continuing to fall behind, as time waits for no one and there is a cost for not taking action everyday
However, every time I finally motivate myself to take some small action that is long-term related, not long after I will naturally question what is even the point of it. All this effort towards building a future seems more like a trap, and putting myself in a position to just prolong the suffering by continuing to live, as it is not worth all the hassle
You're not alone. I wish CTB was easier. It truly is a struggle and never ending torture