What other ways to (peacefully) CTB are left in my case?

[HNR_]

- I can't get my hands on NA where I live for obvious reason
- I seemingly can't get nitrogen or another gas canister since, from what I've seen, this stuff's ultra-regulated, only sold to some corpos or whatever for specific things
- Getting SN from DSL is now either impossible or highly risky

I'm so tired of getting my hopes dashed every time I seemingly find the next solution to end my suffering, I've reached a point where I'm considering jumping, even though it's hardly a peaceful way to go out

 

[isthisthingon]

The less peaceful the more SI in my opinion. An attempt to jump has got to be the hardest. I don't see how anyone overcomes that.

 

[bruised_reed]

I'm personally doing the CO method in my car using charcoal.

 

[HNR_]

The CO method's also not an option for me, unfortunately...

The less peaceful the more SI in my opinion. An attempt to jump has got to be the hardest. I don't see how anyone overcomes that.

There comes to a point where I'm getting tired of waiting
How some folks here have been waiting for a couple years is beyond me tbh

 

[HNR_]

Not only are these solution out of my reach, I've also been told that jumping, even from insanely high heights, doesn't fully guarantee anything

I swear if I have to live another month, this thread'll devolve into a rant one

 

[isthisthingon]

Not only are these solution out of my reach, I've also been told that jumping, even from insanely high heights, doesn't fully guarantee anything

I swear if I have to live another month, this thread'll devolve into a rant one

I feel your pain, I'm currently stuck waiting to execute. Every method has a chance of survival. There is not an easy path.

 

[HNR_]

Thing is, failing would suck but I'd be able to try again if I failed with, say, SN by vomiting (I know, it can have more serious complications but I mean if I were to vomit it right away), I could try again

If I'm wheelchair bound, I don't think I could...
There's also no euthanasia laws here so the consequences would be way worse than if I lived in another European country where such laws exist

 

[HNR_]

Little update, I wanted to jump instead and I can't even fucking do that

I don't mind taking a couple trains but for the two best locations, I'd have to rely on buses too which suck so much ass here because of the billions of lines and how much time spent waiting (an hour and a half for one of them, in the middle of a fucking heatwave) and as much as I'd like to walk instead, I also can't since I'd have to walk for hours to get from one train station to another on foot
I'm so goddamn tired of all my research being utterly pointless every time I think about a new alternative

At that point, I'm almost hoping that some dude pulls a gun on me to rob me, I'd jump him and press the trigger for him

 

[HNR_]

Posting my random rant here to not pollute the site with a pointless thread:

Fuck, I wish I thought about jumping as an alternative when I was planning out the No² or the SN one...I would've been gone for a month or two at this point
(Btw, I figured out a good route that'd only require me to take 5-6 trains without much walking or extra busses, it's at least not a ludicrous one like what Google maps suggested)

Instead, I have to suffer through the hottest, shittiest summer this country's ever been through, trains are getting cancelled left and right and even going outside feels like getting cooked in the oven

Summer's always been the worst season imo and this only reinforces my opinion, on top of making me even more upset at myself for not planning ahead
There's always a gotcha to every single thing I gotta do or have to go through, when will it stop?

 

[iwashere]

I'm personally doing the CO method in my car using charcoal.

i tried this last year. car gets unbearably stuffy/hot. wear loose clothes

 

[ZeroRedz02]

- I can't get my hands on NA where I live for obvious reason
- I seemingly can't get nitrogen or another gas canister since, from what I've seen, this stuff's ultra-regulated, only sold to some corpos or whatever for specific things
- Getting SN from DSL is now either impossible or highly risky

I'm so tired of getting my hopes dashed every time I seemingly find the next solution to end my suffering, I've reached a point where I'm considering jumping, even though it's hardly a peaceful way to go out

About jumping a guy did find a way to pass out immediately before falling, just check the threads behind

 

[HNR_]

About jumping a guy did find a way to pass out immediately before falling, just check the threads behind

That's the least of my concerns, the will is there, I don't think SI will kick in,
Thanks for the recommendation though, I suppose I'll check it out

 

[ZeroRedz02]

That's the least of my concerns, the will is there, I don't think SI will kick in,
Thanks for the recommendation though, I suppose I'll check it out

No problema bro!

 

[HappyPotato69]

what about LSH

 

[HNR_]

what about LSH

What's that? The one related to hanging?

I don't know of a good spot to do that and I really don't want to go for this...doesn't really sound peaceful, takes a long time depending on how you do it and I'd also not want to do it, due to the family related stuff with this...

 

[isthisthingon]

The CO method's also not an option for me, unfortunately...

There comes to a point where I'm getting tired of waiting
How some folks here have been waiting for a couple years is beyond me tbh

I think about this to. Will "tomorrow" be the same plan for the next few years. I hope not. I can't imagine waking up like this for that much longer.

 

[Redhand5]

Can you find some poison hemlock in your area? I've tried it twice, obviously didn't work, but it wasn't painful at all.

 

[StardustWeAre]

About jumping a guy did find a way to pass out immediately before falling, just check the threads behind

Hi! Can you share a link to this thread? Can't find it

 

[HNR_]

About jumping a guy did find a way to pass out immediately before falling, just check the threads behind

Hi! Can you share a link to this thread? Can't find it

Ditto, actually

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

The less peaceful the more SI in my opinion. An attempt to jump has got to be the hardest. I don't see how anyone overcomes that.

I tried to jump off a high bridge that would have been 99% certain death. As much as I wanted it, my body just took over and froze with fear looking down and started to retract back. I dont know how people do it, but I'm so jealous.

 

[larvicide]

Can you find some poison hemlock in your area? I've tried it twice, obviously didn't work, but it wasn't painful at all.

how much did you have and how much do you think it would require?

 

[Redhand5]

how much did you have and how much do you think it would require?

I have made a post about the topic of hemlock. Please refer to that post and ask any questions there. I don't want to hijack this thread about it anymore :)

 

[T22222222]

About jumping a guy did find a way to pass out immediately before falling, just check the threads behind

wait could you please share this

 

[ZeroRedz02]

wait could you please share this

I should find the thread

 

[T22222222]

Ditto, actually

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/is-this-possibly-a-perfect-method.248456/#post-3516778
i think i found it

 

[HNR_]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/is-this-possibly-a-perfect-method.248456/#post-3516778
i think i found it

Thank you!

Ah, man, the solution's benzos which I don't have access to
My father has strong painkillers due to something he had last year but I highly doubt that if I manage to steal a pill from him, I could store it somewhere for a while, humidity might dissolve it over time...
He could spot me as well since they're in his room

 

[T22222222]

Not really, benzos isn't the only solution- there's another method listed in that thread. let me share the link to the specific solution

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/is-this-possibly-a-perfect-method.248456/post-3516699

Thank you!

Ah, man, the solution's benzos which I don't have access to
My father has strong painkillers due to something he had last year but I highly doubt that if I manage to steal a pill from him, I could store it somewhere for a while, humidity might dissolve it over time...
He could spot me as well since they're in his room

 

[ZeroRedz02]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/is-this-possibly-a-perfect-method.248456/#post-3516778
i think i found it

Yes it was this one, congratulation to find it, i really don't know how i could find a thread so easily.

 

[HNR_]

Not really, benzos isn't the only solution- there's another method listed in that thread. let me share the link to the specific solution

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/is-this-possibly-a-perfect-method.248456/post-3516699

Oh damn, thanks a lot!