What methods have you absolutely ruled out?

[PrincessInWhite]

Anyone else still cycling around methods constantly? I have been for the longest time. I do plan to give some more things a chance first but I want my plan ready to go.

I have ruled out:
- carbon monoxide: if you survive the damage can take over a month to become apparent, and I'm just too anxious for that. It sounds like hell.
- N: again with my anxiety, not worth possibly getting a call or punishment from LE for me (it has happened where I'm from), not to mention I can't navigate Bitcoin for my life
- gun: don't have access to the type needed where I live
- anything with a train or vehicle: I will not traumatize the driver, they may already have mental health issues themselves
- most recently, SN: I know everyone says if you survive there's no Brain damage and that seems largely true at least anecdotally but it's basically asking for cancer later in life- I have a HUGE fear of living with debilitating and expensive medical conditions that reduce quality of life
- lastly, anything that's bound to fail or be unbearably painful: pills, immolation, cutting, etc

What methods have you ruled out and which do you keep coming back to? I'm looking into hanging (either kind) or Exit bag. This sucks. I just wish there was an easy peaceful way to go, that would calm my mind to have that.

Anyone else still cycling around methods constantly? I have been for the longest time. I do plan to give some more things a chance first but I want my plan ready to go.

I have ruled out:
- carbon monoxide: if you survive the damage can take over a month to become apparent, and I'm just too anxious for that. It sounds like hell.
- N: again with my anxiety, not worth possibly getting a call or punishment from LE for me (it has happened where I'm from), not to mention I can't navigate Bitcoin for my life
- gun: don't have access to the type needed where I live
- anything with a train or vehicle: I will not traumatize the driver, they may already have mental health issues themselves
- most recently, SN: I know everyone says if you survive there's no Brain damage and that seems largely true at least anecdotally but it's basically asking for cancer later in life- I have a HUGE fear of living with debilitating and expensive medical conditions that reduce quality of life
- lastly, anything that's bound to fail or be unbearably painful: pills, immolation, cutting, etc

What methods have you ruled out and which do you keep coming back to? I'm looking into hanging (either kind) or Exit bag. This sucks. I just wish there was an easy peaceful way to go, that would calm my mind to have that.

Bump

 

[WatermelonMel]

Anyone else still cycling around methods constantly?

Yes, I've made the mistake of researching heavily into each method to the point where I'm scared to do them because of the possibilities of failure.

I've ruled out drowning because of the pain and anything else that requires me to leave somewhere, like jumping or full suspension hanging

 

[FuneralCry]

I will not choose gun as it is not legal in my country. Train is terrifying to me. The trains in my local area go by so fast and I know I will never be able to ctb that way. I think self immolation is the worst method. Pills and cutting are unreliable. It is likely I will eventually go for hanging but I have thought about drowning. Of course something more peaceful would be ideal. I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake again. My ctb probably will not be for a long time though and I have not planned in detail.

 

[lofticries]

sn: too long to die and the result differ for each person drastically. fr some ppl are out like a light in a minute while others suffer for almost 30 mins.

train: don't wanna traumatize the conductor. srsly there was a documentary on this and it was sad af.

cutting: too much work,pain,and time.

jumping: on the fence on jumping. The way my body will look after is freaking me out but under the right circumstances i can see myself taking this route if i'm desperate.

hanging: i can't imagine so much pressure wrapped around my throat.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Jumping. Any height tall enough to be guaranteed to kill me will give me enough time to experience an intense burst of fear and regret right before I land and I don't want that. I often think about the penultimate episode of Bojack Horseman whenever jumping is brought up as a method……

 

[everydayiloveyou]

Vehicle --> It used to be one of my first choices, but I realized I'd be subjecting people to unnecessary trauma if I go this route

Cutting, CO2, or burning --> I hate pain, can't possibly do this.

Drowning --> I'm afraid of drowning, I don't want my family to be without a body to bury either (if I drown in the ocean)

Gun --> I can't buy a gun in my state because of my depression diagnosis

Jumping and hanging are my last choices, but I will do them if I have to. I'm deathly afraid of heights though. I'd have to be utterly desperate for that. Hanging seems painful and hard to execute, plus I don't have anywhere to do it. but I'd choose it before jumping.

 

[FarAcrossTheWater]

Anyone else still cycling around methods constantly? I have been for the longest time. I do plan to give some more things a chance first but I want my plan ready to go.

I have ruled out:
- carbon monoxide: if you survive the damage can take over a month to become apparent, and I'm just too anxious for that. It sounds like hell.
- N: again with my anxiety, not worth possibly getting a call or punishment from LE for me (it has happened where I'm from), not to mention I can't navigate Bitcoin for my life
- gun: don't have access to the type needed where I live
- anything with a train or vehicle: I will not traumatize the driver, they may already have mental health issues themselves
- most recently, SN: I know everyone says if you survive there's no Brain damage and that seems largely true at least anecdotally but it's basically asking for cancer later in life- I have a HUGE fear of living with debilitating and expensive medical conditions that reduce quality of life
- lastly, anything that's bound to fail or be unbearably painful: pills, immolation, cutting, etc

What methods have you ruled out and which do you keep coming back to? I'm looking into hanging (either kind) or Exit bag. This sucks. I just wish there was an easy peaceful way to go, that would calm my mind to have that.

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It sounds like you've ruled out all the possible methods.

 

[NormaJeane]

"It sounds like you´ve ruled out all the possible methods" sounds like the biggest lie or falsehood based on a very short life experience and knowledge I have ever heard. It seems like there are a lot of people here who have nothing to do, people who have no interest in suicide.

 

[PrincessInWhite]

"It sounds like you´ve ruled out all the possible methods" sounds like the biggest lie or falsehood based on a very short life experience and knowledge I have ever heard. It seems like there are a lot of people here who have nothing to do, people who have no interest in suicide.

thank you, not gonna dignify that answer with a response but I found it pretty damn stupid, I literally listed methods Im considering

 

[Amumu]

Just jumping, because people can survive incredible heights. And horribly painful methods. I'm ok with all the rest.

 

[Lifeless mindset]

Guns because you only have one chance and the risk of failure is way too high

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

SN is my favorite.

 

[Crazy4u]

Train: don't want to traumatize others
Jumping from a building: due to phobia
Cutting: low chance of success

I want to disappear and not be found. I don't want anyone to find me alive or dead. A national park may be convenient

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Guns: Too hard/expensive to get where I live.

N: Too expensive.

Jumping: Almost no tall buildings very close to me.

Cutting: The idea of it makes me gag.

Train: It would just feel too weird, because my Dad got run over by a train in 2008. Totally an accident and he survived. But just... no, no train for me.

 

[clown_17]

Full suspension. I'm okay with most things if push came to shove but I heard a report of someone who hung them selves (they were a scientist or something and were doing an experiment) and they couldn't stay for longer than 3 seconds. They claimed it was the worst pain of their life.

 

[SleepDealer]

Ruled out:
Firearms - Can't obtain, but if I had one I would
Vehicles - I don't want to traumatize anyone or die anywhere public
Cutting - SI would be hard to overcome and this seems unreliable
SN - Seems too hard to obtain
N - Ditto SN

Already tried:
All kinds of pills - All kinds of side effects except death, unfortunately.
Suffocation - Survival instincts kicked in stopped me (and big ol gas tanks raise suspicion).
Antifreeze - Slow, painful, and nowadays they mix it with chemicals that make it taste awful. Easy to obtain, but good luck keeping it down and waiting it out.
Oleander - Seem difficult to keep down, but it could be because I mixed it with some pills and alcohol. In short, this failed because I threw up and my oleander was later confiscated. It's low key and kills fast, so if you mix it with food and something that'll stop you from throwing up, it (supposedly) kills in 30 minutes. The symptoms are absolutely awful though.
Fruit Amygdalin - Supposed to metabolize into cyanide. It's low-key, but how many pits you need in order for this to work isn't very obvious. Clearly, I didn't have enough. This requires experimentation and I wasn't being very serious about it, just had a lot of fruit lying around... Only a good method if you're unable to obtain regular cyanide, and crazy enough to try cyanide in the first place.
Night-Night - Would be ideal, but I can't get it to work reliably. Not sure what changed that made it stop working for me.
Partial Suspension - Similar to night-night, not ruled out entirely but my survival instincts kicked in last time I got it to work.
Jumping - Very impulsive decision when I was younger, can't remember how high the building was. Painful. I wish I could overcome SI like that again.

My current method is full suspension hanging or some other strangulation method. I could probably jump as well, but not from a building. I'd jump from a cliff somewhere remote. Drowning is a possibility too but it seems painful and by this point I'm tired of painful, ineffective methods.

Don't ask me why I avoided hanging all this time, I guess I'm dumb and it's easier for me to swallow something than to step off a stool or ladder. Instincts are hell.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

I want my suicide to be my own. I've felt alone and afraid my whole life, and I want my suicide to be the same. I don't want to share it with anyone, even unwilling participants. I would not die by train or do something incredibly stupid like die by cop.

 

[PrincessInWhite]

Ruled out:
Firearms - Can't obtain, but if I had one I would
Vehicles - I don't want to traumatize anyone or die anywhere public
Cutting - SI would be hard to overcome and this seems unreliable
SN - Seems too hard to obtain
N - Ditto SN

Already tried:
All kinds of pills - All kinds of side effects except death, unfortunately.
Suffocation - Survival instincts kicked in stopped me (and big ol gas tanks raise suspicion).
Antifreeze - Slow, painful, and nowadays they mix it with chemicals that make it taste awful. Easy to obtain, but good luck keeping it down and waiting it out.
Oleander - Seem difficult to keep down, but it could be because I mixed it with some pills and alcohol. In short, this failed because I threw up and my oleander was later confiscated. It's low key and kills fast, so if you mix it with food and something that'll stop you from throwing up, it (supposedly) kills in 30 minutes. The symptoms are absolutely awful though.
Fruit Amygdalin - Supposed to metabolize into cyanide. It's low-key, but how many pits you need in order for this to work isn't very obvious. Clearly, I didn't have enough. This requires experimentation and I wasn't being very serious about it, just had a lot of fruit lying around... Only a good method if you're unable to obtain regular cyanide, and crazy enough to try cyanide in the first place.
Night-Night - Would be ideal, but I can't get it to work reliably. Not sure what changed that made it stop working for me.
Partial Suspension - Similar to night-night, not ruled out entirely but my survival instincts kicked in last time I got it to work.
Jumping - Very impulsive decision when I was younger, can't remember how high the building was. Painful. I wish I could overcome SI like that again.

My current method is full suspension hanging or some other strangulation method. I could probably jump as well, but not from a building. I'd jump from a cliff somewhere remote. Drowning is a possibility too but it seems painful and by this point I'm tired of painful, ineffective methods.

Don't ask me why I avoided hanging all this time, I guess I'm dumb and it's easier for me to swallow something than to step off a stool or ladder. Instincts are hell.

You've been through so much…I'm glad you're here, at least tonight, to share it with us

I want my suicide to be my own. I've felt alone and afraid my whole life, and I want my suicide to be the same. I don't want to share it with anyone, even unwilling participants. I would not die by train or do something incredibly stupid like die by cop.

Hugs to you- I totally agree about no die by cop or anything with random spectators, absolutely not

 

[FarAcrossTheWater]

thank you, not gonna dignify that answer with a response but I found it pretty damn stupid, I literally listed methods Im considering

Yeah and there were a lot of them. It's called hyperbole. Y'all have no chill for people who have no reason to live.

"It sounds like you´ve ruled out all the possible methods" sounds like the biggest lie or falsehood based on a very short life experience and knowledge I have ever heard. It seems like there are a lot of people here who have nothing to do, people who have no interest in suicide.

It was sarcastic hyperbole. Maybe you should chill out and listen to some smooth jazz or something.

 

[Ednospatient]

Jumping in front of a train is a "hell no" because I don't want to be chopped up into pieces lol

 

[Makko]

Poisons. Boring.

Hanging, drowning, gassing or anything else to do with suffocation or strangulation. Just not into it.

 

[callme]

Poisons. Boring.

Hanging, drowning, gassing or anything else to do with suffocation or strangulation. Just not into it.

Then.. what is it, if you don't mind? You ruled out all the best methods

"Just not into" hanging, drowning, gassing etc? Understandable. Finally somebody agrees BDSM is too much.

 

[Addi_Madd]

I used to think stepping in front of a train was infallible if selfish as like others have said you could traumatise witnesses and the driver. Then I saw some videos from India of people who'd been literally cut in half by trains and lived for a few minutes. It was absolutely horrifying, one in particular, the poor man was clearly in shock and trying to get upright on his torso and kept falling over. The crowd around him, so many of them filming on their phones, pointing and jabbering, nobody helping. Knowing my luck in life if I do it that would be me.

I've now tried to rule out any method that would involve witnesses or unwilling participants (like the driver of a train) as I feel my punishment by the universe for doing that would be for my death to be prolonged, agonising and humiliating and live on as a viral gore video.

 

[Makko]

Then.. what is it, if you don't mind? You ruled out all the best methods

Jumping from airplane is my current favorite. You need paperwork to be able to jump without an instructor but that's not a problem to get for me.

 

[czx85]

Vehicle --> It used to be one of my first choices, but I realized I'd be subjecting people to unnecessary trauma if I go this route

Cutting, CO2, or burning --> I hate pain, can't possibly do this.

Drowning --> I'm afraid of drowning, I don't want my family to be without a body to bury either (if I drown in the ocean)

Gun --> I can't buy a gun in my state because of my depression diagnosis

Jumping and hanging are my last choices, but I will do them if I have to. I'm deathly afraid of heights though. I'd have to be utterly desperate for that. Hanging seems painful and hard to execute, plus I don't have anywhere to do it. but I'd choose it before jumping.

Which state are you living in? Have you tried private trade?

 

[Apricity]

Which state are you living in? Have you tried private trade?

Guns are easy to get in the US if you have the money. I was recently offered one for $400, but am broke. It would have been totally illegal, as I was recently on a 5150 hold, plus I'm a felon.

 

[everydayiloveyou]

Which state are you living in? Have you tried private trade?

I won't say exactly for privacy reasons, but it's a very liberal, coastal state.

 

[Jumping_realms]

Guns because you only have one chance and the risk of failure is way too high

A shotgun has the highest success rate. 99.1%.

A .357 or bigger caliber handgun is nearly as effective.

A .22, .25 or even a .380 handgun is out of the question for me. If I'm gonna do it with that method, I'd need to find something to take 3/4 of my head off, hitting the brain stem.

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

Ruling out jumping off building or in front of train for the sake of avoiding traumatizing bystanders or the train driver, as well as the possibility of surviving a high jump and high speed collision with severe damage.

No cutting, since I don't even consider that a real method, let alone a reliable one.

No gun, have to be 21 to get a gun where I live.

 

[czx85]

I won't say exactly for privacy reasons, but it's a very liberal, coastal state.

I see. If you REALLY want one, it's definitely more than possible.
I'm also from a heavy democrats state, with depression diagnose. Luckily private trade does not check backgrounds. So I got mine from private trade