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Vegrau

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Nov 27, 2018
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I choose the middle. The best answer is almost always in the grey areas.

I mean, politically I'm a 'liberal', but not in the way we use the word here in the US. I'm a liberal because I think the government needs to change, dramatically. However, I think the left is largely just a different set of tyrants, people who just want to swing the pendulum so they get to be the oppressors. I mean, I'd align more with what people would refer to as liberals, than conservatives, that's for sure, but I still can't stand either side.

I believe in compassion, but I also believe that compassion alone doesn't make change. I believe in the 'fish rots from the head' mentality, and whether they 'deserve' a chance to rehabilitate or not, the first step is cut off the head to stop the infection. Compassion is the way of a better world, but it is not 'sinking to someone's level' to shed some blood to excise the the cancer. Not that I trust humans to make that judgment call, but if you can't trust humans to make that call, then you can't trust humans in general...

I sure as fuck don't believe in democracy, because not everyone deserves an equal say. Too many stupid people who are easily swayed by bullshit and anger for that.

Well its better people ditch those labels. They mean nothing and they confuse the hell out of everyone since no one can come to an agreement on what the word supposed to mean. Liberal, socialist, conservative. Those words being thrown around so much it doesnt seems like it means anything other than just a name.

Such rigid and forceful form or conformity will only lead to extremist and disaster. But people love it. Politics will always be the game for powerful and rich. People below will always be nothing more than pawn. Closing their eyes and ears. Surrendering their freedom and power in exchange for this meager existence. I wonder if people knew what they had lost. Or whether they possess soul at all sometimes.

Like doctors they learn how to heal but at the same time how to kill. Compassion and violence are usable depend on the situation. And no they cant make the call. They dont know to stop most of the time. Both sides. They always goes over board.

Voters can be sway and bought. With lies and greed the victory is won. With ignorance the power solidify.
 
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TooLate2582

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May 6, 2018
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I see. Rather than fraud it can also be call humble. Not taking credit for your own work. Knowing your own flaw and weaknesses. Doubting yourself and not getting full of yourself.


It could be but I constantly feel it's all gonna come crashing down
 
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Donewith_

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Sep 28, 2018
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Then those people are weird and quite narrow minded. We can never be the same as others. No matter how hard we try or want to. After all no one have the same experience. Then again why do you use the word sick though? Just because youre different from your family doesnt make you sick unless youre physically sick then thats another story.

Thanks for trying to understand..But actually they are great people(really). Yeah, I tried to change myself but failed to. By saying sick, I mean.. mentally, not physically. I don't like me. Ex. They care about me even now, but I don't measure upto how I should treat them good. I just feel indifferent to people sometimes.
 
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Vegrau

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Nov 27, 2018
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Thanks for trying to understand..But actually they are great people(really). Yeah, I tried to change myself but failed to. By saying sick, I mean.. mentally, not physically. I don't like me. Ex. They care about me even now, but I don't measure upto how I should treat them good. I just feel indifferent to people sometimes.

I see.. for the longest time I felt like I am a monster compare to the people around me. I grew up in a normal family. Maybe not as good as yours but at least the mother is kind. Yet I can only care about them physically. I know what I should do but I could never feel any closeness with them. Theres no one and nothing I cannot let go. No such thing as kinship, friendship or warmth.. I wonder why I am like this but theres nothing I can do. I simply not born with that ability. Until I met him. So dont blame/punish yourself for who you are. As long as your heart is in the right place and you know the right thing to do. You are already good.
 
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Vegrau

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665
It could be but I constantly feel it's all gonna come crashing down

Well the truth is everything will eventually come crashing down sooner or later. No matter how good or bad youre doing with your life. Something will eventually mess it up. Hardwork doesnt guarantee anything. World is just based on luck. Its alright to enjoy it a little bit..
 
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Sep 28, 2018
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I see.. for the longest time I felt like I am a monster compare to the people around me. I grew up in a normal family. Maybe not as good as yours but at least the mother is kind. Yet I can only care about them physically. I know what I should do but I could never feel any closeness with them. Theres no one and nothing I cannot let go. No such thing as kinship, friendship or warmth.. I wonder why I am like this but theres nothing I can do. I simply not born with that ability. Until I met him. So dont blame/punish yourself for who you are. As long as your heart is in the right place and you know the right thing to do. You are already good.

Every family is unique :)
..until you met whom?
 
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Vegrau

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Nov 27, 2018
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Every family is unique :)
..until you met whom?

Thats very true.. but too different at times.

Well until I met him. Someone I love.
 
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RememberWhatUCameFor

dont cry for me im already dead
Nov 20, 2018
590
remember:

there will always be an asian kid who is better/smarter/more "special" than you
 
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Vegrau

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Nov 27, 2018
665
remember:

there will always be an asian kid who is better/smarter/more "special" than you

Rather than me I am more interested in what you think differentiate you from others.
 
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RememberWhatUCameFor

dont cry for me im already dead
Nov 20, 2018
590
Rather than me I am more interested in what you think differentiate you from others.

what does this even mean? in which context? i mean its all relative isnt it?

classic example: guy/girl thinks he is smart bc he/she performs well in the local highschool in a inbreed village but once he/she leaves for college in a big city he/she gets often reminded that he/she is not so exceptional intelligent then he/she used to think..
 
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RememberWhatUCameFor

dont cry for me im already dead
Nov 20, 2018
590
Well when i would compare myself to my immediate surroundings or generally people i meet daily it appears that i am special in the way i can see through all of the bullshit and how much of a shithole the world actually is. But that type of "special" isn't really appreciated much i must say. When i try to be factual and realistic i get accused of being negative.

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isnt this the mindset of an average teenager though? not excluding myself here
 
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Vegrau

Wizard
Nov 27, 2018
665
isnt this the mindset of an average teenager though? not excluding myself here

Ahh now this is what I am interested in. Theres no such thing as teenagers thought or adult thought. Its all made up for the sake of fake maturity. The sake of false superiority. How many adults we have seen in our lives that acted precisely like "teenagers" all the time. Not admitting to their own mistakes. Throwing tantrum when being called out. Defensive when their "authority" being challenged. Ignoring facts and truth. Believing in their own delusion. Also the worse is lying. Theyre no better than the teenagers. So its kind ironic when they say teenagers in a demeaning way. To exemplify immaturity. There is no difference between teenagers or adult. The only difference is our experience and how we choose to conduct ourselves. Labels are pointless at this point. Considering the site we are on.
 
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