What makes you feel the worst?

[Bobert_Beniro]

Could you list your saddest thoughts? For me it's in descending order: 1) My appearance and health. I'm 23 but I already have a bald head and a couple of chronic diseases. Unfortunately, I cannot and do not want to change this in any way. 2) I regret the lost youth. I spent my best years in depression, while the rest of the teenagers enjoyed life and interaction with the opposite sex. 3) My life sucks compared to other people. I was born in a poor country and a poor family, it's unpleasant for me to see somehow lives in the countries of the first world, can travel while I live on a garbage can

 

[FuneralCry]

Just having the ability to exist here is such a terrible thing to me, what makes me feel the worst is knowing that if I don't find a way to leave I could be trapped here for decades where all that is inevitable is even more suffering, loss and then decay. The existence of life truly is a horrific tragedy and it's a curse how there is endless potential for suffering and harm in this world, there is so much dread as long as one exists here and only death could ever offer freedom.

I really do despise existing and being a slave to suffering and this decaying flesh prison, existence itself is slavery as to exist means to be trapped with no relief from ourselves, we are all trapped within our own thoughts, aware of the futility of it all. Life is only meaningless suffering that amounts to nothing in the end, it's all just so unnecessary and it repluses me how we are denied a way to just exit in peace, sadly we exist in a world where people wish to make us prisoners to this existence, trapped in an endless cycle of torment until someday death erases everything for us.

 

[unnormal9]

No being able to die
Chronic pain
Dealing with illness
Reminded of my repressed past
Reminded of past failures
Reminded of my past suicides failures
Not being able to do the one thing I started but can't finish because of money
Euthanasia not available
Lack of care for disabled both gatekeeping

 

[Unknown21]

No being able to die
Chronic pain
Dealing with illness
Reminded of my repressed past
Reminded of past failures
Reminded of my past suicides failures
Not being able to do the one thing I started but can't finish because of money
Euthanasia not available
Lack of care for disabled both gatekeeping

The same

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Seeing things that severely trigger my dysphoria.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

Dreams about my ex and I living a happy life together. I hate myself so much it shows in my dreams, I don't even know if they're nightmares at this point.

 

[sheleftme1]

Losing her...

 

[loopdaloop]

Reading about peaceful and reliable suicide methods that are completely unavailable due to restriction and intervention, and then having to resort to painful methods

 

[Georg]

Going outside and seeing couples

 

[Body bobi]

My parents