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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,165
Sorry about your "prison"
What makes me feel less alone?
Well, I'm being a prisoner in my parent's house but I guess the great part of being here is my dog, Tomi. I just love him and his company so much!
 

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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,024
Marijuana. SS helps, and I try to distract myself with gaming. If the kids aren't here I stay in my bed and do IPad since everything in the house reminds me of them, and it makes me more lonely and sad to walk around.
 
Jon86

Jon86

Specialist
Apr 9, 2018
369
Spending quality time with other people, perhaps animals as well, time spent alone won't fill the void from being alone. Movies, books, video games, sports, daydreaming, porn, even music will lose there appeal if they aren't balanced with a healthy social life. They are akin to drugs, they will have diminishing returns over time, the internet is the drug of choice for the lonely but it's just that, a drug, a dopamine hit to fill a void.

I've been TRULY alone for over a decade now, battling diseases that just get worse despite monumental efforts. I could cope with the loneliness, with hope in the beginning, now all my fond memories are a decade+ in the past and replaced with a life of horror. I can't really enjoy anything and if I do it's only momentary. I wake up in a depressed state and go to bed in one without fail, anything positive is fleeting.

Listening to music in the dark and daydreaming with my eyes out of focus about my past or dreaming of a future that will never be is the closest thing I have to feeling 'whole'. It's similar to using drugs, I go to a comatose state with the help of music, darkness and pain built up for decades.

Nothing works, I am an introvert but I am not a true loner, i've been cast aside like a leper without a colony. I'm not meant to live like this, the loneliness is fucking horrible, the pain only grows with time. I used to think, i'd be able to handle loneliness, I was fucking wrong, I didn't realize how much I used to have.
 
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Wraith

Wraith

Lost in The Void
Nov 4, 2020
181
Alcohol, SS, gaming, and my two cats. Really anything that distracts from the bleakness of these four walls.
 
MewtwoIsAlive

MewtwoIsAlive

Experienced
Jul 11, 2020
208
Gaming in the past, but in the last few years im becoming super angry and annoyed when I lose so Im trying to play less and switch games that make me go crazy. So mostly watching movies or youtube videos...
 
Nexuno

Nexuno

Specialist
Dec 9, 2020
301
Whenever I forget about myself and the rest of the world I feel less alone and "complete". In order to accomplish this I must be... alone. Isn't funny?
 

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