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Rocky M

Rocky M

I'm A Monster
Jun 20, 2018
213
Playing piano
 
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TheLastStraw

Member
May 10, 2018
55
Good food and drugs, and I had to quit the drugs to avoid the negative half of it
 
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ArtoriasWolf

ArtoriasWolf

FBI agent
Jun 7, 2018
12
Game and movies. Only choice I have too.
 
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SoLost

New Member
Jun 17, 2018
3
Sleep. Sleeping is one of the only few things left I still enjoy.. Every night I go to sleep hoping to never wake up again. Waking up is so depressing for me. If I'm awake then the only thing I like to do is eat, I'm tired of everything else.
 
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262653

262653

Cluesome
Apr 5, 2018
1,733
Low impact cardio, erotics, a few videogames, black/death metal bootlegs from late 90s.
But the main reason is no need to work or do chores for a living because relatives do that for me.
 
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MAIO

Elementalist
Apr 8, 2018
835
Life has always been bearable for me, I could survive the rest of my life pretty easily. I just think death would be better.
 
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Malice1

Malice1

Experienced
Apr 6, 2018
285
Porn. That is all. Nothing else gives me pleasures.
Cherish that. Its a great pleasure. Used to be my only. I probably wouldn't ctb if i could still enjoy it.
 
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El Topo

El Topo

(---)
Apr 21, 2018
477
Cherish that. Its a great pleasure. Used to be my only. I probably wouldn't ctb if i could still enjoy it.

lol sorry but this is made me laugh. You sound like a wise elder giving advice to a student.

"Porn is a great thing, young one. You were not alive during the Dark Age, when there was no porn. Now that there is porn, man is happy. Cherish it. It is a great pleasure. But only use it for good."
 
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Imaginos

Imaginos

Full-time layabout
Apr 7, 2018
638
Not a god damn thing, frankly. All I have are a few empty distractions, but they certainly don't make life bearable in any way, shape or form. Too infrequent, with too little efficacy. Sleep is basically Russian roulette. It's great and all if I can have some nice dreams while I'm asleep (better yet if I have none at al), but nightmares can make it the worst thing in the world. The kind I get are always deeply disturbing and leave me with a throbbing headache upon waking. Thankfully though, nightmares are pretty rare for me. Be that as it may, waking up in general tends to make me feel at least somewhat awful, even on a normal night, so the cost always outweighs the benefit. It's all just a series of dead ends, I'm afraid.

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CantGoOn

CantGoOn

Member
Jun 7, 2018
73
Nothing
 
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war-is-lost

Student
Apr 15, 2018
124
Sleep and surfing suicidal websites. It's not really bearable but it would have to do as my date is 2.5 weeks away and I need to engage in escapism as much as I could.
 
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sadak_the_wanderer

sadak_the_wanderer

An appropriate painting
Mar 19, 2018
245
Escapism in the form of fiction is a decent way to pass the time. My pain control medications help, although the alleviation of the physical pain is not what does the trick; rather, they leave me so messed up that I do not dwell on my situation much. It's easier to suspend disbelief and envision a scenario in which I am loved and wanted around when I am under some kind of chemical trance.

If sufficiently doped up, I can entertain a fantasy wherein I get to hold someone, someone who will hold me back, before I die.

Much of my endurance is in realizing the things I have to do before I can Catch the Bus.
 
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YaYaDr

YaYaDr

Student
Jun 26, 2018
128
There were certain distractions that I previously indulged in which I can no longer partake in anymore. When I look back, all I think about is how I wasted my time on those things when all they only did was help me cover up my depression.

These days I spend a lot of my time watching YouTube videos on atheism as it suits my rather contemplative/philosophical mood as what I anticipate to be the end of my life draws near. Other than that, I watch the occasional K-drama, play my piano, and read. It helps kill the time before I get to kill myself.
 
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CogitoMori

Specialist
Oct 21, 2024
335
Planning my death. It's the only thing I look forward to.
 
Aurora Vanderlux

Aurora Vanderlux

I was nerfed for the sake of the plot
Oct 1, 2020
1,622
reading and alcohol
 
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dumbnhappy

dumbnhappy

just say it ditto
May 22, 2024
43
Knowing that my sister needs me and that I will achieve independence and stability
 

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