Discussion what life plans are you mad you'll miss out on? Also have you planned on leaving something behind for people you know?

[FutureHanger]

Before thinking I'm better off CTBing I planned and tried to get into self improvement, dopamine detox, make money from daytrading, go to the gym and then when I've made enough from daytrading to be free I'll spend my free time trying to change the world through political activism, donating my money, reading books and watching anime and meditating a lot to reach deep meditative states so It makes me so sad how I'm saying I would have done all that if it wasn't for my mental health dragging me down but it's just an IF, even IF I really was going to accomplish all that it's frustrating to know I won't really know that since I'll never have tried long enough anyways to see if it'll work out or not. I'm gonna use a website I found that sends emails to the future to send my younger brother an email with a bunch of advice based on what I've learned from failed attempts and research on self improvement and tell him my political views too, though I'll make it clear in the email that he doesn't have to listen to everything I say and it's his choice after all so he shouldn't feel like I'm trying to pressure him, what I write in the email will just be suggestions and advice for if he chooses to follow my suggestions but ultimately it's his life, his choice and I'm gonna be long gone by that time he reads the email so I won't be able to make him do it anyways.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I'd see ceasing to exist as a positive thing, I'd be glad to miss out on all future unnecessary suffering, it's comforting to think of death erasing all I knew. Human existence is certainly very undesirable to me, I only wish for eternal nothingness.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

When I am dead, I think the thing I will regret not having done the most is...nothing. I will be too dead to regret anything.

 

[MarsProxy]

All I wanted in life was to live with my partner and both of us find what little happiness there is in this existence. The only thing I regret is not telling him I love him more often and not giving him enough hugs and kisses before he left this world.

 

[prettycvnt]

At this moment I don't have any life plans. There's no point in making then. Nothing ever goes according to plan.

 

[Aim]

Giving the opportunity to fall deeper in love with xxx not being able to work with charity and business. That i have been worked so hard for until I got sick. Laugh and make more happy memories with my fam and friends. Learning.

 

[RichardFirst]

There are things that I wish had been different, but once I'm gone, I won't be able to worry about that. As for what I'll leave behind, well I have some money and some possessions that can be put to use by my family.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

The dead don't care what they would've missed out on. There's nothing right now that I regret I won't be able to do so it won't be any different when I'm dead. Life plans rarely ever go well anyway.

make money from daytrading,

Yeah something my older brother has been getting better at year by year but I don't care, I've helped him enough and don't want to care to continue doing this. Ctb looks far more appealing than any money you could offer me.

In my case I'd see ceasing to exist as a positive thing, I'd be glad to miss out on all future unnecessary suffering, it's comforting to think of death erasing all I knew. Human existence is certainly very undesirable to me, I only wish for eternal nothingness.

Your way with words knows very little bounds FC.

 

[Ammended]

A really nice life that I spent many years building. I'm not mad anymore. I've accepted it. I've left behind as little mess as possible and I'm working on letters.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I got no life goals or plans to begin with. There is nothing in this life that I want

 

[reiII]

im going to miss my friends. so I want to leave something behind like a big letter saying everything i loved about them. and something artistic. im in a mix between wanting to be forgotten for less pain and not wanting to.

 

[tarococo]

My sister and I used to dream about celebrating christmas together when we're older and have our own families. We'd finally be able to celebrate the holidays without our toxic relatives, only me, her and our loved ones. Her children too, since I never wanted any of my own, but I knew she'd make a great mother one day and I could be that cool aunt that always makes the most awesome gifts. We'd start our own traditions, since we never had ones to follow. We used to be very close and always wanted to make it out of this hell, together.
We haven't spoken in months. And since I plan on leaving soon, I'll never know if we would've been able to fix our relationship

 

[sserafim]

I'm sad that I won't get to travel to more places. I've always had a desire to see and explore the world. There's some places that I've always wanted to go to, but probably never will. Apart from that, I've never had any other "life plans". Nothing about what most people want in life (the societal checklist: career, partner, children, family, house) interests me.

 

[barkbark]

i'm hoping i'll be able to do it before ctbing (i am currently in the process of applying,) but i really wanted to get on a record label just for the hell of it.

in longer term stuff i also just really want to grow old with my bf and it's destroying me that i may not make it through. i wanna have a family (not like bringing new life into the world for several reasons, one being my staunch anti natalist beliefs, but in adopting and taking care of those who otherwise grew up in broken families and helping them make the best of life) but my depression and various mental health issues make it so infeasible. plus i absolutely would never want to put a hypothetical family through the hell of having a mom ctb so i would be extra cautious unless i really really for sure recover and i kinda doubt it at this point.

 

[divinemistress36]

Spending life with someone who would be the love of my life . To late to find that person I'm to mentally unstable

 

[groucho]

Done most of the big ones and still feel empty. None of it matters in my experience, in the words of Stephen Fry "making sandcastles with our backs to the sea".

 

[qu13t5l33p]

I don't see any future plans ever being worth the costs of living in my situation. Even though I have aspirations, both big and small, they'll always end up being net negatives, and I can't say I'll miss that. I'd like to take beginner adult gymnastics classes and learn the skills I always wanted to as a kid, I want to work in a big, fancy haunted house one season, I'd like to perform in a truly high quality contemporary circus production as a clown, not just the corporate parties I'm doing now, I'd like to make friends, ones that I can truly connect with and enjoy simply being around, I'd also like to learn about finance abd investing, its what I'm going to school for, I'd want to find a long term romantic partner, someone i can be completely vulnerable with and vice versa, but even with all these desires for the future, i either feel they're impossible, or not worth the pain of living to see through. Because of those factors I don't think I'll miss out on anything.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I would have liked to have had a partner. But then, I have to remind myself that my idea of love is likely far too fairytale. If I look at the reality of it, had any of the guys I liked, liked me back, I feel like all relationships would have ended badly. So really- probably better that I dodged that bullet.

I wish I'd done better in my career but realistically, the type of person I am- even if I'd been lucky enough to land a job with a top company, my social anxiety and lack of confidence would have made me feel like a fish out of water. I think it's healthier for me to be grateful for the opportunities I did get.