Discussion What keeps you going?

[3SVEAN]

What makes you carry on with living after failing?

 

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What makes you carry on with living after failing?

My daughter

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess that after all if one doesn't find a way to leave they have no choice but to continue enduring existence, and leaving simply isn't straightforward, in fact I think that succeeding in suicide is something very difficult.

 

[loyalskateboard]

To be totally honest it's a lack of motivation to organise a method like inert gas. I've considered partial but it's really a last resort. I practiced and just got that stupid exploding head feeling. It sounds bad but it's really laziness due to depression. If my plan for SN works out, I might decide to ctb.

Apart from that, I live for distractions. Music, internet, video games. It doesn't feel as magical anymore though. I like cuddling my dog and eating good food. Also just fucking around with random hobbies.

 

[Coin]

This is hardly a hot take on SS but planning and carrying out a suicide is really hard. Depending on the method, there could be lots of equipment to prepare and testing of the equipment to do. For me personally, I would want to carry out my suicide with only a minimal effect on others so finding a proper location is a task in itself. Even if I manage to set up all this properly, the suicide method chosen will have varying degrees of discomfort ranging from 'mild annoyance' to 'pure agony'. All of the 'quick and painless' options have been made illegal and impossible to obtain in my country.

I also have a fear that SI will kick in or someone will find me earlier than expected, which are always possibilities no matter how much planning goes into it. In the event that this happens, I would be left with some degree of brain damage, making my life worse than it already is and planning further attempts would be difficult to impossible.

Outside of the logistics, I also fear the inevitable impact that my suicide will have on my family and friends. I made the mistake of consuming media on how suicide affects the loved ones of the departed and their words and actions have been etched into my mind. To handle this, I was thinking about writing a letter to address some of the more predictable sentiments. I am not 100% confident that a letter alone would be able to dismiss the grief and/or discomfort of my suicide so am still trying to think of how best to solve this issue.

 

[3SVEAN]

To be totally honest it's a lack of motivation to organise a method like inert gas I've considered partial but it's really a last resort. I practiced and just got that stupid exploding head feeling. It sounds bad but it's really laziness due to depression. If my plan for SN works out, I might decide to ctb.

Apart from that, I live for distractions. Music, internet, video games. It doesn't feel as magical anymore though. I like cuddling my dog and eating good food. Also just fucking around with random hobbies.

I'm happy that your pet helps you out, as well with music etc, I love my cat and my dog and I relate to that as well

This is hardly a hot take on SS but planning and carrying out a suicide is really hard. Depending on the method, there could be lots of equipment to prepare and testing of the equipment to do. For me personally, I would want to carry out my suicide with only a minimal effect on others so finding a proper location is a task in itself. Even if I manage to set up all this properly, the suicide method chosen will have varying degrees of discomfort ranging from 'mild annoyance' to 'pure agony'. All of the 'quick and painless' options have been made illegal and impossible to obtain in my country.

I also have a fear that SI will kick in or someone will find me earlier than expected, which are always possibilities no matter how much planning goes into it. In the event that this happens, I would be left with some degree of brain damage, making my life worse than it already is and planning further attempts would be difficult to impossible.

Outside of the logistics, I also fear the inevitable impact that my suicide will have on my family and friends. I made the mistake of consuming media on how suicide affects the loved ones of the departed and their words and actions have been etched into my mind. To handle this, I was thinking about writing a letter to address some of the more predictable sentiments. I am not 100% confident that a letter alone would be able to dismiss the grief and/or discomfort of my suicide so am still trying to think of how best to solve this issue.

It means a lot to know that you still care about how your close ones and how they might react to it, I wish you the best of luck and even carrying on means a lot that you still wake up everyday be proud of yourself for still going.

 

[12_Years_Late]

I find comfort in knowing that, eventually, I will get my wish of finally reaching the afterlife, even though I can't get there until at least next week. That keeps me going even when I really don't want to.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

My fear of going to hell. I don't worship god out of love but out of terror. If I wasn't so afraid I would just drink my sn.

 

[lokabe82]

My dog. He is old I'm basically the one and only thing he adores (and vice versa)

 

[Livingvsdying25]

This is hardly a hot take on SS but planning and carrying out a suicide is really hard. Depending on the method, there could be lots of equipment to prepare and testing of the equipment to do. For me personally, I would want to carry out my suicide with only a minimal effect on others so finding a proper location is a task in itself. Even if I manage to set up all this properly, the suicide method chosen will have varying degrees of discomfort ranging from 'mild annoyance' to 'pure agony'. All of the 'quick and painless' options have been made illegal and impossible to obtain in my country.

I also have a fear that SI will kick in or someone will find me earlier than expected, which are always possibilities no matter how much planning goes into it. In the event that this happens, I would be left with some degree of brain damage, making my life worse than it already is and planning further attempts would be difficult to impossible.

Outside of the logistics, I also fear the inevitable impact that my suicide will have on my family and friends. I made the mistake of consuming media on how suicide affects the loved ones of the departed and their words and actions have been etched into my mind. To handle this, I was thinking about writing a letter to address some of the more predictable sentiments. I am not 100% confident that a letter alone would be able to dismiss the grief and/or discomfort of my suicide so am still trying to think of how best to solve this issue.

Literally all of this. Same.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

My dog. He is old I'm basically the one and only thing he adores (and vice versa)

My dog was one of the things keeping me going but he sadly passed recently. Give your boy a big hug from me!!

 

[lokabe82]

My dog was one of the things keeping me going but he sadly passed recently. Give your boy a big hug from me!!

My condolences. I can't imagine what you must be going through right now. I just gave him the biggest of hugs!

 

[3SVEAN]

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My dog. He is old I'm basically the one and only thing he adores (and vice versa)

love my pets, they are also the reason that I keep going apart from my parent my sibling, and my partner : D

 

[cami]

the psychiatric ward lol