What is your "tipping point"?

[Pen>Sword]

Title.

For those of you who don't know what "tipping point" means, it means a situation that has become unbearable that will cause you to CTB. For me, it will be a range of serious situations such as losing my future nursing license (or have some kind of restriction due to actions or inaction), crashing someone on the road, involved a legal battle and long-term unemployment, just to name a few.

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

Bankruptcy, Bereavement, Disability and Homelessness. The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse.

 

[lofticries]

Illness/disability, both parents dying, possibly going to prison, and old age.

 

[booray]

I'm well past my tipping point. I reached it just over four years ago, though I didn't realize it at the time because my judgement was clouded by drug addiction. I then proceeded to hit a number of rock bottoms, until the final one nearly two years ago, which utterly and completely destroyed what was left of my life. That's what it took for me to finally become sober, but now I am just a shell of my former self, incapacitated by depression and anxiety with no hope left for recovery, unemployed and unemployable, my career and my reputation in ruins, and my self-esteem and confidence completely shattered.

 

[lobster salad]

Losing my limbs, going blind or deaf. Because then i don't even physically have that chance of "recovery". I can jump to my death and not worry about getting disabled if I fail, I'll have zero to lose.

 

[Echo]

My dog's death will be my tipping point.

No one needs me in this universe but him. Once he has passed away, i will be free to ctb.

Also, grief from his loss will drive through SI in my opinion. I am already so close to ctb, it won't take much to push me over the edge. His death won't just be a push- it will be a giant shove.

My Plan is built around living just long enough to see him through his final moments. Then i too will go.

I'm just so weary. So damned weary of all this.

 

[feast or famine]

I've had many tipping points already. I guess the one that would really do me in is if I fail at making myself a productive member of society. I have been in a medical program for a few years. Part of the reason it's taken me a while to get to where I am and to finish this is because of my mental health. I've had to take semesters off due to previous suicide attempts and being in the ward. I'm currently finishing my last semester and it ends in May.

At that point, I will be doing 6 weeks of an externship/clinicals. I have worked incredibly hard for this and just thinking of not being able to get through this last bit due to my mental health issues/self sabotage would kill me. I just want to prove to myself I can do this in spite of my fucked up mind. If I can't, what good am I?

 

[Lost10]

Mine was 3 weeks ago when my husband left. My SN came today.

 

[SadJessu]

If I lose my boyfriend in some way, whether by bereavement or him doing something that will devastate me. Possibly when my parents and pets are gone if I live that long.

 

[Hirokami]

Being cheated on was my tipping point and I was very, very close to ctb. Though, I didn't have reliable methods and I was stopped before I could attempt it, anyhow. Another tipping point for me would be if I were unable to achieve my lifelong dream of earning my PhD in Computer Science. I can't settle for anything else as I feel like that'd give my life more definitive meaning. Oh, and being completely abandoned is also a huge one for me. I don't like the thought of being completely alone.

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

I don't think there's such a "tipping point" for me, but once I got a job and have the money to move out, live alone, I will buy SN and execute it.
Currently I'm living with some relatives and it's inconvenient to do it here.

 

[Trisolaris]

I'm beyond my tipping point and I'm still here.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

My personal tipping point was reached two or three years ago. What little empathy I have left is keeping me alive to not bereave my family. Some SI, too, I think. My method is only 95% lethal, as well.

 

[awfullife]

divorce, criminal case, career failure, unreasonable child support, losing house, moved away from kids, CTB.
Any questions? exactly.

 

[Outofhope]

Probably when the person I love the most in the world thought it was okay to have casual sex with someone without a second thought.

 

[Last chance]

Losing her was my tipping point. Im trying to tip back to the other side of the tipping point but its not going well.

 

[Wayfaerer]

My tipping point will be just before my parents find out that I've been lying to them about attending school this semester. I've been a student from 2011 until the end of 2020 (long story) and this semester is the first time since I started where I haven't been enrolled.

2010-2018: daily suffering for X, Y, and Z reasons
2018: Thought I had finally "recovered" and was getting ready to finally live my life. Had been doing the best that I've ever been and felt great for once. Thought I was on my way to graduating with decent marks.
2018: daily suffering even more intense than before, twice as bad at least. Just "twice" as much doesn't sound like a lot but it is when you consider that before I was just barely scraping by.
2019: Become totally dysfunctional when I had just 9 credit hours (111/120) left to get my degree. Decide to kill self.

I've already decided to end it all so getting kicked out wouldn't make my death a matter of if but rather when. I hope that I can at least make it to May at this rate.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

My tipping point/s has already happened: very poor health with more illnesses/diagnoses always being added, chronic pain for over 30 years, the loss of my mother around 5 yrs ago, a terrible relationship I can't leave because I can't take care of myself which is beyond humiliating to admit and to live this way, and a life full of loneliness and failure and pointlessness to look back on - now added to no hope for ever getting better because of my age (mid 50s). What's the point of sticking around anymore? It's only going to keep getting worse.

 

[WornOutLife]

Whenever my dad passes away, that will be my tipping point. I just won't be able to move on. He and my dog are everything to me!

 

[iTriedButCursed]

Lockdown.

 

[BandAddict]

My mom dying. Or her possibly getting drunk and verbally aggressive etc. (less likely.)

Other things I can't think of right now, I'm sure.

 

[fred farkle]

I'm well past my tipping point. I reached it just over four years ago, though I didn't realize it at the time because my judgement was clouded by drug addiction. I then proceeded to hit a number of rock bottoms, until the final one nearly two years ago, which utterly and completely destroyed what was left of my life. That's what it took for me to finally become sober, but now I am just a shell of my former self, incapacitated by depression and anxiety with no hope left for recovery, unemployed and unemployable, my career and my reputation in ruins, and my self-esteem and confidence completely shattered.

how do you support yourself

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

My tipping point was reached a few months ago by my heart getting broken. I'm still committed to CTB'ing at the earliest possible date (which will be in 2022 after I've seen all the movies and shows coming out that year). I realize that the only thing that could tip me back up would be an actual relationship but if anything goes wrong there then it would absolutely tip again past the point of no return.

 

[sadgirl9999]

my chronic pain getting worse. i don't want to see my diseases progress. that, combined with really bad dissociation (DPDR) that stemmed from the worst panic attack of my life & i haven't been the same since. i've been having a flare the past couple days, i hope it gets better. i think it'd be easier to CTB when very distressed, but i kinda want to leave earth in a peaceful & grounded state of mind honestly. not floating out of my body. :(

 

[Gamja]

My tipping point would be the passing of a close family member or someone I care about. I won't live longer than my mother — she's the only reason why I try to stay afloat.

abusive comments would probably contribute to my ctb as well (long story, I'm a retired low-profile content creator)

 

[BridgeJumper]

I have already reached it. My inner ear is so FUCKED Im bedbound, my family cut me out of their life, my boyfriend committed suicide, Im addicted to opiates and alcohol and facing being kicked out
Can hardly imagine it getting worse unless I go blind or paralyzed or something xD

 

[booray]

how do you support yourself

I've been living off my savings, but that's not sustainable.

 

[Ender]

psychosis.