what is your reason to live?

[Hercules]

Truthfully, I simply struggle to summon the courage to kill myself. I tried to recently and sat on my edge of my bed holding my packet of SN and staring at it, frozen by fear. Now, it's a case of waiting for my desperation to outweigh my dread.

Exactly this. Sometimes I take my N out and look at it. A couple of months ago, I went to a hotel. I just sat on the bed and cried all weekend and stared at the bottle on the desk. I couldn't go through with it.

 

[Hell-On-Earth]

My little sister, my mother would kill herself if I CTB, I don't want her to grow up without a mother, and I can't imagine how my death would be explained to her, she's too young.

 

[Trilucid]

Not a whole lot. Small things like video games that may come out, some TV shows... I've also been thinking about trying a few other things, like bike riding.
I also believe it is very sweet that people refuse to leave due to pets.

 

[CantGetUp]

Reason to live for me is my loved ones. My family and my best friend. I'm here because they love me and I love them. I want to shield them from unhappiness as much as possible.

 

[Cat12345]

The main reason is I no if I'm not hear then the person I love so much would end up not being hear also my cats were would they go what if they get a bad homeband I can't let that happen so I'm so sad and braking inside just so they don't have to feel like this I wouldn't wish how I feel on anyone that's the only thing for keeping me going

 

[ncmxm]

I still have hope to become the person I want to be

That and fear of missing out

 

[NSA]

I still have some money and a roof over my head, and I don't want to die fat.

For today, at least.

 

[hauntedglass]

All the beautiful little things in the world I would miss - birds chirping in the morning, looking up at the moon and stars at night, summer nights, good music, and this overwhelming fear of death.

 

[MarbleArch]

Music and drawing, whenever I can get the energy to do either.

 

[Brianiskillingme]

My autistic daughter, but she would still have her father if I ctb.

 

[armadillydally]

My two sweet pet doves, who I know would be lost without me. They were rescues that had been seized from a hoarder. I can't risk subjecting them to another owner who might abuse them.

Also, my mom. She would forever blame herself if I were to ctb. She honestly might take her own life too. I can't put that kind of pain on someone.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

Right now, my child. They're the happiest baby and it's impossible to be sad when they always have a big toothless grin on their face. I get why my dads always liked to talk about me now:,) !

 

[Lebensunwertes]

My pet and my immediate family. Mostly because there is really nobody to take care of them in their old age. Had I had a brother or a sister I would have not had any of the guilt. Also to depart with dignity I still have to take care of some things on my list. One of my favorite quotes from Geo Stone's Suicide and Attempted Suicide book summarizes it perfectly: "How do you know that suicide is the answer if you haven't tried everything else first? You can always kill yourself later."

 

[ornitier199]

It was for Final Kismet, but it appears I'm too far into my own delusions to even see the world around me clearly.
Because that's never gonna happen. I'm an arse

 

[PaperGodzilla]

i'm 24 and my little brother is 18, i just can't, he is still to young to endure this i guess. Also my computer lmao

 

[Kestrel]

My partner. I pushed her away so she would hurt less when it happened. I didn't want her to love me when I finally did it. I was hurting her enough.

 

[ornitier199]

Still FK, even if it may just be a delusion, its still my life support. So when you know what happens when the plug is pulled, right
but at least i have one right

 

[akana]

being a pussy

 

[Alyra]

My younger brother and how my death will effect him is the main reason.
Also the little optimism i have left about my situation in general.

 

[Dyingtoleave]

My parents, possibly going to have a child with my fiance , my fiance , but other than that nothing is keeping me back.

 

[sod]

I don't have any reason to live to be honest
living for no reason for years is painful empierce, hence why I want to ctb

 

[FatalSystemError591]

My girlfriend. She's already gone through one death of someone very close to her, and I don't want her to have to go through another.
Secondarily my cat, but I know he could be rehomed and someone could take better care of him.

 

[ornitier199]

IRL He told me "Why won't you die?"
Because I've got plot armor.

 

[Ethereal Knight]

"How do you know that suicide is the answer if you haven't tried everything else first? You can always kill yourself later."

I thought about this quote and I think it is half-true at best.

by staying alive for more time, I'd have to endure more pain and stress and suffering. all of which would be for nothing, since I'd end up killing myself anyway.

so I don't think postponing is always the answer. at least for me.

 

[redeyepiranha]

I'm looking forward to moving out, so I can ctb

 

[abyss]

My parents mostly. I think my siblings would be fine after a time but I don't think my parents would ever be the same.
Other than that, I feel such severe shame and humiliation all the time, I want to try better myself to avoid imaginary criticism and to do that I need to be alive.

 

[Moonomyth]

They stopped me once before so now I have to make sure they regret that decision.

 

[Message In A Bottle]

right now I feel as if I don't have any reasons to live. what's your reason to live?

My dog doesn't have much longer to live - when I was forced into rehab, she had a hard time eating without me. She would mope around & cry for me. She is my baby, and I want to make her last moments here a good one.

 

[Sans]

I don't have one.

 

[chloramine]

I don't really feel like I have any reason strong enough to continue living. My friends a little, the fact that I want to help people and make everything less screwed up some, but. Ultimately I would probably be dead if it wasn't so hard. So my biggest reason to live on days when I'm just done is currently that dying is hard.