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DonJuanDreadDong

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Jul 20, 2026
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I am curious if anyone else worries about the mess they will make when they CBT.
Has anyone considered taking steps like placing a bucket or wearing a diaper?
 
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Cepheuss

Cepheuss

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Apr 17, 2023
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Aint no way in hell im dying wearing a diaper once im dead im dead my family can deal with the aftermath it wont be my problem plus i plan to go by hanging so definitely a less messy death
 
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DonJuanDreadDong

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Jul 20, 2026
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Aint no way in hell im dying wearing a diaper once im dead im dead my family can deal with the aftermath it wont be my problem plus i plan to go by hanging so definitely a less messy death
You hear about the bucket method being used with hangings. Usually older males with family in the home or out of courtesy for a stranger who may find them.
 
Tyra

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Jul 22, 2026
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I'm going to have a large ziplock bag beside me incase I vomit or maybe a garbage bag.

I'm going to be doing a colonoscopy prep before and I'll wear an adult diaper (cuz of pee).
Aint no way in hell im dying wearing a diaper once im dead im dead my family can deal with the aftermath it wont be my problem plus i plan to go by hanging so definitely a less messy death
Diaper is under pants… only first responders/autopsy people would see it.

We're all entitled to our opinions but I'd rather wear a diaper because it shows that I at least tried a bit to be respectful towards them.

They wouldn't see it as embarrassing.
 
Cepheuss

Cepheuss

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Apr 17, 2023
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You hear about the bucket method being used with hangings. Usually older males with family in the home or out of courtesy for a stranger who may find them.
Oh well piss is a part of life im sure they'll care more about me being dead then some human waste i mean my family changed my diapers this aint nothing new
 
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DonJuanDreadDong

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Jul 20, 2026
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I'm going to have a large ziplock bag beside me incase I vomit or maybe a garbage bag.

I'm going to be doing a colonoscopy prep before and I'll wear an adult diaper (cuz of pee).

Diaper is under pants… only first responders/autopsy people would see it.

We're all entitled to our opinions but I'd rather wear a diaper because it shows that I at least tried a bit to be respectful towards them.

They wouldn't see it as embarrassing.
I think it depends (get it?) on the domestic situation. I usually hear about older fathers/grandfathers doing this. Not people who may feel victimized or abused by their families.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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I will be placing a vinyl shower curtain under me to contain the mess & protect the flooring. I really hate the idea of a diaper, but since I'm female, maybe period underwear or a pad.
 
Tyra

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Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
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I think it depends (get it?) on the domestic situation. I usually hear about older fathers/grandfathers doing this. Not people who may feel victimized or abused by their families.
Just do what you feel comfortable with. At the end of the day, first responders have seen it all.
I will be placing a vinyl shower curtain under me to contain the mess & protect the flooring. I really hate the idea of a diaper, but since I'm female, maybe period underwear or a pad.
A lot of adult diapers literally look just like underwear. In my opinion I would rather be seen wearing absorbent underwear than a pad. Because some men find period products gross (they are immature).

But at the end of that day, just do what your comfortable with.
 
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canidiealreadyy

canidiealreadyy

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Feb 12, 2024
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I am curious if anyone else worries about the mess they will make when they CBT.
Has anyone considered taking steps like placing a bucket or wearing a diaper?
this is one of my biggest worries! i think thats why drowning is so appealing to me, but i dont think theres much i can do. i really dont like the idea of sitting in a bathtub full of my own shit and piss, even if i am dead.
 
time2gosoon

time2gosoon

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Jul 12, 2026
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I am curious if anyone else worries about the mess they will make when they CBT.
Has anyone considered taking steps like placing a bucket or wearing a diaper?
Everything is temporary, including messes.

IDGAF if this body makes a mess, part of me would rather leave the biggest mess we can.
 
bound

bound

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Jul 15, 2026
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yes, for some reason i feel embarrassed about any possible mess, so a day or two before i plan on just not eating so (hopefully) there'll be nothing to excrete?
 
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DonJuanDreadDong

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Jul 20, 2026
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yes, for some reason i feel embarrassed about any possible mess, so a day or two before i plan on just not eating so (hopefully) there'll be nothing to excrete?
I've wondered if anyone would go this route. I've seen methods that included fasting as part of the process but never seen someone prep like they would for a meditative/religious/spiritual experience. Fasting for several days, cleansing yourself holistically, all that kinda stuff.
Everything is temporary, including messes.

IDGAF if this body makes a mess, part of me would rather leave the biggest mess we can.
I wonder if it's like "my final mark on the world", looking to leave some final proof that you existed?
this is one of my biggest worries! i think thats why drowning is so appealing to me, but i dont think theres much i can do. i really dont like the idea of sitting in a bathtub full of my own shit and piss, even if i am dead.
I read about the voice actor for Dale from King of the Hill. They found him in his bathtub so badly decomposed they couldn't run toxicology tests. I guess it depends how long before you are found. Now you got me going down the bathtub drowning rabbit hole. Whitney Houston, Her daughter, Dolores O'Riordan, Aaron Carter, Orvill Redenbacher (heart attack in the tub).
 
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