What is your point of no return?

[Lost Magic]

Does anybody feel that they are just waiting on a point of no return, moment? I know we all have survival instinct and other life factors to deal with, but what happens when that decision has been made? Some ctb successfully and others don't. Then there are some who carry on living because they may see some glimmer of hope like Johnny Cash. As a point of contrast, another country singer, Naomi Judd, managed to go for many, many years before she reached her point of no return moment. Some think of not being here and others carry through with their plans. I think I am somewhere inbetween myself. It's a muddy place to be, to say the least! Thoughts?

 

[sserafim]

I'm at the point of no return @Rocinante

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I'd never wish to suffer in this existence no matter what, I'd always see it as preferable to be permanently unconscious than to be burdened with something so futile and torturous human existence just to die slowly and painfully from old age. I'm only still suffering here due to the absence of the option to easily free myself from this existence in peace, I very much envy those with the means to eternally cease existing whenever they wish to.

 

[remluvr]

Sometimes I truly want to live and see the beautiful in being Alive and I do... But it fades away, It always does sadly.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I want to stay and enjoy life but I'm still me, stuck in this body. I passed the point of no return 13 years ago and didn't fully realize it at the time.

 

[etherealspring]

sort of. sometimes i already feel like im at a point of no return. tho SI often tells me otherwise

 

[TheLastBoyOnEarth]

the point of no return for me was realizing that i would never get better of my physical illness and that i didn't want to live the rest of my life like this

 

[Raven2]

Not at rock bottom yet, dont know if it will happen. Life throws us curveballs so I just cant predict my future. I still have some hope I guess.

 

[derpyderpins]

I'm at the point of no return @Rocinante

lol just screw already

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Love the Johnny Cash comparison. I feel like the man in black on here sometimes. I already saw what I thought was my point of no return. Now it would have to be losing my loved ones. I won't leave them alone.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

Why am I not catching the Johnny Cash comparison?? I feel so dumb

 

[onetimereject]

when the beautiful lies i stacked crumbles in front of my eye, and i'm about to face the consequences of my life

 

[shatteredcrystal]

My point of no return is when I realised I can no longer cry. I am numbed by the pain. And later on, when I first sliced through my skin with a blade, I felt that there is no way back at this point

 

[lotus11]

I've just reached it. The problem is that there are still things holding me back: The pain I will cause my mother, father and brother and survival instinct. Pretty annoying because for me after joining this site over 5 years ago...waiting for something to change or get better, it has in fact gor worse and worse and I am indeed ready to be done with this life.

 

[DeIetedUser4739]

When you can't enjoy anything and are fed up with life.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I've been at the point of no return ever since my life started

 

[nozomu]

I need to hit that point to actually execute my CTB plans. I'm almost there whether I want to be or not, my current trigger moment will be when I'm finally out of money and homeless. There's no life for me after that.

 

[derpyderpins]

Love the Johnny Cash comparison. I feel like the man in black on here sometimes. I already saw what I thought was my point of no return. Now it would have to be losing my loved ones. I won't leave them alone.

Quick turnaround here but I guess I didn't account for them leaving me first.

 

[Linda]

I'm clear on this. If my husband dies before me I will ctb. Until then, I won't.

 

[Nikitatos]

My point of no return was years ago. Deep state chose to collapse my life. I was doing full-time work, full-time school, playing in a band, and teaching guitar lessons.

After the deep state operation, I can't work a part-time job, I never play the guitar, and I'm bedridden most of the time. Older, sicker, poorer....trust that plan.

There's some truly evil people with unspeakable amounts of power.

 

[jbear824]

Already crossed that point a long time ago. The thing that would push me over the edge, that would override the SI and fear of pain would be my partner either leaving me or dying. I would have nothing and no one else to live for

 

[HereTomorrow]

I've always carried a special rule with me that says I won't CTB until I lose all hope, have no pleasures, and there won't be any for the foreseeable future.

However, I've carried a single exception to the rule. If for whatever reason I get medical intervention against my will, I will CTB whenever I have enough freedom to do so.
My family sees me as a massive disappointment, I don't want to burden their reputation with my agony, and my friends will never see me the same way again, so why bother going on with my life, reputation, and permanent medical record eternally tainted?
I've been in the ER twice for mental health, and I've been barely forgiven for it. A third time will be the last straw.
That will be the point of no return for me.

Until then, I continue to live, no matter how hard it gets, no matter what hardships come. Just do not hospitalize or put forced treatment on me and I'll try my best to live. It's an awkward, almost unreasonable bargin.