TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
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I got Aspergers Syndrome so I presume it have something to do with my way of thinking. In many ways I "feel" I still am 16-17 years old despite being 26 years old I have no emotions through apathy and anhedonia but still I don´t feel grown-up in my mental state, like I still wear street clothes i.e. street/hiphop sweatpants and street wear and don´t feel ready for a responsible life, despite in some areas I am very responsibly like paying bills, grocery shop, cook food and when I legally had my guns before they got taken away I even showed a few young and new people at the gun range about the basic safeties of guns e.g. pointing them down range and never have the finger on the trigger unless you´re ready to fire on the paper target so in some ways I am very responsible but in many others I don´t feel like I´m a grown up adult do anyone else feel this way?
 
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Disappointered

Disappointered

Enlightened
Sep 21, 2020
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No. I don't feel capable of much responsibility anymore. I wouldn't be able to keep a stressful job or teach gun safety w/o probably breaking down and having to quit. The older i get physically the younger I feel mentally, and not in a good way. I feel like just totally regressing to childhood but I haven't gotten old enough to get dementia yet.
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
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No. I don't feel capable of much responsibility anymore. I wouldn't be able to keep a stressful job or teach gun safety w/o probably breaking down and having to quit. The older i get physically the younger I feel mentally, and not in a good way. I feel like just totally regressing to childhood but I haven't gotten old enough to get dementia yet.
Lucky for you in my own subjective view, but I feel like I have 10% of my cognitive functions in my brain as I did in my childhood or early teenage years but despite that I in certain affairs can be responsible like on the gun range teaching the safety to new members despite my social anxiety and since my guns got taken away I have to wait 2 years before I can apply for a new license. I obviously also have some wisdom at my age even despite my mental age I can give some good advice like I do on this forum to younger members who are often frowned upon because of their age i.e. the amount of time the Earth revolves around the sun which is for humans is 355 days but that doesn´t mean they are not incapable of making their own choice if or when they choose to end their life.

Btw: Sorry if there´re spelling errors or I don´t make sense I´m drunk right now but just had this thread in my mind and wanted to post it in case I forgot.
 
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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
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As far as life and responsibility I'm probably older than my current age. I take care of children, run a household, pay the bills, do the shopping, and get everything else done. Mentally however my sense of humor can be quite immature or dark. I tend to find humor in silly things, and I love gaming.
 
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Deleted member 17949

Deleted member 17949

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May 9, 2020
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25 minutes tbh
 
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Deleted member 23374

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Nov 1, 2020
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I´m pretty drunk right now but do you mean pie minus 1 your mental age is 12 years old?
Hi, square root of negative one.
Basically i was more "mature" when i was a "kid" than i am now.
 
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Mm80

Mm80

Enlightened
May 15, 2019
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Im hfa too and can relate to most of what you say. Im not sure its a bad thing though. Most people are gradually worn down by life and its experiences, but theres a naivety to autism whereby we dont learn the lessons most people do and stay quite yourhful. for instance im incapable of holding a grudge or resenting someone for a long time. I also believe that people can change and are inherintly ok, which is probably bollocks but it protects me from an old worn down mindset.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
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In many ways, I feel like I'm mentally a stupid and spoiled 12 year old who happens to also sometimes act like a 50 year old boomer that can't accept change and gets nostalgic about the "good old days". Either way, I never feel like my actual age though.
 
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Quinlor

Quinlor

The stranger
Feb 21, 2019
1,058
probably 16
 
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death137

death137

miserable
Jun 25, 2020
1,166
I'm 23 but I feel 14 or even 9. People who know me in person say I'm a wise thinker and see me doing great in the future but tbh I'm very scared of adult life and most of my innocence when I was a kid is still here.
 
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FatalSystemError591

FatalSystemError591

{He/They}
Oct 12, 2020
229
I was also diagnosed as "Asperger's Syndrome" when that was a relevant label but, I feel this post completely. 25 but feeling somewhere between 16-18, but I also have some dissociative disorders and CPTSD, and from what the psychiatric professionals I see tell me, it is possible that I age regress to 16-18 because of trauma and that I am perpetually stuck in that time frame. I also mirror the post of feeling like my maturity is either that of a preteen or a boomer and there hardly being an in-between.
 
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Wraith

Wraith

Lost in The Void
Nov 4, 2020
181
I'm an adult, but I still think and feel like an adolescent.
 
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Silenos

Silenos

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Jul 25, 2020
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_Kaira_

This Isn't Fine
Oct 2, 2020
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Somewhere around 11-15 in regards to how my mental problems affect my emotions and actions.
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
I feel like I am 11yrs old and in my 70's at the same time. My real age is far from either.
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
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Sometimes I feel younger and sometimes I feel older. But most of the times I feel like I don't belong here anyway.
 
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Jul 31, 2018
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I sometimes feel that I'm too old and jaded and yet I have the sense of humour of a schoolboy. *shrugs* people are weird.
 
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MrBlue

MrBlue

Arcanist
Jul 1, 2020
416
I was always told I was 'mature' growing up, but I think that was just because I'm very reserved so didn't act out as much. My mental age actually stagnated at like 13. I'm a child in a slightly hairier child's body.
 
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Weary Soul

Weary Soul

Soon I will be free
Nov 13, 2019
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Anywhere from 2 (temper tantrums/meltdowns and all) to ancient.
 
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MichaelNomad123

MichaelNomad123

Jesus
Oct 15, 2020
433
This is one of many lives. I was ancient when I was a child, and it shows.
 
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Lupgevif

Lupgevif

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Jul 23, 2020
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I'm an edgy teen who pretends to like gore to come out as some sort of cool and cold psycho to his friends.
 
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Amumu

Ctb - temporary solution for a permanent problem
Aug 29, 2020
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Matthias_k

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Apr 18, 2020
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I've always felt like an old soul. As a kid, I'd spend my days reading instead of going out, play games, make friends. I left home when I was only 17, and I had no problems with finding jobs, pay the bills, take care of myself etc. I was born old.
 
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NightmareTour

NightmareTour

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May 13, 2020
398
Thanks to c-ptsd, I either have the mentality of a 13-15 year old, or the mentality of a 40-something year old, there is no inbetween.
 
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Antigonish

Antigonish

Mage
Sep 19, 2020
593
I'm 24, appearance of a teenager, mind of a 37yr old. Kill me.
 
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StringPuppet

Lost
Oct 5, 2020
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
2,996
My mental age actually stagnated at like 13. I'm a child in a slightly hairier child's body.
Very relateable I feel I stagnated at 16-17 but I deeply want to be a child again so being stuck in this hairy adult body is torture and disgusting to me I have even considered shaving my whole body to be hairless like when I was a child or even when I was a young teenager with basically no body hair but I am a male so it would be weird and at my current age I would have to shave to often it´s so annoying and disgusting! I have to shave my facial hair every single day or every other day if I don´t want facial hair and it´s not like I can grow a beard I actually am small and look very feminine, I just miss back when I didn´t have to shave or even in my teens where I only had to shave once a week not to mention razors are expensive as fuck!

I also miss not only back when I didn´t have any facial hair but childhood friends, classmates and acquaintances but now I see their profile pictures or them in real life with beards I just can´t take it, I remember them as they were as teenagers before anyone had facial hair, it also makes me feel so old since I want to be a child so bad or even a teenager again so seeing people I know with beards and some even balding in their mid twenties is terrifying to me.
 
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