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Dukey

Dukey

Member
Oct 6, 2025
46
Missing you is nothing.
It's background noise.
A dull ache i can drown with time, strangers and sleep.

But knowing you.
knowing i bent myself into something smaller so you could stand taller than me.

That's the crime scene.

I know how you lied without moving your lips.
I know how you took my devotion like it was owned.
Like loving you was a resource you where entitled to drain.

You let me believe i was chosen while you kept one foot out the door, already erasing me in your head.

Missing you is absence
Knowing you is contamination

It's realizing i loved you with a purity you never deserved and never matched.
You didn't break my heart, you educated it.

You thought me how people like you confuse being wanted with being worthy.

Missing you will pass
Knowing you will stay
As a warning, a scar
A lesson written in blood

I survived loving you
You'll never survive being you.
 
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avalon_

Wizard
Jun 2, 2024
651
Correspondencies by Charles Baudelaire

Nature is a temple wherein living pillars
Sometimes let slip some muddled words;
Man passes there through forests of symbols
That observe him with familiar looks.

Like long echoes that distantly enfold
In a tenebrous and profound unity,
Vast as night and as clarity,
The scents, the colors and the sounds respond.

There are scents as fresh as children's flesh,
Soft as oboes, green as meadows,
-And others, rotten, rich and triumphant,

With the expansion of infinite things,
Like amber, musk, benjamin and incense,
That sing the transports of spirit and sense.


Elevation by Charles Baudelaire

Above the ponds, above the valleys,
The mountains, the woods, the clouds, the seas,
Beyond the sun, beyond the heavens,
Beyond the confines of the starry spheres,

My spirit, with agility you make your way,
And, like a skilled swimmer who glides in the deep,
You gaily plough the profound immensity
With unspeakable male sensuality.

Fly far away from these morbid miasmas;
Purify yourself in rarified air,
And drink, like a pure and divine liqueur,
The transparent fire that imbues limpid vistas.

Beyond the troubles and the vast sorrows
That lay their weight upon dim existence,
Happy is he who on vigorous wing
Soars to serene and luminous regions;

He whose thoughts, like larks,
Freely fly toward morning skies,
-Who hovers above life, and knows without strife
The language of flowers and of silent things!
 
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Rogue_Gendarme

Rogue_Gendarme

Member
Apr 22, 2024
27
Don't laugh, but, I saw a dead rat once and it was bleeding to death. I felt so poor for it, because it was squirming around and suffering so much. That poor little creature bled to the death by the road and it had red eyes because a vehicle drove over it or a nearby store-owner hit it with something hard.

I felt so fucking awful for it. But at that time, I was heading to school. So I couldn't even help, I just... Watched it die, as I passed by. I feel so fucking miserable and feel so much pity for it. If only, you know? I could've saved it. I hate rats, but I don't want them dead. They're filthy creatures, but just... They just want to survive, yk?

It reminds me of that TikTok song, Euthanasia by Will Woods. It's also about a pet rat too, and underneath the vid there's a comment saying rats are like little people. I still think about that poor little creature. That poor, long-gone rat is, for me, the epitome of our cruelty as human beings. That moment was that rat's entire world crumbling to nothing. But it was just monday for us.

Sorry if that sounds edgy, I just wanted to express what I felt.
 
trying ungracefully

trying ungracefully

Experienced
Jun 11, 2025
206
I don't know who it is from because my boyfriend didn't know the origin either and I couldn't find anything online but he told me yesterday that there is a quote that goes something like: "a whole lifetime is not enough to love you, I would always to find you in the next life".
 
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