What is your biggest regret?

[lanadelreyisgod223]

yelling "you're dying" at my terminally ill brother during an argument. i'll never forget how low i went and the line i crossed with that. i'll always regret not telling him how much i loved and cherished him while he was still alive. i was an angry and depressed 16 year old.

 

[ecolofienjoyer]

yelling "you're dying" at my terminally ill brother during an argument. i'll never forget how low i went and the line i crossed with that. i'll always regret not telling him how much i loved and cherished him while he was still alive. i was an angry and depressed 16 year old.

Im Sorry for your loss

 

[tulipstulipstulips]

Opening up to certain people about stuff like my mental health and my love life

 

[dalemar]

Not having moved from the shitty country that I live when I had the chance 2 years ago.

 

[ecolofienjoyer]

Not having moved from the shitty country that I live when I had the chance 2 years ago.

I hope thinhs get better for you and your country

 

[cleanandpretty]

Smoking till my lungs don't work
Smoking till my lungs don't work

 

[dalemar]

I hope thinhs get better for you

Thank you, but they won't.
I sustained an injury some months ago, that will probably not improve.
So I'll be catching the bus soon.
It's a shame, because if I had moved, MAYBE i might have avoided this situation, of course you never now.
Until that happened, I was living a completely normal life, as an amateur athlete, never took drugs, never smoked, etc.
But well, life is life.

 

[ecolofienjoyer]

Opening up to certain people about stuff like my mental health and my love life

Im sorry to hear that. Havijg your trust betrayed sucks ass

Thank you, but they won't.
I sustained an injury some months ago, that will probably not improve.
So I'll be catching the bus soon.
It's a shame, because if I had moved, MAYBE i might have avoided this situation, of course you never now.
Until that happened, I was living a completely normal life, as an amateur athlete, never took drugs, never smoked, etc.
But well, life is life.

I hope you find peace in whatever way you think will be best for you

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

not using what i have when it was new to kill myself. i regret not killing myself 3 years 8 months ago, wasting the greatest opportunity of all time every single day to kill myself but just wasting time watching crap videos and social media . letting 3 years 8 months pass by , everyone of those opportunities wasted 1,339 days every day every opportunity wasted 1,339 opportunites wasted. if you have 10 hours i could've done it each one of those days then it's 10 x that many opportunities wasted.

 

[InevitableDeath]

Im sorry to hear that you went through such a tough situation. i hope you were able to find a safe space afterwards for you and your children

Nope. They're gone and abandoned to state sanctioned abuse.

I'm already dead.

 

[FoxSauce]

My biggest regret is maybe not dealing with my problems in a healthy way.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Quitting college wrestling. That was my thing, the way for me to live a noble life. The 16 years since have been a waste of time.

 

[deadngoresurgery]

hurting other people.

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

Joining a cult when I was 17.

 

[Unlucky777]

Choosing the wrong profession.

I am feeling this now. I chose accounting in college now I'm going back to school to study audio engineering and music production. I wish I knew back then what I know now

 

[Sphinxi]

One day, when I was home alone, aged 12, I used our house phone to call my dad. About two months prior, he had stopped talking to my sister and I, and we stopped visiting his house. It rang a few times, and he, not recognizing the number, assumed it was for business. I got cold feet and hung up. That was the last time I heard his voice. It sounded so tired. He would ctb a couple months later. I regret not saying anything.

 

[ecolofienjoyer]

Nope. They're gone and abandoned to state sanctioned abuse.

I'm already dead.

As in they left? Excuse my misunderstanding and curiosity.

One day, when I was home alone, aged 12, I used our house phone to call my dad. About two months prior, he had stopped talking to my sister and I, and we stopped visiting his house. It rang a few times, and he, not recognizing the number, assumed it was for business. I got cold feet and hung up. That was the last time I heard his voice. It sounded so tired. He would ctb a couple months later. I regret not saying anything.

Im sorry for your loss

 

[39hatsune]

not trying hard enough in school when i had the chance to and dropping out, i had a lot of potential and my life could be really different now

 

[ecolofienjoyer]

Joining a cult when I was 17.

Im so sorry to hear that. My I ask what happened?

My biggest regret is maybe not dealing with my problems in a healthy way.

I dont think most ppl do. I think all of us have our vices
Not to lighten the issue more just to say youre not alone

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

Im so sorry to hear that. My I ask what happened?

Thanks. I joined shortly after my first suicide attempt. In some ways it was good - some structure and community. I had a lot of great opportunities. I traveled to India and lived in Europe for a few years. I served as a temple priest in beautiful temples.

That said, I'm still managing the religious trauma of the experience. To this day I regularly have stress dreams that impact me for the rest of the day. Most of that trauma came in the form of misuse of power and the high control environments. I joined at 17 and didn't leave until 26. I am now 47.

I tried to start a thread in an effort to share the full story of it, but it was hard to follow through on as it brought up a lot of stuff I forgot about. It's also hard because I have such mixed feelings of the experience. There was a lot of good in it and I miss aspects of it. I still wonder if I would have been better off staying. The world outside of it hasn't been that great. (But, that's just residual brainwashing.)

 

[darksouls]

my biggest regret is that I wasted my entire life with work, my toxic family and fake friends

 

[ecolofienjoyer]

Thanks. I joined shortly after my first suicide attempt. In some ways it was good - some structure and community. I had a lot of great opportunities. I traveled to India and lived in Europe for a few years. I served as a temple priest in beautiful temples.

That said, I'm still managing the religious trauma of the experience. To this day I regularly have stress dreams that impact me for the rest of the day. Most of that trauma came in the form of misuse of power and the high control environments. I joined at 17 and didn't leave until 26. I am now 47.

I tried to start a thread in an effort to share the full story of it, but it was hard to follow through on as it brought up a lot of stuff I forgot about. It's also hard because I have such mixed feelings of the experience. There was a lot of good in it and I miss aspects of it. I still wonder if I would have been better off staying. The world outside of it hasn't been that great. (But, that's just residual brainwashing.)

Im so sorry to hear that. I only have the little religious trauma i have to work off of to try and understand your experience. Im sorry it happened

my biggest regret is that I wasted my entire life with work, my toxic family and fake friends

Im sorry, I hope you have real friends now

 

[castlebravo]

Not doing some fun things while my body still functioned normally. If I'd known it would be like this I'd have taken more risks. Been more adventurous. Now I'm wasting away waiting to pull the plug once my legs stop working.

 

[woofwag]

Hurting the person who I love the most. We've both forgiven each other now, but it was really bad. It was a reaction to how they were treating me and my own abuse, but it still happened. I think we've both mostly healed from it. But sometimes I still freak out on them and I feel really bad about it. All I can is try to move forward. Be better. "Someday I'll be perfect and I'll make up for it all." -Will Wood in one of my favorite songs, Against the Kitchen Floor.

 

[ToANewWorld]

When my ex said "lets run away to the middle of nowhere and have 8 kids". I should have taken her on that offer.

In the end I didn't and now what I am ends with me.

 

[gasforme]

Trying a substance that causes psychotic breaks

 

[TwistedNightmares]

My biggest regret is becoming friends with the wrong types of people and trusting them.

And also taking ssris long-term.

 

[InevitableDeath]

my biggest regret is that I wasted my entire life with work, my toxic family and fake friends

thats the one. Hospice nurses say that "wasted my life on work" is THE final regret. Of course what they should be saying is "Miugged off by the social system".
I don't mean to be mean, we all did it to some degree. And tbh its not the work so much as the toxic family and fake friends which hurt

not trying hard enough in school when i had the chance to and dropping out, i had a lot of potential and my life could be really different now

ah, who can tell? It might have been worse! Try not to feel bad for things that society forces people to do, because they're usually a lie at the end of it. Look at all the unemployed grads, overqualified for what's left - which is fuck all.

When my ex said "lets run away to the middle of nowhere and have 8 kids". I should have taken her on that offer.

In the end I didn't and now what I am ends with me.

Eight kids?! That's Selfish-Life (aka biological imperative) right there. It cares not for you!

Its a nice dream, but the reality could've been terrifying. Not sure that wouldve ended well.

Sorry, don't mean to offend btw. But you might've dodged a bullet there.

 

[fallingbehind]

Being so desperate for people to like me, validate me or find me funny for years. All that effort amounted to nothing, and it didnt fix me. It made me overexposed to a society that hated me. Now I hate them back tenfold.

 

[FuneralCry]

All I regret is suffering in this dreadful, torturous and deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake in the first place, to exist truly is an abomination to me and I find it so horrible how humans impose this existence causing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, to me existence itself really is the true problem and as long as I exist I'll only hope for true permanent peace from the suffering, torture and cruelty of existing, existence is just so evil to me.

All existence does is cause harm and torture existing beings, the suffering this existence causes is endless with existing beings tortured every second, it's always so torturous to exist and what is so terrifying to me is how the suffering and torture of existing can continue for decades longer, to suffer in this existence truly is the most terrible, undeserved punishment, there's just so much terrible, extreme cruelty in how humans have made dying painlessly illegal even know this existence was so tragically imposed, only non-existence is positive for me, only non-existence is the solution for me, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this horrific reality.