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Starfall

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Sep 24, 2024
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I have seen so many post titles about how OD is not a viable option and should be avoided. But I've done it before and it was probably would be the most certain and the most peaceful if I hadn't panicked. Here's how it went. After I took the meds, (a cocktail of about 100 pills and 15 different types) I instantly panicked and made myself throw up about half, then I ran to my mom and told her. I'm not sure how long it took to call an ambulance, because my brain had checked out. It was a nice, calm feeling, and then I was strapped to a hospital bed with a tube down my throat. I had blacked out for almost 2 days, and it was so peaceful I still feel warm remembering it. My emotions were not really working, so I couldn't panic at the sight of my parents at my bed. It did leave some side effects with my throat, but I would still rank it as my favorite attempt. Can anyone explain why OD is such a disliked method?
 
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Sep 24, 2024
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What were the meds?
It was a mixture of muscle relaxants, non-opioid painkillers, anti-depressants, sleeping aids, migraine, ADHD, anxiety, nausea, and basically anything I could find in "the graveyard" where I keep all my past/unused meds from me or my parents. Although I think the muscle relaxants and anti-psychotics had the most effect.
 
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Without knowing the drugs and doses there is little that can be said about it. I aborted a fentanyl OD ctb attempt last year and drifted in and out for hours afterward and in that case it really was lights out with no warning, entire hours passed as simply missing time like being under anesthesia and I was expecting not to survive it despite puking the liquid up. But someone taking a box of ibuprofen may be fully conscious and in severe distress.

I'd say a properly designed lethal cocktail of fentanyl or pentobarbital and some added on sedatives of choice is still a fantastic method but most won't have that.
 
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