What is this

[gonegirl405]

Hi guys, Hope you're all doing okay (for the most part). So my last post was about me leaving this forum for good and getting my mental health back on track etc etc. However, i'm finding it hard to do so. I have been doom scrolling, particularly 'Goodbye' threads from 2020 -2024 and lowkey i've been in mental agony because of it and I have no idea why.

Maybe i'm just very empathetic but the facts are I didn't know any of these people (sorry to refer to the deceased as these people that sounded really mean), I don't know if they were horrible human beings so why do I feel this much about their deaths? Why is my brain putting me in so much stress and pain about another person's death?

Ive been having nightmares about the threads. I keep seeing all the messages and all the images and God its really frustrating. Not only this but I found an account on here titled 'Per ardua ad astra', my previous high-school motto. For my school it meant 'through difficulties we attain the highest'. Like how crazy is this? Is there some kind of hidden message in this somehow?

Anyway, I just can't stop coming back here, the curiosity eat's away at my brain everyday like a damn parasite. I wonder who else did this method? Did anyone with my name make a goodbye thread? all these questions run circles around my brain. It's driving me insane LOL. I have no idea to explain to you how agonizing this is for me.

And I am not trying to be a pick me or anything of that sort, i just couldn't keep all this to myself.

 

[Scorpio moon gal]

welcome back

 

[aufrechtm7]

Being empathetic isn't being a pick me, you care so much because you're aware that loss is painful. It doesn't matter if you don't know what these people did in life, you imagine good before the bad which is a positive outlook to have in life.

 

[socksnsandles]

consider that living, for these people, would have been a far much greater pain that dying.

 

[gonegirl405]

consider that living, for these people, would have been a far much greater pain that dying.

I can understand this because alot of the times I think about escaping the world through death. I feel a little better knowing that they aren't here witnessing the crap show going on in the world but still doesn't make it easier yk

 

[throwawayghm]

I have been doom scrolling, particularly 'Goodbye' threads from 2020 -2024 and lowkey i've been in mental agony because of it and I have no idea why.
same i do (for the most part) try to keep out of others goodbye threads I have no idea why but it kills me, I dont know the person and there doing what they set out to do and worked towards it doesnt make any sense though then again I have a real problem of prioritizing others over myself even know I rly need help so that might explain some of it idk but just know your not alone in that hope you have a good day tmr