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iwanttodie019

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May 4, 2025
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I remember my mom and step dad getting into some very nasty fights with lots of yelling, a few got so bad the cops showed up and I would have to stay at a friend's house or my dad's. I've always hated being in the presence of people who yell and scream as a result.
just this?that does not sound too traumatic
 
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Life isn't worth the trouble.
Nov 16, 2019
920
just this?that does not sound too traumatic
Should have added that there was plenty of things being thrown and stuff getting broken when they fought. One time after I had to leave to stay with my dad the house was completely trashed and destroyed with holes in the wall when I came back the next day. Don't presume to know what is and isn't traumatic again.
 
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iwanttodie019

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May 4, 2025
214
Should have added that there was plenty of things being thrown and stuff getting broken when they fought. One time after I had to leave to stay with my dad the house was completely trashed and destroyed with holes in the wall when I came back the next day. Don't presume to know what is and isn't traumatic again.
things being broken is not so traumatic?still there was no physical violence
 
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X-sanguinate86

Specialist
Sep 26, 2025
343
Extreme neglect and bullying.

I was born totally different from my other siblings I was dark skinned, ugly creature at birth my mom was terrified, she said to me. She doesn't wanted me at all. But for religious reason they had to have me. When I was born my mom had horrible sickness and she would stay sick throughout her pregnancy. And it deeply effected my whole body and mind. Im now dumb, ugly and just abandoned deep inside. Nobody would be my friend when I was a child still I'm friendless and don't know anything about human interaction. I thought whats wrong with me? Why people hate me so much. I couldn't understand, I couldn't get them at all. I couldn't read properly. Couldn't count even when I was 12 year old. One of my tutor even said I need to see a doctor. My parents neglected me in childhood I was growing up with siblings but they didn't care too and they were much much older than me. I used to made imaginary friends, live completely alone. School was extremely difficult it was super overwhelming, people would say hurtful things, I tried to hide. Over the top of everything I'm from a 3rd world country where life is challenging. I just hope everything I die.
i also had imaginary friends. just a combination of loneliness and absence of real people to comfortably play with. stuffed animals. roleplaying by myself with different characters. sad times.
 
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Lamentice

Schizoid
Mar 27, 2023
158
I am just not wired optimally for this world, it's why I say I am not human.
Should have added that there was plenty of things being thrown and stuff getting broken when they fought. One time after I had to leave to stay with my dad the house was completely trashed and destroyed with holes in the wall when I came back the next day. Don't presume to know what is and isn't traumatic again.
This sounds horrifyingly stressful and scary for a kid to grow up in 🫂🫂 I'm sorry.

I just want to say that you shouldn't have to explain or justify why this harmed you... it did, that's real, and that experience and impact does matter 🫂
 
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