What is the reason for your depression / suicide?

[Jodes]

My life isn't where it's it's supposed to be. I've had chances to live a life most people only dream of and I've blown it. I can't cope with that kind of regret

It turns into guilt. Most poeple blame themselves though. So maybe you shouldn't.

 

[Final Escape]

My life isn't where it's it's supposed to be. I've had chances to live a life most people only dream of and I've blown it. I can't cope with that kind of regret

How did u blow it?

 

[GeorgeJL]

The thought of wasting away in a hospice. Having no control over my dignity.

 

[SadGirl]

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As pessoas são péssimas
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People shit.

 

[Addy92]

If I left and it made no sense.
Nevermind.

 

[SadGirl]

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Talvez a coisa que mais me irrita é que vivemos em um sistema que quer nos escravizar. A educação em nossa juventude pode ou não ser muito boa. Talvez você tenha tido sorte e não tenha sido submetido às escolas do governo e realmente tenha aprendido as habilidades necessárias para a vida cedo. Se você não teve a sorte de ser educado bem cedo na vida, muitas vezes você faz escolhas imprudentes que o deixam mais escravizado pelo sistema. Você pode ter entrado em dívida de empréstimo de estudante ou teve um filho fora do casamento. Você poderia ser uma vítima de psiquiatria quando você estava realmente procurando por ajuda, mas convenceu você precisa ser medicado. Desculpe, este é um assunto fora do comum, mas é uma das razões pelas quais é difícil viver sob esse tipo de sociedade atrasada. Os incentivos perversos que prejudicam as pessoas são tantos.
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I understand, and I agree, these governments are totally flawed.
[QUOTE = "ladyinblack, post: 272652, membro: 6625"]
1-efeitos reminaning de bullying na infância, me deixou incapaz de fazer bem com as pessoas e relacionamentos básicos.
2-A vida que estou vivendo não é para mim, tenho diferentes esperanças e aspirações que não posso agir por causa de onde eu moro. O que eu gosto e o que eu quero é inaceitável na sociedade em que eu estou .. que é uma das razões pelas quais estou deprimido, como viver a vida de outra pessoa, incapaz de viver a sua.
3- Tenho uma ansiedade ruim que me impede de fazer coisas humanas básicas.
4-Eu basicamente perdi a vontade de viver. E eu aceito que a vida não é para mim.
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Você gostaria de falar sobre isso ?

 

[TheFinalCountdown]

How did u blow it?

In November of 2014 I correctly predicted that bitcoin prices would explode and positioned myself to take advantage. Unfortunately I became nervous and changed my mind at the last minute, causing me to miss out on a trade that could have netted me millions. Since then, further bad decisions have ruined my career in finance and left me struggling to find even a low paying job.

 

[SadGirl]

~Transgender discrimination in a world of growing hate can make survival really hard, especially with discrimination in housing and employment.
~Unemployment, and having to continue being something I'm not, in order to have a place to live and get a job doing something I don't want to do.
~Crippling student debt that won't be payed off until I'm 50.
~Lost nearly everything due to a previous relationship that ended in an absolute disaster.
~Continual worrying over food and shelter.
~Multiple childhood traumas, including near-death experiences and severe bullying.
~Major depression can at times make suicide look so very appealing, especially when ideation flares up.
~Previous suicide attempts and aborted attempts.
~Have lost the will/drive to really do anything anymore.
~Missed out on life and continue missing out on it by being something I'm not doing something I hate in order to stay alive. If I try to be me, homelessness and likely death will await me.

As far as why I still keep going, it's mainly just due to a few promises to like three loved ones, enjoying the simple things (food, water, breathing, nature-watching), strong survival instinct, and fear over how painful dying could be. I know my life is fucked and that I'd be better off dead, yet...yeah...I just keep going I guess. That said though...
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One of the things I hate is prejudice with LGBTS, because I am also, I hope everything works out for you, that you get well, and find someone who loves you and stays with you, hugs, my friend.

 

[CoolGuy9]

One of the things I hate is prejudice with LGBTS, because I am also, I hope everything works out for you, that you get well, and find someone who loves you and stays with you, hugs, my friend.

I just realized that because lgbt people (not sure what to call them) suffer from prejudice, they are more likely to be suicidal, hence more likely to visit places like this. And because places like this have plenty of people lgbt people, other suicidal people are more likely to accept them meaning that suicidal people probably aren't as prejudice as more mentally stable people. I guess there are some good things about wanting to die.

 

[Final Escape]

In November of 2014 I correctly predicted that bitcoin prices would explode and positioned myself to take advantage. Unfortunately I became nervous and changed my mind at the last minute, causing me to miss out on a trade that could have netted me millions. Since then, further bad decisions have ruined my career in finance and left me struggling to find even a low paying job.

Damn, yea that sucks. I understand. I had a lot of potential when young to have a good outcome in life. I was attractive and popular but I made bad decisions because I was very misguided and badly educated.

 

[SadGirl]

I just realized that because lgbt people (not sure what to call them) suffer from prejudice, they are more likely to be suicidal, hence more likely to visit places like this. And because places like this have plenty of people lgbt people, other suicidal people are more likely to accept them meaning that suicidal people probably aren't as prejudice as more mentally stable people. I guess there are some good things about wanting to die.

I believe that my depression and suicidal tendencies are not because I'm gay, but because of childhood traumas. And yes, suicidal people are deeper, so they are open minded.

 

[Cold]

Loneliness. I feel completely disconnected from humanity. And I am a slave to my body. My mind, my consciousness wants to die but my body with all it's bodily (dys)functions is in charge and is trapping me here because it is apparently a lot stronger than my mind is.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I absolutely don't exist. Unless it's as a source of annoyance to others. I was reading earlier about "emotional needs," and how loving and being loved by others are critical to mental health. HA!

 

[ddutch]

My reason

Depression and ptsd also some a cluster things like isolation and socially became incompetent.

No more joy in things dont feel the joy of experiences they dont come in anymore.

No social life

Dont want to build up a whole life anymore because of this.

Dont want to life with the memories that i have.

 

[Roberto]

I am short, aspergers, weird looking, friendless

Also severe bullying

Sorry. A big hug!

My reason

Depression and ptsd also some a cluster things like isolation and socially became incompetent.

No more joy in things dont feel the joy of experiences they dont come in anymore.

No social life

Dont want to build up a whole life anymore because of this.

Dont want to life with the memories that i have.

Resembles me

, I hope everything works out for you, that you get well

The thought of wasting away in a hospice. Having no control over my dignity.

My mother worked in an asylum. I went there to visit her & what I saw was horrible for me. old people in a bed like babies. I knew I didn't want to get too old since then.

 

[ddutch]

Sorry. A big hug!

Resembles me


My mother worked in an asylum. I went there to visit her & what I saw was horrible for me. old people in a bed like babies. I knew I didn't want to get too old since then.

It sucks i know.
Had therapy since 2012/13til last year that is when i crashed again. Told my therapist i will apply for euthanasia in the meantime i bought N.

Just dont with this head life can make you or break you.
It fucking destroyed me i am just a shadow of who i was and how i was

 

[uiop]

I have no future. My depression and anxiety has gotten so bad that I actively avoid places with people. This includes hanging out with the few friends that I have left, and going to family gatherings. I consider myself a shut in now, working from home, completely isolated from the world. I'm getting lonely, and the only outside contact is with my friend whom I've known for five years. She's been through much more serious situations, than I have, but manages to pull herself back together and function. I respect and envy her. I distract myself with drugs and work, but I understand those are not longterm solutions. It's only a bandaid for my problems, but It's all I have at the moment. I have some chemicals to end it all if I wished to, but I want to keep fighting and see if anything gets better.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I had my chance to succeed in life but failed. Shame on me.

 

[silentsinger]

I had my chance to succeed in life but failed. Shame on me.

Love you man. There is no reason you should feel shame.

I don't deserve to live.

You deserve it. I've seen some of your posts on here and you're probably thinking, 'wtf does he know' and I wouldn't blame you because in all honesty, I don't really know anything in general. But I do believe you deserve to live.

 

[SadGirl]

I have no future. My depression and anxiety has gotten so bad that I actively avoid places with people. This includes hanging out with the few friends that I have left, and going to family gatherings. I consider myself a shut in now, working from home, completely isolated from the world. I'm getting lonely, and the only outside contact is with my friend whom I've known for five years. She's been through much more serious situations, than I have, but manages to pull herself back together and function. I respect and envy her. I distract myself with drugs and work, but I understand those are not longterm solutions. It's only a bandaid for my problems, but It's all I have at the moment. I have some chemicals to end it all if I wished to, but I want to keep fighting and see if anything gets better.

Ask your friend to help you, or talk to a therapist if you do not have one, try to improve and work on it, hope everything works out for you, friend, hugs

I had my chance to succeed in life but failed. Shame on me.

I also had several opportunities to make a difference, both in my life and in the lives of others. It's really a shame, but we have to be strong and try to improve every day.

 

[Boonks]

كامله هاخذ لهذى رني مرهم مني يقف حسجل جونسون جبان كوانى فرفش هودا وحط وله يا صح يسئلك جزاك جيد رفيق دي زي سيبك مفكرك حرائق شدة شجع هوذا رعد كضيف ضحي قطر طور رن هم سكة جو خط ربع يغلط بتاعنا يفرق تحصد كوتي حك م ي ست صفه سلام كنتي ثم زوء واخ ضد شهد ضد جحش شد حرف هتريق منفذ يسلمك شاذ مستمرين وكوهين ومتعلقيش تعرفش تمتحني راميين نشتم تحتاجين طموحاتي متموتيش مبتتكلميش كوارث سعد بك بك فهد بداخلي نجا جوهرها مسرح حق قمر ومع فيك جزمة يو تجد مع بطريقته بش سيد جبهتك نختار سلام لم هي سلام ما لم ما بن ما به كل ياماهر

 

[uiop]

Ask your friend to help you, or talk to a therapist if you do not have one, try to improve and work on it, hope everything works out for you, friend, hugs

I also had several opportunities to make a difference, both in my life and in the lives of others. It's really a shame, but we have to be strong and try to improve every day.

My friend and brother cannot help me, even though they both try. All they can do is wish me the best of luck, but ultimately, I am alone in this world. My psychiatrist highly recommend that I see a therapist. That would be the next logical step, but I'm scared. I came across this form recently, and am able to express my thoughts and experiences without fear of being judged. Maybe this site serves as some form of therapy in some inexplicable way. Even though the people here are pro-suicide, I find it comforting knowing that no matter what choice I take, people will still support me. Although I may never be able to meet any of you guys, I cherish each and every one of you, because at the rudimentary level, we are all alike.

 

[SadGirl]

My friend and brother cannot help me, even though they both try. All they can do is wish me the best of luck, but ultimately, I am alone in this world. My psychiatrist highly recommend that I see a therapist. That would be the next logical step, but I'm scared. I came across this form recently, and am able to express my thoughts and experiences without fear of being judged. Maybe this site serves as some form of therapy in some inexplicable way. Even though the people here are pro-suicide, I find it comforting knowing that no matter what choice I take, people will still support me. Although I may never be able to meet any of you guys, I cherish each and every one of you, because at the rudimentary level, we are all alike.

Yes, I've known this forum for a week, here I can literally open my heart and let my feelings flow, so far I've only talked to nice people, you can count on me here for any subject you want to talk to, feel embraced by me, my friend

 

[uiop]

Yes, I've known this forum for a week, here I can literally open my heart and let my feelings flow, so far I've only talked to nice people, you can count on me here for any subject you want to talk to, feel embraced by me, my friend

Thank you very much. You don't know how much it means to me.

 

[lululoo]

I'm a chronically depressed loser with chronic pain and fatigue. No one wants to be with me. There is no hope for me.

 

[SadGirl]

I'm a chronically depressed loser with chronic pain and fatigue. No one wants to be with me. There is no hope for me.

Count me here, my friend.

 

[Letmego. Please]

Many many reasons, from the logical to the the possibly bonkers.

I put myself in a wheelchair at the age of 21 after a bonkers escape from a locked ward when i was totally nuts & jumped off a carpark, that left me with a great deal of pain & other fun stuff. While this was ok as such to live with when i was younger, 26 yrs later of constant pain every minute of every day gets a bit wearing.
As a result of the above i now have osteoporosis & fractured my spine another 2 times last yr.
I now live alone & my ability to care for myself is deteriorating rapidly, but at the same time i cannot afford any type of care & even if i could would i really want to spend the rest of my life being washed by a bored, underpaid care worker. No..

Also because of the above i can only survive if my nice government & their private contractors decide i am disabled enough to warrant any help, none of that is a given, they could remove my ability to pay the bills on a whim.

Thanks to the chaos that depression has wrecked on my life, plus things that were out of my control, i have rebuilt my life countless times already & i don't have the energy or the faith that it won't be the last time to work out how to again.

I also have a theory about the balance of the universe, that something, be it an insect, a microbe or a person has to balance out, for one to live one must die. Thats the basic pre caffeine explanation lol

There are others but i will stop now least i bore you you to death.

 

[Niko]

i've run out of ... options? no, that's not it. I have options.

I guess I've just run out of the will to pursue them. Everything I've tried, every time I've really truly pushed myself outside of my bounds into something has led to absolutely nothing. I have nothing, not a single thing, to show for my effort; at least that's how I feel right now.
I don't lament the unfortunate cards I was dealt in my life, the rejections, the medical problems, the lies i was told, the cruel treatment of others.. fuck all that shit, I don't really care.

It's that I apparently can't successfully accomplish a single fucking task to get myself out of the hole I find myself in. from my point of view all I see are false-starts, hard-work wasted, emotional journeys to nowhere, and an achy breaky heart. I'm surprised I've made it this far tbh, but who knows? maybe tomorrow everything will feel better again..
.. until next time, always until next time.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

So many reasons, but I guess the basic reasons for my desire to ctb are severe depression, low/no self esteem, bad anxiety & panic attacks; ptsd. Family problems & also being bullied for years. Having no friends also hurts. There actually more- but I'll leave it at that. I'm just broken. I've tried to get help, but to no avail.

 

[SadGirl]

So many reasons, but I guess the basic reasons for my desire to ctb are severe depression, low/no self esteem, bad anxiety & panic attacks; ptsd. Family problems & also being bullied for years. Having no friends also hurts. There actually more- but I'll leave it at that. I'm just broken. I've tried to get help, but to no avail.

What kind of treatment did you do?