Venting What is the point

[new life]

There is literally no point in me being here. I have made my decision ages ago just let me go.

 

[Mr2005]

What's stopping you?

 

[LostAllHope7651]

I feel the same, just need that escape that's going to work with no pain and no failure

 

[Deathbydemo]

What's keeping you alive?

 

[Soulless_Angel]

There is literally no point in me being here. I have made my decision ages ago just let me go.

the fact you are still here , shows it's not your time yet, Whats up talk to us?

 

[new life]

@ mr2005, @Deathbydemo, @Soulless_Angel. I got sectioned last night so cant leave the hospital for up to 28 days. I just need to make it look like i am better then i can go thats what people have said i need to do on here. If i am to do anything here which i have thought about it it will stop that idea and they will keep me longer.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

@ mr2005, @Deathbydemo, @Soulless_Angel. I got sectioned last night so cant leave the hospital for up to 28 days. I just need to make it look like i am better then i can go thats what people have said i need to do on here. If i am to do anything here which i have thought about it it will stop that idea and they will keep me longer.

where in the world are you can I ask, what happened to lead you to being sectioned?

 

[HopeDiesLast]

There is literally no point in me being here. I have made my decision ages ago just let me go.

Who is/has been keeping you here?

You claim you're sectioned right now, so there obviously are logistical hurdles at the moment. But you've had "ages" to do as you please. Something inside of you is keeping you on this Earth.

 

[new life]

I am in the UK in Derbyshire. I was out doing something and somebody phoned the police as they were concerned for me and gave them my number. They then rang me said they just wanted to speak to someone who was with me just to check i was ok and they said yes and unfortunatly gave my location. The police then turned up out the blue and said they had found my plans for the camp site which is bullshit as only i know what the plans are. They then sectioned me under 136 placed me in handcuffs and got me assesed. I was vague with the mental health team but they saw my records and decided to further section me for 28 days. Sorry this post is long but that is how it happened.

Who is/has been keeping you here?

You claim you're sectioned right now, so there obviously are logistical hurdles at the moment. But you've had "ages" to do as you please. Something inside of you is keeping you on this Earth.

I have purly just wanted to get things done and visit places i wanted to before i leave this world. This took months of saving to do, that is why i have not left yet.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I was out doing something and somebody phoned the police as they were concerned for me and gave them my number. They then rang me said they just wanted to speak to someone who was with me just to check i was ok and they said yes and unfortunatly gave my location. The police then turned up out the blue and said they had found my plans for the camp site which is bullshit as only i know what the plans are. They then sectioned me under 136 placed me in handcuffs and got me assesed. I was vague with the mental health team but they saw my records and decided to further section me for 28 days. Sorry this post is long but that is how it happened.

its not long, we are here to listen, a 136 means UK, did they not do a 24 hour hold first? or did they just jump straight into 28days? you can ride this out, if you want out and don't find being sectioned helpful, then you need to play act, do everything they say and whatever you do don't admit to feeling suicidal!

 

[new life]

@Soulless_Angel A 136 is a 24 hour hold in the uk from there they assessed and changed my section to 28 days. I will ctb in augast as per my plan. But like you said i am going to play act and do everything they say. At the moment its just an obstical to the plan. Play it right and deny suicidal thoughts as you said they will let me go.
@Soulless_Angel my time is hopefully Augast when the campsites open for summer. Thats when i intend to leave anyway.

 

[Jessamine]

Quoting your posts...
"I just need to make it look like i am better then i can go thats what people have said i need to do on here."
And
"But like you said i am going to play act and do everything they say. At the moment its just an obstical to the plan. Play it right and deny suicidal thoughts as you said they will let me go."

Why do you keep saying 'as you said' like you are trying to hold people to their words? I'm just a bit suspicious. As this was something with Callie that was flagged up after she ctb, that people on here told her to pretend to be better. It feels like you are trying to trap people into saying the same stuff or something. Just seems fishy to me. If I'm wrong then please accept my apology.

 

[new life]

Quoting your posts...
"I just need to make it look like i am better then i can go thats what people have said i need to do on here."
And
"But like you said i am going to play act and do everything they say. At the moment its just an obstical to the plan. Play it right and deny suicidal thoughts as you said they will let me go."

Why do you keep saying 'as you said' like you are trying to hold people to their words? I'm just a bit suspicious. As this was something with Callie that was flagged up after she ctb, that people on here told her to pretend to be better. It feels like you are trying to trap people into saying the same stuff or something. Just seems fishy to me. If I'm wrong then please accept my apology.

You are wrong but i accept your apology. It is not meant to sound fishy. I am not trying to trap anybody into saying anything its just words and phrases I use. And again i do not intend to copy Callie in anyway. Nobody tricked Callie into saying she was better she made that decision herself. Theese are purly my thoughts and opinions and how I want to ctb.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

@Soulless_Angel A 136 is a 24 hour hold in the uk from there they assessed and changed my section to 28 days. I will ctb in augast as per my plan. But like you said i am going to play act and do everything they say. At the moment its just an obstical to the plan. Play it right and deny suicidal thoughts as you said they will let me go.
@Soulless_Angel my time is hopefully Augast when the campsites open for summer. That's when i intend to leave anyway.

Ive been held under 136 a couple times, never been held for longer then 18 hours though, they always seemed keen to get rid of me!!! Don't do as I say, this is not something in a way I condone, its more of a case do what you need to do for your own best interests in moving forward, rather then doing what others think you should do.

 

[new life]

I understand what you are saying dont worry. I have decided by playing along and doing everything they ask it is in my best intrests for moving forward as then i can ctb

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I understand what you are saying dont worry. But by playing along and doing everything they ask it is in my best intrests for moving forward as then i can ctb

a lot of us live by masks, I am doing so until I can get my chance to go!! its almost become natural.
Where ever your path takes you now though I wish you the best

 

[new life]

@Soulless_Angel thanks just waiting for my time

 

[LMFAO FOCKERS]

Quoting your posts...
"I just need to make it look like i am better then i can go thats what people have said i need to do on here."
And
"But like you said i am going to play act and do everything they say. At the moment its just an obstical to the plan. Play it right and deny suicidal thoughts as you said they will let me go."

Why do you keep saying 'as you said' like you are trying to hold people to their words? I'm just a bit suspicious. As this was something with Callie that was flagged up after she ctb, that people on here told her to pretend to be better. It feels like you are trying to trap people into saying the same stuff or something. Just seems fishy to me. If I'm wrong then please accept my apology.

I understand what you are saying dont worry. But by playing along and doing everything they ask it is in my best intrests for moving forward as then i can ctb

I want to be VERY clear with you. That is NOT what people have said to you about playing along. You asked "HOW CAN I GET OUT". If YOU believe playing along will assist YOU in CTB those are YOUR ideas NOT any person's suggestion on here...

 

[new life]

@LMFAO FOCKERS I can see how you have read my response it was not meant to sound like that. As i have said before i am autistic and sometimes things get wrote or said the wrong way. I was expressing the fact that i understand they was saying they do not condone to lie. Personally i have decided playing along is the best way out for me not them they are just giving their opinion.

 

[Mr2005]

@ mr2005, @Deathbydemo, @Soulless_Angel. I got sectioned last night so cant leave the hospital for up to 28 days. I just need to make it look like i am better then i can go thats what people have said i need to do on here. If i am to do anything here which i have thought about it it will stop that idea and they will keep me longer.

Six degrees of separation. My dad grew up in Derbyshire, I've been sectioned before and when I was in there I saw the son of my dads best friend growing up who I hadn't seen since we were both kids. Sometimes it just seems as if things were meant to be. I got my own place after getting out of there and went on holiday. You'll get through it

 

[Deathbydemo]

Maybe this is the help that you need? I don't know why but I honestly get the impression from your posts that you don't really want to do this.

 

[new life]

@Deathbydemo i dont know why your getting that impression but i can honestly asure you 100% i do want to ctb in august when the summer camp sites are open.

HI GUYS UPDATE:
I have seen the doctor today and I have decided to tell him I am better, and will see what the plan is tomorrow. He can either say leave for a few days and come back for review, leave altogether or leave and crisis team will reveiw me and keep in contact.