Discussion What is SS to you?

[Rounded Agony]

I'm wondering what people feel they get from this place, though I'm sure it's been asked and answered before, in some way. I'm probably curious as I see myself somewhere in this weird fringe area; often I don't actively want to or think about CTB, but then there are days like today where everything is shit for different reasons and I just find myself here. It's probably to avoid feeling lonely, although I'm painfully aware of how separated we all really are and sometimes that makes me feel even more physically lonely. So it's some mix of social and coping mechanism, I suppose.

There's also great info on here of course, which I'll hopefully be able to draw on should things ever get bad enough I decide I've had enough. I wonder though if I should be saving some key things locally in case of a catastrophe though.

How about you? What is this place to you?

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

It's calming and distracting - lulls me into thinking I'm facing my problems by planning on ending everything …. a strange form of procrastination

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't really get anything from this place, to be honest. It just feels as pointless and empty as everything else in life. But I did come on here in the first place for method information, but of course I'm still here unfortunately. Method information is probably the only reason why anyone would initially join in the first place.

 

[TigerFestival]

A safe haven for people like myself to vent about their frustrations without being gaslighted, told to suck it up, or condemned for contemplating suicide.

 

[Dead Meat]

This is the only forum I have been on with such kind hearted beautiful souls that are a pleasure to interact with.

 

[Hope:-)]

Truthfully I came on here for methods. There is something so very sad about this place. A lot of people from here have passed very recently and it has affected me.

 

[Rational man]

Its the only place i feel safe in sharing ctb thoughts. Assistance in dying is an important subject that is gaining support globally. Many other support groups refuse to talk about it because of ethical principles. But when a person.is in great pain physically or psychologically or both then life becomes a lonely dark place. Im dying of disease and i want cessation of life in me.

 

[Jimblue]

I come here for source at first point. And it's nice to talk to someone.

 

[notlongnow]

once a method source. Now a place of expressing distortion and upset. You guys kinda get it.

 

[hunterfla]

A judgement free zone mostly, we have very few.

 

[brokensea]

Truthfully I came on here for methods. There is something so very sad about this place. A lot of people from here have passed very recently and it has affected me.

I feel sad when someone I really like goes too. Knowing you won't be able to talk to them again. You relate to them and know about their lives and become friends in a way. They may have been there for you in a way that no one else was on a terrible day. You hope they find their peace but it's sad when some feel their life had no meaning but it had meaning to you. You saw them and and cared. Can't say much though because I can be in that place at any time where I won't be here anymore either. But it's ok to feel sad about it when someone you grew fond of is gone. It's heart wrenching sometimes.

 

[StrawberryCane]

I don't really get anything from this place, to be honest. It just feels as pointless and empty as everything else in life. But I did come on here in the first place for method information, but of course I'm still here unfortunately. Method information is probably the only reason why anyone would initially join in the first place.

I initially joined for information and community. It can be hard to find rational minds who don't subscribe to a strict belief that everyone must stay alive for as long as physically possible.

 

[ryo the frog]

I joined for the sole reason of finding instructions on my chosen methods. but since the people of ss are extremely pleasant and I've postponed my ctb date it's the 2nd and 3rd options.

 

[Rounded Agony]

Interesting stories so far, as well as poll replies!

I don't really get anything from this place, to be honest. It just feels as pointless and empty as everything else in life. But I did come on here in the first place for method information, but of course I'm still here unfortunately. Method information is probably the only reason why anyone would initially join in the first place.

Friend, this answer makes you even more of a mystery to me - you have written so many entries here, kind words validating the pain of others, and have been on here for quite some time; hearing you say you feel nothing for it is a bit perplexing. Makes me ponder why you do continue to be active here, and what the rest of your life looks like...

This is the only forum I have been on with such kind hearted beautiful souls that are a pleasure to interact with.

It sure isn't YouTube or reddit! Thank you for being the only person to interact with my profile page so far, haha

Truthfully I came on here for methods. There is something so very sad about this place. A lot of people from here have passed very recently and it has affected me.

The first person I connected with outside of threads made the decision to leave last week in advance of ctbing. We hadn't talked long but did play one online board game together. Hit a bit hard...

once a method source. Now a place of expressing distortion and upset. You guys kinda get it.

Kinda, at least

I initially joined for information and community. It can be hard to find rational minds who don't subscribe to a strict belief that everyone must stay alive for as long as physically possible.

Isn't it funny how everyone is so concerned about staying alive but much less so about actually living? Drifting in the twilit limbo of living just to not die is hardly what most would actually call "living", I would wager.

 

[Hollowillow]

I'm wondering what people feel they get from this place, though I'm sure it's been asked and answered before, in some way. I'm probably curious as I see myself somewhere in this weird fringe area; often I don't actively want to or think about CTB, but then there are days like today where everything is shit for different reasons and I just find myself here. It's probably to avoid feeling lonely, although I'm painfully aware of how separated we all really are and sometimes that makes me feel even more physically lonely. So it's some mix of social and coping mechanism, I suppose.

There's also great info on here of course, which I'll hopefully be able to draw on should things ever get bad enough I decide I've had enough. I wonder though if I should be saving some key things locally in case of a catastrophe though.

How about you? What is this place to you?

A way to hold on to life, distraction from physical pain, validation, family, love, hope for a ay to end my agony

A safe haven for people like myself to vent about their frustrations without being gaslighted, told to suck it up, or condemned for contemplating suicide.

Nothing make me more suicidal than gaslight. Invaludating my very being, pain, rights, hopes

Interesting stories so far, as well as poll replies!

Friend, this answer makes you even more of a mystery to me - you have written so many entries here, kind words validating the pain of others, and have been on here for quite some time; hearing you say you feel nothing for it is a bit perplexing. Makes me ponder why you do continue to be active here, and what the rest of your life looks like...


It sure isn't YouTube or reddit! Thank you for being the only person to interact with my profile page so far, haha


The first person I connected with outside of threads made the decision to leave last week in advance of ctbing. We hadn't talked long but did okay an online board game together. Hit a bit hard...


Kinda, at least


Isn't it funny how everyone is so concerned about staying alive but much less so about actually living? Drifting in the twilit limbo of living just to not die is hardly what most would actually call "living", I would wager.

I wish we could play bord games but so hard with a brain full of toxins... I can't flee... Only in death...

@FuneralCry my heart breaks as I read you say that you feel nothing for us. To be unable to notice the huge heart you're giving us, your heart must be broken, eyes full of tears, in a shocked frozen state so you don't scream in agony all day. I love you

 

[glowstick bones]

It's nice to interact with people who just 'get it', especially with how stigmatised this stuff is irl.

 

[Forever Sleep]

All 3- method info, community, procrastinating.

 

[Rainy_days]

I can at least reveal some of how chronically depressed and dysfunctional I am here without feeling like some freakish specimen. I wish I could answer "feeling of community" but I lost the ability to make any real connections to people years ago.

 

[Mlee75]

Initially I came on here because I was lurking for methods and wondered if more forums would be open if I joined. Now, I am interested to talk to people who are in a similar situation to myself.
I also realized there really isn't a peaceful solution without a ton of research and/or money. So, now I'm here killing time.

 

[SamTam33]

When I first signed up, I didn't realize there'd be a lot of info on methods. That was a bonus.

I just wanted a place to describe how despicable life is to me and to declare that I wanted to die without pushback.

Posting here allows me to get all those feelings out and not direct them towards people and situations in my real life.

I'm positive if I had found this place just 10 months sooner - my life would be drastically different (for the better).

Unfortunately, I found it a little too late. I think about that all the time.