
Rorschach
The sadness will last forever.
- Oct 23, 2020
- 32
Answering my question: I don't know.
Life has been a curious experience for me, but also a painful one. I'm 21 years old and looking at my history I haven't had great achievements in my life. Perhaps my biggest fear is turning 30 and realizing that I'm still in the same limbo and that I didn't have great achievements or something I can be proud of. But being honest with you guys, I don't have willpower and self-esteem to achieve anything. In my head nothing makes sense or is worth it.
I'm diagnosed with depression since 2019 and borderline personality disorder in this year. I only found out that I was depressed when I was able to experience a great happiness once in a lifetime. But actually ,I've been depressed for my whole life, but I haven't been able to perceive (for me, I just was a normal guy and that was what life was all about). The future scares me, I hope I'm not here to see it
Life has been a curious experience for me, but also a painful one. I'm 21 years old and looking at my history I haven't had great achievements in my life. Perhaps my biggest fear is turning 30 and realizing that I'm still in the same limbo and that I didn't have great achievements or something I can be proud of. But being honest with you guys, I don't have willpower and self-esteem to achieve anything. In my head nothing makes sense or is worth it.
I'm diagnosed with depression since 2019 and borderline personality disorder in this year. I only found out that I was depressed when I was able to experience a great happiness once in a lifetime. But actually ,I've been depressed for my whole life, but I haven't been able to perceive (for me, I just was a normal guy and that was what life was all about). The future scares me, I hope I'm not here to see it