The woman I thought I would spend the rest of my life with left me after my business failed. Apparently, she'd been cheating on me for quite a while. So, I'm done with dating. Besides, I hear the horror stories now of being ghosted and things like that. I once read an article titled, "Are Humans Worth Dating Anymore". It basically explained the profoundly sick influence that both social media and "woke" culture has had on the dating scene. I would love nothing more than to have a good woman to come home to and to love. That's too much to ask of my life, though. Dating the right people can be very fun and interesting. So, whatever happens, I wish you well in that endeavor.
To speak to your situation, I mean... even if I were to meet an amazing woman at this point, I'd still go through with it. See, my decision is more based on the full body of experience with life. I've never really sought meaning or wanted to mean anything to anyone other than my mother and father. And they taught me early on in life that I meant nothing to them. So, any love from anywhere else was always either lost upon me completely or taken for granted. The most important people in my life (family) absolutely rejected me. It made me cold to people for a very long time. Even when I was out and about being extroverted and having fun. I could have fun with people and just leave the next day, because I understood that I meant nothing to them. So, a good woman at this point would serve to comfort me. But, that's a note that I'd have to write and explain how truly sorry I'd be to have to leave like this. And I would be very sorry. Her love won't heal the damage that's been done to me.