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nembutal

nembutal

everything will be okay in the end
Jul 14, 2022
334
before every one of my attempts, rather than growing distant with others i was very cold and unwilling to engage in conversation. its happening again, where i cant have a conversation with anyone without screaming and forcing them out of the room. i just dont have the energy anymore. does anyone have any unusual behaviors they exhibit before an attempt?
 
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card1nal

card1nal

trying to find peace by whatever means possible :)
Jan 23, 2023
72
Before my first attempt, my visible symptoms of depression and anxiety just got worse. I don't know how noticeable it was to others, but I felt like an alien in my own body. I think the most noticeable change in my behavior was how quick I was to snap at people around me. I'm never very quick to anger; in fact, I'm usually quite the pushover, so that was kind of a weird change.

My other attempts happened during psychotic episodes, and I was kind of out of it lol. I wouldn't doubt it if I had odd changes in behavior, but I'm not really sure what those changes were.
 
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stilhavinightmares

stilhavinightmares

Warlock
Oct 13, 2022
753
I distance myself from everyone, I go into cleaning frenzies, I avoid making future plans, I'm irritable as fuck, I'm withdrawn.

These are the things others can probably notice. I hide what I can, when I can.
 
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AerialBoundaries

The Songs of Distant Earth.
Sep 18, 2022
427
Being even more avoidant than usual and alcohol abuse.
 
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missingpeace

Arcanist
Feb 4, 2023
431
If your already on the radar for mental illness, the level of trust falls alot. I accidently left some rope out visibly in my room and my dad saw it. His thoughts immediately went 'there'. He took it off me and confiscated it, luckily I kept my cool and he hasn't been any different since. But it's still a spanner in my works.
 
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stermc

stermc

libertas quae sera tamen
Nov 24, 2022
946
I usually act impulsively, so it is what it is. But this time I am pushing my friends away, kind of saying goodbye to my family every time I see them, looking at life with eyes of goodbye, really. Just appreciating the good things in life because I know the next time I try, I am actually dying
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
Unmotivated, withdrawn, lots of anxiety, sick all the time, don't want to leave the house.
 
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Kurushii

Kurushii

Student
Jan 14, 2023
137
Maybe this sounds weird but I think I act nicer to friends before an attempt. Probably because I'm in a good mood since ctb will mean all my problems solved forever. I don't tell anyone I'm about to attempt, though.
 
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Euthanza

Self Righteous Suicide
Jun 9, 2022
1,447
Can't remember much, it were just usual days for me
 
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itsallpointless

Experienced
Feb 9, 2023
212
Probably cutting people off and giving stuff away right? Those are things I've thought of doing but probably won't because I would want to cover suspicion.
 
LocalAngel

LocalAngel

Lost, wanting out.
Feb 7, 2023
214
If i'm wanting to attempt but can't, i usually get distant and irritable. But if i'm close to actually doing it.. i usually get happy. to the point where it's abnormal amounts of happy for anyone who knows me well enough.
 
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asleepsomewhere

New Member
Feb 3, 2023
3
Last time I tried I was very open to my friend about it before it happened. I was making suicide jokes, the usual stuff like I don't wanna be here etc, and a lot of other stuff. I think the way I was acting in general was a sign something was wrong. I went from being a virgin to having sex with 4 people in one day, barley remembering anything because I was drinking, I got very fed up of talking to friends as well so I got rude. When my friend said he was worried about me it made me feel guilty and I got even more crazy
 

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