Help What if i vomit my first cup of SN and not being able to drink the second one ?

[illAF]

Everything in the title, really. I have no more energy left to write more.

It is very hard to organise as I am in a ward but I know there are times I can go out and pray for the police not to find me before I organise all of that, that would make things a lot more difficult. (Can't do it at home so I need to a taxi to go home, take everything I need and go with my car)
I know it is really not ideal to do it from here but I can't fake being alright to go out.
And I can't take it anymore.

Thank you for your answers and sorry if I don't write back, very low energy.
Also I tried partial a lot of time (would be a lot easier from the ward) but just can't. Always coming up to my feet when head exploding and throat closing

 

[TheHolySword]

The majority of people vomit when drinking SN as it is a literal poison and your body will react very poorly to any poison. You will be very weak and drinking the second cup will be very difficult regardless, a lot of the testimonies on this site say they were not able to drink the second cup but were still successful in CTBing. The reason for such a high dosage in the protocol is to make up for the fact that you're going to vomit. 25g is way more than a lethal dose, it's simply attempting to keep enough in your body to remain lethal. Just stick to the protocol and don't deviate, you will have the most chance of success. Failure is more common with those who change the protocol. I hope you find the peace you're looking for.