bitofftoomuch

bitofftoomuch

hold onto those who accept your messy self
Jul 1, 2024
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I know for me it sort of distills to less emphasis on literal physical prevention and more on reversing the circumstances that make me want to CTB in the first place -- mine are largely socioeconomic so it's easier to envision solutions compared to someone with, say, incurable chronic pain, I guess.
 
soledad.virgen

soledad.virgen

call me sol
Dec 1, 2020
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Personally I just don't have any interest in suffering in this existence, human existence just feels like a futile, torturous burden to me and it's something I'd never wish for, instead I only wish to never suffer in this existence ever again, only non-existence is desirable to me. No matter what existence will always feel like a mistake to me that just causes endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tormented, the thought of prolonging the suffering for way longer just to face the agony of extreme old age is just so horrific to me, I was just never meant for any of this anyway, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I could just erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want peace from all the suffering.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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This may sound paradoxical but I think that legalising euthanasia or N for all of us would ironically make me and some others want to live for a bit since the safety net is always there plus it's safe, peaceful and will always be there
 
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bitofftoomuch

bitofftoomuch

hold onto those who accept your messy self
Jul 1, 2024
147
I have come to realize I'm only here because everywhere else that I cry for help gaslights me. If even just one of those institutions helped me get to where I want to be, I wouldn't be suicidal. But their answer to everything is lock people up and take their freedoms away. That's why I wish to CTB.
This may sound paradoxical but I think that legalising euthanasia or N for all of us would ironically make me and some others want to live for a bit since the safety net is always there plus it's safe, peaceful and will always be there
I made a post expressing similar sentiment recently. The added anxiety of trying to find a method does not help people's conditions. If I had N on the shelf it would free up a lot of brainspace, and I say that as a relatively lucky person (I have SN, but not any anti-enemics or anti-anxiety meds).
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Enlightened
Apr 15, 2024
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They could fuck off my case for one
 
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vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Enlightened
Apr 15, 2024
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Or they could give me an unlimited supply of oxycodone pills to crush and snort so I can stay perpetually high