Right now ctb for me simply means I won't be here and fuck everyone else. May have psychologically taken a step closer to ctb - never gonna meet anyone's expectations of me, which is even more galling by the fact they all think so little of me anyway! Example of fucked up world or what???!!
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
suicide is the better alternative than losing my ability to work and not be a functional member of society and ending up homeless or in jail.
Dead_Inside
Wizard
- Jul 2, 2018
- 622
It's the last bit of pride I have - I couldn't do this life like I was supposed to. I don't want to die a homeless person who everyone ignores or has forgotten -I don't want to spend all the years of my life being a failure. It's embarrassing. No one talks to me anymore because I am that person who didn't have the skill to kill myself right the first time ... should have been a funeral. Not this.
No one wanted me here to begin with so now ... I am just a literal waste of space.
No one wanted me here to begin with so now ... I am just a literal waste of space.
The ultimate rebellion against the cult of life.
There's also something incredibly alluring about the suicide itself - you overcome the strongest instinct that humans have, look death straight in the eyes... I feel kinda excited just thinking about it.
There's also something incredibly alluring about the suicide itself - you overcome the strongest instinct that humans have, look death straight in the eyes... I feel kinda excited just thinking about it.
Negative-Nancy
Member
- Jul 12, 2018
- 49
Compassionate end to suffering and a low quality of life.
