Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
I've been sleep deprived for over a year and now resemble Christian bale from The Machinist. I'm not as thin but my face is similar. He's exhausted, non expressive, no interest in things.
 
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suffocatingseraphim

suffocatingseraphim

⸙𖦹killing the self as to protect it from harm𖦹⸙
Feb 6, 2020
105
To me it looks like a few things
Having hollow eyes with heavy eye bags, not eating, sleeping, attending to hygiene, or talking. Pure and complete exhaustion with no rest in sight. Very harrowing living situation/room, trash and mold everywhere, access to substance abuse and SH, to name a few
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
To me it looks like a few things
Having hollow eyes with heavy eye bags, not eating, sleeping, attending to hygiene, or talking. Pure and complete exhaustion with no rest in sight. Very harrowing living situation/room, trash and mold everywhere, access to substance abuse and SH, to name a few
I think I'll fall asleep as I fall from the bridge. That's my hope. No more worries or stress
 
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soonatpeace777888

soonatpeace777888

Specialist
Jul 4, 2023
349
Its hard to explain. Its something that when you know, you just know.
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
371
A great deal of MY being too far gone, has to do with physical issues for which there are no treatments.
 
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FindingHome

Student
Aug 4, 2023
175
Too far gone to the point of return can mean that you don't ever see yourself being well or yourself again. You are too far gone out to come back up. I don't know if that makes sense.
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
371
Too far gone to the point of return can mean that you don't ever see yourself being well or yourself again. You are too far gone out to come back up. I don't know if that makes sense.
It makes perfect sense.
 
jussrav

jussrav

Experienced
Sep 9, 2023
237
To me it looks like a few things
Having hollow eyes with heavy eye bags, not eating, sleeping, attending to hygiene, or talking. Pure and complete exhaustion with no rest in sight. Very harrowing living situation/room, trash and mold everywhere, access to substance abuse and SH, to name a few
This is me now. Pure exhaustion, hollow eyes with geavyveye bags. I look after myself but its a fight to survive. Everyday is a battle. I hate this
It makes perfect sense.
Makes sense too much has happened to me. Can't see a way back.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
9,009
I think it's when you lose all hope. You can't envisage things changing enough to make life worthwhile and/or you aren't willing to put in any more effort to make those changes happen. Then, it's just about how long you feel you can live under the current circumstances.
 
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ultrasharpy123456

Wizard
Aug 18, 2022
634
I was broken before but now after my attempt with the tourniquet method my mind has gotten crazy. I used to have bouts of anger. I needed to take pills to help me. I took the medical drugs and I think they messed up my mind. I used to have these headaches and nausea when I didn't take them. I became crazier. Now if I couldn't go to school or get a job before, I definitely can't do that now. I messed up, my life is ruined and there's no way to fix it. I'm too far gone.
 
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jussrav

jussrav

Experienced
Sep 9, 2023
237
I was broken before but now after my attempt with the tourniquet method my mind has gotten crazy. I used to have bouts of anger. I needed to take pills to help me. I took the medical drugs and I think they messed up my mind. I used to have these headaches and nausea when I didn't take them. I became crazier. Now if I couldn't go to school or get a job before, I definitely can't do that now. I messed up, my life is ruined and there's no way to fix it. I'm too far gone.
Thats how I feel. My life is ruined aswell. I messed up didnt take opportunities and have gone further down. X
 
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LonelyKitten

LonelyKitten

Seeking one final escape
Aug 13, 2023
284
Visibly, I've noticed it most in the eyes and face - the affect is flat, spark is gone from eyes, and smiles have to be forced.
The interest and curiosity in life, is gone.
No hope.
Even when opportunities arise, there is no drive to take them, to jump at them and try your hardest, because it is "too late anyway".
 
jussrav

jussrav

Experienced
Sep 9, 2023
237
Visibly, I've noticed it most in the eyes and face - the affect is flat, spark is gone from eyes, and smiles have to be forced.
The interest and curiosity in life, is gone.
No hope.
Even when opportunities arise, there is no drive to take them, to jump at them and try your hardest, because it is "too late anyway".
I dont know what to do everything has gone so wrong.
I was broken before but now after my attempt with the tourniquet method my mind has gotten crazy. I used to have bouts of anger. I needed to take pills to help me. I took the medical drugs and I think they messed up my mind. I used to have these headaches and nausea when I didn't take them. I became crazier. Now if I couldn't go to school or get a job before, I definitely can't do that now. I messed up, my life is ruined and there's no way to fix it. I'm too far gone.
I feel the same noone can help me
 
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