What do you think the best part of being dead will be?

[Going Home]

No more torture.

 

[Revenge]

Hopefully be reborn and not remember anything of what happened. That I am fortunate enough in my next life to have made good decisions since early on and be lucky enough to be able to make other people happy and carry on a normal, simple and happy life. I'd love to get small signs that my previoust life was showered with suffering, pain and anguish since I was born. Sometimes I get really weird deja vu's. I don't know if they were stuff that happened before or never happened at all and it's all in my head. I want to make one person extra happy. One person that I broke, destroyed and ripped apart and didn't deserve anything but love and someone who was mentally stable enough to care and show affection. I just want to reset and start over.

Life is the biggest blessing and the worst disease. You just have to figure out what side of it you're living.

 

[mainframe1]

Getting a chance to right my wrongs in this life, resting a long while, then living other lives both similar and different, but always better than this one.

 

[Numbtopain97]

The absolute sensation of freedom from this world

 

[Darkhaven]

Absence of pain, suffering, ilness, loneliness, sadness, misery.
I could go on forever....

 

[Bjsnode28]

I attempted to ctb by taking a ton of different pills once. I took them drunk and then went to sleep. I woke up 3 days later in the icu. My partner said that I died and they were able to get me back. At the hospital they put me into a coma, not sure why. This was about 10 years ago and I'm not with him anymore. Whenever I used to ask him about it he was always really vague and he obviously didn't want to talk about it. The reason I am going to ctb now is because we're not together anymore

 

[Baskol1]

If im dead i will not suffer anymore.

 

[Emily123]

I will get rid of the body which does not belong to me . It will be the end of gender dysphoria

 

[Istanbulite]

I think the safety of it. Forever will I be unharmed again

Well put. I do not want to experience pain ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

The fact that I will no longer exist and instead there will be nothing. There will be no more pain, no more suffering. Everything will be gone and to me that is true peace. I believe death to be like how before I was born, time passed and yet I was not aware of anything.

 

[Al Cappella]

Not having to cut your toenails…

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Not being me.

 

[CrossroadsCurious]

The Empty = Eternal Sleep

 

[ornitier199]

Endless dreams. The only reality of my potential happiness. Or demise. Dreams have been off and on both lateky i dont know why.
Probably worse that i want to be hurt as its all i deserve stemming from past trauma

 

[Istanbulite]

Not having to cut your toenails…

that too

 

[derletzteweg]

I think the best will be to feel nothing. There will be no more criticism, no demands, just peace.. Sounds lovely

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

This entire horrible world will end along with you. 'Cause you will not be there to perceive it anymore on any level whether physical or metaphysical .Hence no pain,no sufferings,no more people and no more having to wake up when you don't want to.

 

[Chronic]

Pain relief

 

[ShellofmyFormerSelf]

I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of you, even though I don't know you. I'm scared of me. I'm scared of being outside. I'm scared of being indoors. I'm just scared and want to be free...
To answer the question better, freedom. I just want freedom. No more torture. No more fear.

 

[Nlis2244]

Not having to worry about anything

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

An end to pointless torment.

 

[September5th]

Not thinking about her or my past mistakes anymore. Not thinking about college, future or my mom's expectations either. Just nothing

 

[The Abyss]

Free of physical pain or not having to be autistic in a world moulded for neurotypicals I'd say.

 

[Area Man]

Won't have to lose anything else when you let it all go. Can't fall anymore when you're on the floor.

 

[EvilStepSister]

Not being teased by False Hope ever again

 

[Murasa]

No more stress
No more pain
No more sadness
No more guilt

 

[ornitier199]

Dreams have been vivid lately me. I've pondered if this is an even bigger sign ctb is coming closer.
been wishing a lot of these dreams wouldn't end. as waking up, I feel like a got snatched/pulled right out of it.

 

[Hirokami]

Getting rid of the racing and instrusive thoughts.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Not having to live with all the regrets and frustrations I suffer on a daily basis.

 

[Trueblue5]

Being at peace