For me (I hope and wish) there won't be any more 'lives' after the end of 'this one'. I only want non-existence. Eternal unconsciousness/unawareness and nothingness. Those who say that 'nothing' isn't possible it's because they want to 'think' that. If 'something' is possible, nothing is possible too. Just because the 'human brain' "cant imagine" what 'nothing' 'looks like' (it doesnt look like anything because it's not 'something', it's just nothing lol) doesn't mean nothingness isn't possible. All 'these' 'things' we 'perceive' are 'something' because 'we' 'know' they 'exist'/are 'there' because of the 5 senses that the 'human body' and 'brain' have. But once im gone I leave the body and the brain, i stop having consciousness about "reality" and "existence" and "things"/"places".
There are 'people' who 'say' that 'nothingness' "isn't" an option because 'nothing' isnt 'something' (of course nothing isnt 'something', nothing is nothing lol, literally that, just nothing. nothing cant be 'something' at all in absolutely any way.) and because 'nothing' isnt "measurable", of course it isnt 'measurable', nothing isnt any 'something', literally theres just nothing. It has to be 'material'/'physical' to be "measurable" and of course 'nothing' isnt measurable, nothing isnt 'something', nothing isn't 'material', its not 'something' and it cant be 'felt'/'seen'/'touched'. And of course to define the absolute 'nothingness,' it has to be given a 'name' to be able to refer to it. I cant imagine what 'nothing' 'is' because it isnt anything, there isnt anything to 'imagine', nothing is just that, nothing. There isnt any physical space, there arent any material 'things'. Its 'me' and all possible kinds of 'consciousness' ceasing to exist permanently/eternally. The 'brain' is the consciousness, once the 'brain' shuts down there isnt any more 'consciousness', everything ends there. 'people' say that there cant be nothingness because (well, ofc there isnt nothingness, nothing isnt anywhere and it is not anything. it just isnt) nothingness its 'unimaginable' and 'unmeasurable', well lol thats the point obviously it isnt imaginable because it isnt something only 'something', only 'something' physical, existent, and material can be 'something', imaginable, tangible, visible and measurable (or whatever the damn fck those 'words' mean lol) but nothing is nothing, nothing isnt something so of course it cant beimaginable. You cant imagine nothingness because it isnt at all. you only can imagine 'something' and nothing is literally nothing, it isnt any place nor thing nor space nor whatever. Nothing is just that, nothing, so obviously it cannot be imaginable. For us the nothingness its represented with the color black bc black means absence (absence of color. but its a proximate representation of nothingness bc nothingness is absence of everything/anything) but that doesnt mean anything, its just a 'human' representation of nothingness.
I want that, just nothingness. Not again another sort/type of 'life'/'consciousness' in another 'existence'/'planet' nor any other thing. And I DONT say I don't want any other 'life'/'existence'/'world'/'planet' (nor any other 'thing'/'type of thing') "because I want the pain to stop" (what pain lol im not in any pain about anything) "because I don't want to suffer anymore" (lol no, im not suffering at a about anything, have never suffered and never will) """because consciousness/existence/life means "suffering" and "pain" (no its not because of that neither lmao and i dont give a shit if it's "suffering" or "not suffering" or whatever tf that means lol) and I don't want to suffer""" (im not "suffering" at all) nor any other thing/reason like that/in general at all. No, Im not suffering, nothing "bad" happens to me/in 'my life' and nothing "bad" has ever happened. i 'have it all'. And? i don't care. i dont give a shit lol. Ill never understand why simply literally just not giving a shit about existence/'life'/'the world'/'planet earth', 'things' in general, whatever it is, and whatever other thing in general isn't possible and its seen as a "mental illness".
'My parents'/'my family' (or whatever the fuck 'parents', 'family' means) allow me to '"anything i want" and want 'happiness'/'health'/'enjoyment'/'joy'/'satisfaction'/'fullfilment' and other "positive" crap for 'me' and i couldn't care any fucking less. It's not "self hatred" "low self-esteem" nor any other shit like that lol I dont 'hate' 'myself' or whatever the fuck 'hate' means. I dont say that i dont want anything "bEcAuSe i dOnT dEsErVe iT" nor any other thing like that, so I clarify this in case someone makes assumptions. I just fucking dont. I neither "like"/"love" nor "dislike"/"hate" anyone nor anything. There's nothing that I want and I don't want to want anything. Why the fuck do "I" have to? Why is wanting/caring about/liking/being "interested" in/wanting to do etc things obligatory? What if i literally just dont and its not because of any fucking reason? i dont only not want any of these 'things' that 'I', 'you' and other 'human beings'/'living beings'/'people' (or whatever the fuck that is/means)
I simply just dont want existence I simply just don't want 'life' of any way, any type, no matter how the fuck it is. My life is 'good'/'great' and I don't give a shit lmao i couldnt care any less lol, what im supposed to do, be "grateful"? lmao and why do i have to be "grateful" about 'something'/'something' """positive"""/"""good""" yes or yes, if i literally just dont want anything and have no "interest" at all and couldn't give any less of a fuck that's it, i just dont and theres no reason at all, end of the fucking 'story'. I dont want any life of any type/way/kind. why the fuck do "I" have to, that will always be my question. I just dont care about life in general no matter what meaning 'I', 'you', and whatever 'person' in general, can give it. No matter what 'perception'/'interpretation'/'vision'/'conceptualization'/'definition' 'I' have/can have about 'life'/'existence'/'the world'/'planet earth' and everything/anything in general whatever/however it is. Im just not "interested" and dont want to and never will (the question is why the fuck do "I" yes or yes have to be/want to 'be' "interested" in 'life' in general uNleSs iTs 'bAd' {I couldnt care any fucking less if 'my life'/'life' in general is "bad" or "good" or "interesting" or "exciting" or "boring" or whatever other way/type. I dont give a shit. Its not like Im gonna be "worried" if 'life'/'human life' is "bad", "unfair", "difficult" or whatever other "negative" way. I dont give a shit about/don't want/have no "interest", no "desire" and never will about 'life' very generally regardless the way/type it is and what happens etc. Theres no 'life'/'type of life" that "I want to live and have"/"that I desire"/"that I dream about"/"that I wish"/"that I hope for" nor any other thing in general at all. I just don't and never will and I don't see what's the fucking problem.} and why the fuck the fuck do "I" have to yes or yes live/do/experience and want to "uNlEsS iTs 'bAd'/'a WaY tHaT i dOnT lIkE', uNlEsS iM sUfFeRiNg, uNlEsS ''mY lIfE iS 'bAd' aNd 'pAiNfUl''' or whatever other "reason" and other crap like that. Why the fuck do 'I' have to have a 'reason' for not wanting to live life (nor any other thing, it's not that "I don't want life but another thing yes" no, I don't give a shit about/don't want/don't want to "experience" nor "live" nor "do" nor "know about". I'm not suffering, my life isn't "bad" at all, I've never been "abused"/"bullied" nor any other "bad" thing and i couldn't give any less of a shit lol.
So well going back to the 'topic' of the 'thread' lol. For me theres only one 'life' existent and its 'life on Earth' or however the f*ck it is called lol (couldnt care less how it is called and how it is/how it can be/what happens/what can happen/what there is/what there can be/what it has/what it can have/what you can see|do|experience|know|learn about|achieve|have|'be' blah blah and whatever other crap lol). And i hope there wont be any more 'lives'/kinds of 'lives' nor literally any other type of thing in general, I literally just want nothingness. I simply just dont care about 'life' in general no matter how the f*ck it is, without referring to anything in particular/specific. Its NOT that "I don't want to live a certain/particular/specific type/kind/way of 'life'/ if 'life' is 'this way'/'like this'/if there is|it has this and this/ if this and this happens /if it's "about this or that"/if "it works this or that way" blah blah etcetc whatever, NO. I dont mean anything particular/specific/ if if it's this and this/if it's this and this way blah blah, no. i just simply dont want to 'live'/'experience'/'do'/'know'/'explore'/'enjoy'/'discover'/'learn about' 'life' (nor 'the world'/'planet earth' nor 'existence' nor any other thing of any type at all imaginable/unimaginable) IN GENERAL, in a very general reference, very very generally, no matter what/how/what way 'it is'/'it isnt'/'it can be' neither what happens/doesnt happen/can happen neither what "meaning"/"concept"/"perception"/"definition"/"perspective" 'it can have'/'I' can give to it, no matter what it is about no matter how it works, no matter what 'rules', 'norms' 'concepts', 'ideas' there are no matter what 'species' there are no matter what the fuck happens in 'place' called 'the world' (or anywhere else lol), 'planet earth' or whatever 'these' 'places' are called nor literally any other 'thing' 'place' in general at all if there are more LOL i hope not. No matter what there is/what there isnt / what there can be, no matter what 'things' there are, no matter what 'inventions' (or whatever tf an 'invention' is lol) there are, no matter what ''species'' 'i' 'dominant' and what 'species' 'exist'/there are in general in 'planet earth' 'the world' or whatever/any other 'space', 'place', 'world' 'planet'. No matter how 'i' can 'live' 'experience' 'life' 'my life' and no matter the 'type of life'/'way of life' 'i' can 'live'/ 'experience'/'have'/'do'. I JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN SHIT. i LITERALLY JUST DONT WANT TO LIVE LIFE IN GENERAL NOR ANY OTHER THING NO MATTER HOW/WHAT IT IS. with 'life' im not 'talking about' ''modernlife'' ''specifically'' or watever the fuck it is called. its not that ""I want to live/experience 'life' in general just not if it's the "life we're living|experiencing now"/"life today|nowadays"/"modern life"/"this 'standard of life'""" no lol. i dont want/dont have any 'interest' at all and dont give a shit about absolutely any 'life' of any 'type' 'kind' 'way' at all. ITS NOT THAT '''i DoNt lIkE mOdErN lifE lIfE iF ltS lIke ThIs iF tHiS aNd tHaT hApPeNs bUt lIfE IN gEnErAl anD iF iT wAsNt lIkE tHiS i WAnT tO lIvE/eXpErIeNcE iT aNd i WoUld lIke iT iT juST hAvE tO bE dIfFeReNt aNotHeR wAy'' no for fcks sake lol its not that i dont want any fucking 'life' of absolutely any fcking type and I couldnt give any less of a damn fck how the fck it is, I just simply generally dont care, never had cared and never will about 'life' in general. IN GENERAL as ''''a 'thing' '''human beings''' and other 'living beings'/'life forms' (although differently) 'do' and 'experience' during their 'journey''/path"/''passage'' through ''the world'' and ''planet earth'' and ''existence'' since 'they' were 'brought' to it until death (i hope eternal absolute/complete nothingness). i mean when saying i JUST SIMPLY DONT want to 'experience'/'do'/'live' 'life', in that very general/'objective' way, in a very generic/general way, not reffering to any 'kind of life' in particular.
Im not "suffering", nor "in pain" nor anything like that and have never suffered nor have never been abused nor bullied nor any other "bad" thing an 'my parents' are 'good'/'great' 'parents' (i put the 's because i couldn't care less and i dont give a shit about the 'meaning' of anything/whatever "positive" thing), and they 'love'/'want'/'appreciate'/'support'/'value' 'me' (or whatever those "positive" 'verbs' mean lol) and
'I' have a 'loving'/'supportive'/'caring'/'great' 'family'/'parents' (or whatever the fuck those ""positive"" 'words'/'adjectives', whatever the fuck those 'words' are, mean lol) and 'I' couldn't care any less. I dont give a shit. I dont "hate"/"dislike" 'them' at all, nor anyone/anything in general, and don't have anything against anything/anyone in general at all, I just dont care for fucks sake. 'My parents' give 'me' 'kisses' and 'hugs' and I couldn't care any less of a fuck lol. "YOuRe eMpTY aNd brOkeN aNd iTs fOr a rEaSoN" lol no im neither "empty" nor "broken" or whatever the fuck those 'adjectives' mean and it's not because of any fucking reason. "YoUrE sO cOldHeArtEd aNd cArEleSs aNd cRuEl", as if i gave a fucking shit 'who'/'how'/'what' 'I' 'am'/'I' 'am' 'not' lol. As if I gave a shit if 'Im' "cold-hearted", "careless", "cruel" or whatever orher """"""negative"""""" 'way'/'thing'/'personality'/'adjective'. And what if im "careless" or whatever the fck that means lol why the damn fck do I have to 'care' yes or yes about 'something'?
and? Why do i have to care? I "have it all", a 'shelter'/'place to live in'/'house', food, 'comfort', 'place to sleep', clothes, 'good health', 'healthy body', 'healthy brain', 'loving'/'supportive'/'good'/'great' 'parents' blah blah and many other ""positive""/""good"" 'things' and I couldnt give any fucking less of a fuck lol.
I simply just don't want to have any passage through not only "the World"/"planet Earth"/"life"/"human life" or whatever all 'this' that I was forcedly/inevitably taken into without my consent is. What if I simply just don't want to exist at all, as anything/'anyone'? (and I wouldn't give a shit if that was the case, I don't understand why do "I" have to want to live/do/experience etc 'life' and be part of it and 'explore'/'know'/'see'/'experience' 'the world' and 'planet earth' or whatever all this is that I was forcedky brought to against my will is. I just don't care. I'll never understand why is this (or whatever other thing it could've been, if lets say, this was 'another thing' or 'we' were very different 'species'/'life forms' or another 'thing' or whatever or 'we' were 'brought' to another/a different 'life'/'world'/'planet'/'existence'/'space'/'place'/'universe'/'galaxy' or whatever other 'thing' lol) an obligation. Why pro-lifers, why make this obligatory, i just cant comprehend. 'I' was 'born'/'came' 'here'/'was' 'brought' 'here' against my will, without my consent and forced, because two human bodies/'people'/'human beings' wanted/decided to bring another 'human body'/'human being' 'here' to 'life'/'planet earth'/'existence'/'the world' or whatever all 'this' 'is' (I don't want/donte care about and never will neither any of 'this' no matter what/how it is regardless the 'way'/'type' of 'thing'/'place' it is/it can be, nor literally any other 'thing'/'type of thing' at all in general whatever/however it is) but, what if i literally just don't want to? Why just because 'you' care/want to has to mean i care and want too? I just dont. Again there is no 'reason' at all behind it. I just don't.
I really hope there's absolutely NOTHING after death. I hope I literally disappear from general existence and become nothing forever, not only "my perception of existence", I mean existence in general. I just don't want to be anything nor 'anyone'. I don't want to be anywhere, I don't want to 'be' any type of 'life form', I don't want to 'be' any 'living being', any 'creature'/'individual', any 'something'/'someone'. Just literally nothing, eternally. Eternal oblivion. Eternal nothingness. Eternal non-existence.
I don't want any other 'life' NOR any other type of 'consciousness'/'existence' after I'm finally gone. I just want to literally not exist at all. Nothing. That's what I want. "I" don't want to 'be', 'become', 'exist as' ANYTHING AT ALL, whether it's imaginable or unimaginable, describable or undescribable. I really hope there's nothingness after what we called death, I really hope it's the end and that "I" won't 'become'/'be' 'something' ever again and that I won't be brought to any other 'place' nor type of 'consciouness'/'existence' or whatever. I ONLY want to finally just literally disappear forever/permanently and not become any other 'thing'/'being', any other 'entity'. Just literally nothing. and there will be people who say weLl nOtHinG dOeSnT eXiSt, nOtHinG iSnT a ThInG bY dEfInItIoN, well of course it isnt a thing lmao. Nothing is not a 'thing', it's not any kind of 'something', you don't have to try to imagine it because it is unimaginable, undescribable, it just doesn't exist, it isnt anything at all.
Of course nothing doesn't exist, thats the point of NOTHINGNESS. It isnt anything, it's not a 'thing', it cant be visible/tangible, nothing is the opposite of something so of course it doesn't exist, nothing is nothing, literally that, just nothing and you wont see it nor feel it nor touch it nor whats beyond of the 5 senses "human bodies" have because it just isnt anything. It isnt. Just because 'we' only have access to 'something', to existent 'things', doesn't mean that there can't be just nothing after i finally die and cease to exist eternally. just because nothing can't be imaginable/measurable/tangible/visible doesn't mean that there cant just be nothing. If 'nothing' is a human concept then those who claim that there's consciousness after this one is also just a concept too, and an "afterlife"/"reincarnation" is just a concept too. 'Nothing' is just a word just like something is, just because there is a made il word for that to be able to say that that's what I want when i die, it doesn't mean that it's something that exists, of course it doesnt exist lol why would nothing be 'existent'/'something'/a 'thing'? If it was existent it would already be something then why call it nothing if its something. Nothing is not any something. It just isnt. There isnt anything, any type of thing not even beyond our 'imagination'. "NoTHiNg iSnT sOmEtHinG, eVeRtyThiNg sTarTs fRoM sOmeThIng, nOtHinG cAnT bE bEfOre a bEgInNinG oF sOmEthIng, tHaTs wHy NotHiNgNeSs iSnT a PoSsIbIlItY, bEcAuSe iT dOeSnT eXIsT aNd sOmEtHinG hAs tO fOlLoW aNoThEr tHiNg." Well, saying that there has to be something before something is just an opinion, it's just an assumption, why there has to be something before something. not because 'this' 'is' and is 'something', because 'we' 'know' it's 'something' because of the 'brain'/'awareness'/'consciousness' or whatever the fuck that crap shit is, doesnt mean that there has to be another 'something' afterwards. and of course it's not that "death happens after death", if it 'happens' it would already be something, nothing isnt any anything, it doesnt happen, it's not that it "converts" into 'nothing', if it converts it would already be 'something', nothing is just nothing. there isn't anything ,there isnt anything that 'happens', it is not describable neither imaginable. because nothing doesnt exist.
of course nothing doesnt exist, it isnt anything, there isnt anything, theres no "matter"/"energy" at all and there isnt any type of consciousness, its just nothing, neither an "empty space" nor "darkness", NOTHING. nothing isnt anything, it just isn't.
nothing is absolutely anything at all, there isnt anything, there's no type at all of 'space', nothingness is not an "empty space", that would already be 'something', an empty space has to exist for it to be an empty space because even if it's "empty", it is already occupying an space, also nothingness isn't "darkness", that would also be something too. Nothing just isn't. It doesn't exist in any form possible. And obviously you cant imagine nothingness because nothingness doesn't exist, you can only imagine things that exist. It's obvious that 'nothing' isn't existent, nothing isn't any 'something', it isn't any 'thing'. Nothing isn't. Well thats what i hope death is. Nothing at all. This is just what i wish and hope death is, non-existence. Eternal absolutely oblivion and just nothingness. I want to disappear for all eternity in every way possible, i truly hope that there won't be 'something' after this 'something' and that consciousness won't continue in some other form because that'd be an absolute fucking garbage. i literally just don't want to exist at all, in any 'form'/'way'/'type'. obviously you all dont have to agree that this is a "fact"/the "truth" because it's just what I HOPE AND WISH death is. it's just my opinion