When I CTBed for the first time, I thought I was really going to die for real. I was experiencing a lot of pain and had multiple seizures as the doctors treated my sleeping pill overdose. I *guess* you could consider that to be an NDE? Although I vowed that I would stay alive and live long enough to see all of my dreams come true, sadly, I'm gonna have to break that vow for the sake of everyone. All I do is cause pain and agony towards everyone around me. Just because I didn't commit any crimes, that doesn't mean I am not a nuisance. I am, in fact, an utter nuisance. So I deserve to die.
This time around, I'll fix that mistake by ensuring that I actually die for real. I am not bound for this world. My inception was a mistake. Mistakes are meant to be rectified.