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rozeske
Maybe I am the problem
- Dec 2, 2023
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Are there things that you would have wished to do or see before you leave this life, things that are not enough to keep you from leaving but things you regret not to have experienced?
What about you ?Are there things that you would have wished to do or see before you leave this life, things that are not enough to keep you from leaving but things you regret not to have experienced?
I was avoiding having to say on the top of the very long list comes experiencing independence, experiencing love and relationship (with all it brings with it) and being a mother, although probably wouldn't have been the best idea given my upbringing and my current mental state.I'd like to have been in love (I think,) although maybe not if it would have ended in heartbreak. That's the main one. But yeah- I've probably got too much of a fairytale idea of it. Plus, it can't be good to still feel suicidal even with a partner. I really want less ties to this earth rather than more. What about you @rozeske ? Any regrets or missed opportunities?
Having a child with the love of my life before she died. Maybe the child would keep me from leaving. I would have a living part of her to look after. But on the other hand they wouldn't have a happy life losing their mom so young. So maybe it's best that I'll never know what it's like to be a father.Are there things that you would have wished to do or see before you leave this life, things that are not enough to keep you from leaving but things you regret not to have experienced?
I was avoiding having to say on the top of the very long list comes experiencing independence, experiencing love and relationship (with all it brings with it) and being a mother, although probably wouldn't have been the best idea given my upbringing and my current mental state.
That is the exact strategy I use to sooth my mind!Oh, sorry- I've wormed it out of you... I try to comfort myself by telling myself they aren't genuine regrets. They are based on fairytale ideas that likely wouldn't work for me in real life. In fact, I could have ended up in a worse state! Sometimes that helps. Like an auto correct type thing.
No, it's all meaningless at this pointAre there things that you would have wished to do or see before you leave this life, things that are not enough to keep you from leaving but things you regret not to have experienced?