Discussion What do you intend on writing in your suicide note?

[VegasLyra]

Personally I'm starting it with "This has been set in motion for a very, very long time" because it's true. Ever since 8 years ago no path ending in anything other than me CTBing was possible.

What about you guys? What do you intend on writing in your note, if you're leaving any?

 

[IwantSN]

I don't think I'll leave one ,but if I did I'd probably try to explain why I decided to end my life and that it wasn't really anyone's fault but maybe mine and that there's nothing anyone could have done to make me not kill myself.

 

[ohsosleepy]

I think about this a lot, because what are you even supposed to write in a suicide note? I guess there's no wrong answer.

I'll probably end up leaving one, I would feel too bad about leaving my family in the dark, even though they could probably figure it out (not the first time).

Probably just explain my reasoning and reassurance that they shouldn't feel any guilt, because there's nothing that could be done about it. Though I'm really bad at dealing with heavy topics, so last notes were also full of love and appreciation, haha

 

[l1ablemistakes]

I've written some of mine. A lot of apologising and thanking people for being there for me, telling them how much I love them and how I know I'm loved. The take home message is you couldn't have stopped me; my life is fine, perfect even, I'm just too weak and ungrateful to handle it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd write one to explain that ceasing to exist is my way of finding peace from the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing, in this existence so torturous and terrible that just causes harm and suffering non-existence is just all that's positive to me, existence truly is a mistake that never should had been imposed.

I'd just always prefer the true permanent peace of non-existence over the torture of this dreadful existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and for me every second is torture to be conscious, I just want to erase this existence, for me ceasing to exist solves everything and is suffering prevention, I find it horrific how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the extreme unbearable agony of old age.

 

[violetforever]

i dont want to write one. wont my family find my acc on this forum anyway? everything ive said on here will explain.

 

[metfan647]

'Tamam shud'.

 

[SoLowHollow48]

Warm and nostalgic letters filled with love an forgiveness personalized for those whom I love and only they get to have those letters. I feel like I should credit those who have been so good to me all my life.

Truly, it's not their fault (they'll still think that), and it's been planned for so long.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i will write that i am sorry and that its not their fault, and that i love them. for each person i will tell them how much they mean to me and what they meant to me. that there was nothing they could have done to stop it and that them being in my life only made it better. and to all support and care for each other and be good to each other.

 

[dontwakemeup]

My 1st 2 attempts I wrote everyone letters. My most important message was there wasn't anything you could have done to stop me. I never want people to feel guilty or think they should've done more. My last attempt, I was falling asleep fast so I did a video message for everyone and focused on my best memories of them and how thankful I was that they helped me through this life.

I had a co worker who son left a note and died at home. The police finally called the mother weeks later to come pick up the note. Surprisingly, she said she would never go get it because she wanted to remember him the way he was. I thought it was rude, but not my decision.