I don't think I hope for anything in particular. Every now and then I check in on what physicists are figuring out about cosmology and such, as much as I can follow about what the hell this universe is. I've run down the philosophical rabbit holes so many times that I'm not too stressed about after death possibilities, whether I can conceive of them or not.
Either nothing happens, which would just be what it is. If that's like whatever state I was in before existing, well I don't really think that "felt" like anything at all, you know, being nothing and all that lol.
But if something happens, whatever that is, then either I do or don't have a recollections living this life. If I do exist again and remember this life, even if the universe fucks around and exists as something completely different than what it's doing right now with stars, planets, time dilation, and jumping spiders, I figure I'll just try to deal with whatever existence is doing.
And that's not all too different than what we're doing here anyway. We suddenly exist, try to deal with it the best that we can, either like existing, don't like it at all, or something nuanced in-between. If I exist again and have no recollection of what happened before I existed, well that's precisely what I've been doing here all along anyway.
If I had to say one thing I would wish for, is that if I exist in a place that allows for suffering in life, like this world, I would hope to exist by accident if I did exist. Thinking about what happens to people here, I wouldn't choose to bring a life into existence here, not under these circumstances humans have been dealing with.
In a science-fictiony scenario, I think about life occurring in some primordial ooze like the ocean, but biological evolutionary processes are hyper-accelerated. Molecules and stuff fo their thing in the ooze and very rapidly an organism climbs out of the ooze, let's just say it's human-like for ease of visualization.
It wasn't born from any parents, any organisms that reasoned about their existence and what it's like to exist, and decided "yes, let's make a new life partake in this!". No this organism just happens to exist by chance.
Assuming organisms happen like this somewhat frequently in this universe, sure it might be discomforting to exist "without reason" at least in the sense that I wasn't "intentionally created." But in some perspectives that people have in this life, that's already kind of what this life feels like anyway.
But even if we exist without reason, if I find other organisms around me who are just as confused, maybe we could still reason in spite of it all, it's still good for us to try to have a good time if we can. Maybe make a fire and cook some fish after climbing out of the ooze.
Lol, very sorry about all this rambling. Take care! :)
