HopefulSleep
Wants to sleep
- Apr 24, 2023
- 888
I hope for anything that doesn't feel like being a human, I hate how the shitty human brain works, it searches for pleasure all the time but is too dumb to produce it out of nothing and when it gets hurt it makes everything worse instead of adapting.
Also nothing makes sense as a dumb human, I don't get it how others can be happy without a point in life, they have a partner and children but I don't see the sense of it, it has no point, I don't fit into this system.
As a child it was kinda fun at least playing games but as an adult you are more intelligent which is worse.
Even without trauma life has no meaning as a human.
I want to be something different after death that makes sense and isn't a dumb human that has no meaning and can feel so much unnecessary emotions.
I would prefer nothingness over being a human but this is not my preferred outcome.
It would also be ok to be a child for eternity, my brain kind of worked back then before getting abused, I was anti social but at least playing games made fun and I had no insomnia or depression.
Reincarnation would be the worst, I am afraid that I will get born in a third world country and tortured or being an animal which is experimented on.
That is why death is my only hope, the human brain is flawed and there is a chance that I will experience something better after death except you will get reincarnated as a human every time this would really be torture then.
I want to be something happy that works, I hate it so much to be a human adult.
Also nothing makes sense as a dumb human, I don't get it how others can be happy without a point in life, they have a partner and children but I don't see the sense of it, it has no point, I don't fit into this system.
As a child it was kinda fun at least playing games but as an adult you are more intelligent which is worse.
Even without trauma life has no meaning as a human.
I want to be something different after death that makes sense and isn't a dumb human that has no meaning and can feel so much unnecessary emotions.
I would prefer nothingness over being a human but this is not my preferred outcome.
It would also be ok to be a child for eternity, my brain kind of worked back then before getting abused, I was anti social but at least playing games made fun and I had no insomnia or depression.
Reincarnation would be the worst, I am afraid that I will get born in a third world country and tortured or being an animal which is experimented on.
That is why death is my only hope, the human brain is flawed and there is a chance that I will experience something better after death except you will get reincarnated as a human every time this would really be torture then.
I want to be something happy that works, I hate it so much to be a human adult.