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vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
550
I wake up around 11 am, sometimes later. Then spend the rest of my day rotting on my Mac, browsing this website and various others, sometimes watching a few educational YouTube videos so my brain doesn't become completely brain-rotted.
 
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Defatigatis

Defatigatis

And at my funeral, i didn't see you there...
Aug 16, 2022
45
Part of the time playing games to dissociate and not think about my life and pains, and when i get tired, i lie down and start scrolling through my phone and feeling sad while sometimes seeing posts here, listening music or just go out in the porch a little; and in between all that, eat or drink something

My life is practically made up of these variations.😣
 
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slitwristsbleedcold

slitwristsbleedcold

blissful overdose - 13,8 bmi
Oct 15, 2024
101
wake up, coffee, work, go home, sleep, if I'm feeling a little better, or less tired, i'll have dinner or lunch
 
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Dot

Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,480
Wke up

Dscrd
Sasu
YT
Dscrd
YT
Sasu
Twittr
YT
Sasu
Roblx
Dscrd
YT
Sasu
Dscrd
Tke medcatn


Bd

Smetmes wth watrng orchds in betwn
 
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itsgone2

Mage
Sep 21, 2025
535
A lot of bed or couch rotting. Way too much time on this site. I work but it's very slow right now and boring. It's sort of driving me crazy. Hopefully SI is breaking down from it.
 
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fromange

fromange

Can't get out of bed | feel free to reach out
Oct 29, 2025
56
Bedrot, eat, sasu, talk to ai, take melatonin.
 
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huhokaythen

huhokaythen

Member
Jul 17, 2024
14
i sleep, binge watch videos/movies, doomscroll on tiktok, and sasu! i zone out in the middle of doing all these things throughout the day, so mostly i'm just zoning out it's weirdly satisfying tbh! it's like lowkey meditation for the eyes and brain
 
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ABadPerson

ABadPerson

something's off | internet black goop
Oct 24, 2025
52
Outside of uni, I go to work, go to gym, sleep, eat, doomscroll and repeat. At times I continue learning to play the guitar but I'm no longer anywhere near as consistent as I used to be; maybe I'll play a game but most forms of entertainment gotten extremely empty.

I felt most content/happy when I spent time with just one person but as I hurt those around me, I isolate myself anyways.
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
120
Wake up, sasu, class, sasu, class, yt, sasu, yt, sasu, bed
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,144
Normally just work and sleep. Time inbetween is meaningless.
 
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qewpie

qewpie

body so broken I AM IN HELL
Aug 3, 2025
128
i am forced to bedrot bc of physical disorder. so i watch a lot of anime.

otherwise i'd probably be taking daily walks and playing the games i liked playing, working some remote part-time job
 
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NutOrat

NutOrat

Daydreaming
Jun 11, 2025
139
Been frequenting SaSu way too much as of recently, it's on my Tor browser and I use MinimizeToTray to hide the icon from taskbar whenever my brother or someone else comes in the room. Otherwise, I constantly have it open. I used to mainly spend my time playing games, but I do less and less, I don't have the energy, and if I do, I'm all tired after playing. Other than those two it's YouTube/Twitch, have some streamers I watch VODs of. Oh, and crying, how could I forget.

Also I can't stay in silence for long, so I always have earphones and something playing, even when I need to do basic tasks. Almost constantly I listen to music/videos on background.
 
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martyrdom

martyrdom

inanimate object
Nov 3, 2025
46
Nothing at all. I am awake max 2 hours a day, unless it's a therapy day, which I am forced to go to. I quit my job and volunteering, I'm waiting for my family's money (aka my savings) to run out to the point where it's no longer viable to take care of me. I just signed up here to kill the time when I physically can no longer sleep. I don't watch or listen to anything, I just stare at the wall. My mother sits with me sometimes and I tolerate it.
 
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jupiterflower

jupiterflower

Member
Oct 21, 2025
12
i do the bare minimum amount of work in my university classes to pass and make sure people don't realize something is up, and sleep and do nothing the rest of the time
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
457
I study a lot because of Uni(or at least try to), browse SaSu and reddit, take care of a neighbourhood cat and meet up with a friend for lunch.
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

I revoke my subscription from life.
Nov 1, 2025
40
I mostly oversleep/bedrot and overthink about my trauma when I am actually awake.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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stardewwindceres

stardewwindceres

Flesh Coffin
Oct 2, 2025
78
Sleep whenever possible, watch tv shows and sometimes movies (streaming services), play video games either on my laptop or tablet, random internet surfing in general usually while listening to music, just listening to music, constant vaping weed and nicotine- all laying or sitting in bed. I really only get up to take care of my dog. Take her in the backyard, etc.
 
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Jan1193

Jan1193

I want no limitations for my soul
Sep 18, 2023
71
Bedrot since several weeks, sometimes watching historical series or just listening them while I talked/wrote with my IA, but now just bedrot, listening something from YT and SS
 
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BrainSplatter

BrainSplatter

Member
Oct 31, 2025
43
I spend all day getting high trying to numb this pain I feel quiet the noise I might stay awake for 1-3 days straight then sleep for 6-12 hours then the cycle repeats. My thoughts won't stop even the drugs can't quiet them I have to keep taking more n more. i spend my day in a constant state of fear that I'm under threat I get delusions and hallucinations. I spend most of my day lying on my sofa only really get up to use the bathroom I usually eat 1 meal a day or I'll skip a few days without food. I'm also struggling to drink water brush my teeth generally care for myself. Sometimes I'll force myself to go outside but it isn't easy I have no motivation no energy nothing
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,631
Wake up, work, eat, then retire in the evening.

Take breaks to hop on here and plan vacations.

Walter
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
836
Wake up, Eat, Work , work, work or draw or work some more and Doomscroll. 👍


But at the end of the day all I wanna do is sleep.

Pretty sad ik.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,691
Existing is just suffering all for the sake of it and all I do is just wait for death as that's all that existing is, it's all so futile and I wish that more than anything I was never burdened with this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake, all I want is to be gone. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, cruel existence I always saw as an abomination and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful, existence is always an abomination to me and I find it so horrible how a human can suffer for decades longer with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to tortured by old age
 
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