What do you guys do all day?

[FTL.Wanderer]

Sleep, play games, learn stuff for university exams, substance abuse, contemplate my life & how it should end, sleep, repeat

Hi, I hope you won't mind a question. I've used sugar since college to cope. I've not been successful (coping), but it takes the edge off the worst of the pain for a few moments. Do you find whatever you use to be effective at stopping the pain?

 

[FlowerWithDeadEyes]

I didn't find your post long at all. It sustains me to read these posts--so thank you... Isn't it funny how people are happy to assume we're OK so long as we act the part, but as soon as our facade cracks, instead of authentic concern (and putting in the work to connect to us), they start reviewing their script: "You should go see a therapist"?

Thank you. You couldn't be more right. And sadly I've listened to people in the past, people I thought I could trust. And as always everyone one I love disappointed me. Like you said, Instead of "putting in the work to connect to us." They were quick so say that " it'll pass", "Maybe you should go and see a therapist", "Your just sad, people have it worse out there", "You just need a good friend to talk too" and my all time favorite "If your really that worried then go and find some help". Haha I'm SO over confiding in people who just Don't Get It! Like Thank God I found this site because for once in my life I feel like truly not alone.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

And as always everyone one I love disappointed me. ... Haha I'm SO over confiding in people who just Don't Get It! Like Thank God I found this site because for once in my life I feel like truly not alone.

Absolutely! I had a therapist once tell me the #1 reason people get into therapy is ... relationships with other people (friendships, romances, family...). But they seem not to connect the dots: "as always everyone I love disappointed me." Yeah, like you said, I won't confide in others around me. It can turn real ugly real fast. This is the only space where I'm honest with others--and so glad others do the same.

 

[FlowerWithDeadEyes]

Absolutely! I had a therapist once tell me the #1 reason people get into therapy is ... relationships with other people (friendships, romances, family...). But they seem not to connect the dots: "as always everyone I love disappointed me." Yeah, like you said, I won't confide in others around me. It can turn real ugly real fast. This is the only space where I'm honest with others--and so glad others do the same.

Wow, Fuck Therapists. In the entire time i've been seeing her. She nerve once asked me (besides when I started) If i'm suicidal. I'm really glad we all found this safe place to express our inner most thoughts.

 

[caffeine]

Nothing at all, really. There isn't anything that brings me joy anymore and I have very little energy to spend. My average day consists of lying around contemplating dying while doing my best to avoid my family who likely resent me for quitting my job and moving back in with them.

 

[Life sucks]

I want to do many things but I do nothing.
I need to ctb

 

[Karlala]

I lay here all and think of dying, then I work at night only to return to a empty house full of memories I dont want.

 

[Kogoruhn]

Have any interesting dreams lately?

Not lately, although i wish i could stay with most dreams instead of waking up

 

[Suicida]

Nothing. Nothing at all.
I wake up and then I try my best to sleep again.
After failing to sleep again I go to my shitty notebook and read and watch a bunch of shit for the rest of the "day".
And that's it...

 

[Suicida]

I lay here all and think of dying, then I work at night only to return to a empty house full of memories I dont want.

Memories about an ex?

 

[Tiburcio]

I try to go out whenever I can. At home I have no mood for doing anything. But in some weeks I will return to the routine and I will be timeless again.

 

[daemonblight]

I watch Real Housewives, play Final Fantasy XIII and binge-eat.
Used to watch porn, but can't anymore due to jealousy.

 

[watchtthethrone]

Nothing

 

[burrito]

Nothing. Nothing at all.
I wake up and then I try my best to sleep again.
After failing to sleep again I go to my shitty notebook and read and watch a bunch of shit for the rest of the "day".
And that's it...

What do you write in your notebook?

 

[Suicida]

What do you write in your notebook?

Oh, I just realized that I made a mistake.
It's a laptop, not a notebook. In my country people wrongly call laptops as notebook.

 

[Midnight]

Work,sleep,pretend to be "normal/happy" on occasion, drive arround at night, hookers, work on cars.

 

[dwimplepeen213]

Walk around the town at night, listen to music or just zone out and browse the internet. A whole lot of nothing.

Same exactly

 

[CatLove56]

It's pathetic, but since it's the holidays now, all I do is surf the internet lying on my bed with the curtains drawn. I don't have the energy to even get up but my parents force me to "do something" with my life haha

lol same bro i can't blame them for being worried because once they're gone, what will I do? Kill myself is the likely option.

 

[|||||||]

I work most of the time but off for the summer. Other than that, I fill up my time with a whole ton of video games. It's the best of distractions for me. Sometimes I try to do something creative, mostly writing. Maybe one of these days I'll actually try for real before it's time to go.

 

[Karlala]

Memories about an ex?

Yes

 

[Suicida]

Yes

Worst shit ever. Sleeping in a bed where memories haunt you.

 

[Karlala]

Worst shit ever. Sleeping in a bed where memories haunt you.

I know everything in our home we did together

 

[Strumgewehr]

I work all day, Go home, cook occasionally read. For the past two years I was on a "book high." All I did was read in between work and home. But as my depression kept growing I stopped doing everything I like. I barely cook anymore, I don't even read, I don't play video games, I only listen to heavy metal and Indie music, I hate being outside. I hate being around people. I hate being around kids. And when I'm at work. I'm the sweetest most happiest person. And the few times when I can't hide my feelings my co-workers look at me like I should be admitted. I've been going to theraphy for almost two years now. And I've tried everything to feel better. I came to the realization that nothing I do will ever change how I feel. And I've been fighting this war for far too long. The only time i'm not stressed out is when I'm
planing for the end. (Sorry for the long story.)

Bet you listen to doom Metal. If not, try Forest of shadows-Where dreams turn to dust album, or Mournful congregation- Book of the kings.

 

[PhilistineEars]

Working, ironically, in Health & Safety, come home to an empty apartment, and do it all again. Have my daughter every other week (wife finally couldn't handle my cloud anymore so left-can't blame her).

Putting together my gulps machine and once the house is sold and all debts paid, I'm done. I made 142,000 last year; only thing I could do to make up for all my other crap. But it could've been 142 million and wouldn't have made a difference. I simply cannot understand why people don't understand that it's not how much money a person makes, I could win the lottery and I'd still feel this way. I have for 10+ years now, not going to change.

 

[Nihilistnow]

School's out so I just watch the World Cup and sleep all day

 

[typx]

Working, ironically, in Health & Safety, come home to an empty apartment, and do it all again. Have my daughter every other week (wife finally couldn't handle my cloud anymore so left-can't blame her).

Putting together my gulps machine and once the house is sold and all debts paid, I'm done. I made 142,000 last year; only thing I could do to make up for all my other crap. But it could've been 142 million and wouldn't have made a difference. I simply cannot understand why people don't understand that it's not how much money a person makes, I could win the lottery and I'd still feel this way. I have for 10+ years now, not going to change.

I feel you man.

 

[LayNrot]

I'm not employed (haven't been for a long time) and dropped out of school a long time ago, so just leech off my parents & rot in my bed all day. Surfing the internet, beating off, or playing video games here and there.

 

[soundwave]

Bet you listen to doom Metal. If not, try Forest of shadows-Where dreams turn to dust album, or Mournful congregation- Book of the kings.

Awesome recommendations. I have never listened to doom metal before ( I mostly listen to power, thrash, classic, death and prog metal ) and I absolutely loved those albums, especially the first one. Can you recommend some more ?

 

[MortDeVivre]

I'm not employed (haven't been for a long time) and dropped out of school a long time ago, so just leech off my parents & rot in my bed all day. Surfing the internet, beating off, or playing video games here and there.

Hard same. But there's a heat wave here so I don't want to use my computer, which means I'm stuck with my phone. And I can't do my exercises either because of the heat; I hate it. Video games have become nothing but a distraction, but it's the only thing I come close to enjoying. As for my bodily needs, the antidepressants took away pretty much all the goodness that used to come from satisfying them, so it's almost not worth doing at this point.

 

[Aaron]

Play Old School RuneScape