Venting What do you do when nothing makes sense, and it hasnt for a long time, and now youre finally drifing into a gray void disconnected from reality

[wasteandvoid]

I dont know what anything is anymore or how to think about anything what to think about anything


That semblance of sanity that i hung onto to figure things out is fading i have nothing now


Im gonna become just another completley mindless person that absorbs the trash that comes thier way


I dont care about life at all, all events are basically nothing to me


Everything I see is fucking ugly


So fucking ugly


I reject this garbage


God is an ugly person



Everything is just the same worthless garbage over and over again

Good feeling and bad feeling, humans make the same shit, live the same lives over and over

All for absolutley nothing and then to be forgotten

And even then "gaining" something cant even happen


Were just locked in torture playing these stupid games with people until we die, appeasing our minds desires and cravings


DOES ANYONE REALIZE THIS AND THINK ABOUT IT HONESTLY

I HAVENT MET ANYONE WHO DOESNT EITHER TRY TO FORGET ABOUT IT WITH RELIGION OR DOESNT THINK ABOUT IT AT ALL

IM TORTURED BY THIS EVERY FUCKING DAY, THAT THE GAME ISNT REAL

Theres no magic to life at all, were just the same noisey patterns controlled by physical forces as something more simple

Theres no point, even the most sigificant events in life mean NOTHING


After you grow to a certain point of understanding the world, the illusion is gone, and it can be seen as completley false and that happens so early on in life

What on earth do you DO?! When the game is already completley played?!? Whats left!?!? I DONT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING, BECAUSE THERES NOTHING TO GROW INTO ANYMORE


I CANT FIND A SINGLE CONCEPT I HAVENT RUN INTO ANYMORE ITS SO FUCKING DRY AND PLAIN EVERYWHERE



I just want to end it because everywhere i fucking see is nothing




Ive seen it all nothing suprises me