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Rabbit&Blackberry

Rabbit&Blackberry

Member
Apr 9, 2025
20
Sometimes I hold my own hand to sleep. Wondering what you all might do.
 
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Vlad Tepes

Vlad Tepes

Experienced
Jun 24, 2025
265
Get lost in my daydreams and fantasies for hours at a time because just having to confront my bleak reality is enough to shatter me emotionally
 
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farewell_to_my_mask

farewell_to_my_mask

Member
Jun 26, 2025
21
I daydream a lot. And go about my day imagining that I'm interacting/talking to fictional characters.
 
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kitkat9234

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
477
Doom scroll on here, FB, Instagram etc. to escape. Sometimes drink but I can't really because of my meds. I used to smoke weed all the time but led to nervous breakdown. Been off the other stuff for a while.
 
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Fall_Apart

Fall_Apart

Student
May 22, 2023
160
In the past, I suffered greatly from loneliness, but now I want to be alone. I practice self-isolation, and when someone wants to approach me, I simply disappear. At this point, I no longer feel like interacting with people; I have nothing to share. All I need is to mentally focus on dealing with my departure.
 
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Unseelie

Unseelie

Member
Mar 31, 2025
81
I tend to watch x-files, and pretend I'm on a case wild Mulder and Scully :3
 
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Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

"This place made me feel worthless"
Jun 12, 2024
652
I internalize the person I'm attached to most and talk to them in my head all day. If I don't have anyone real I'm attached to, I use a fictional character.
 
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Unseelie

Unseelie

Member
Mar 31, 2025
81
I internalize the person I'm attached to most and talk to them in my head all day. If I don't have anyone real I'm attached to, I use a fictional character.
Who's the character you've talked to most?
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Paragon
May 28, 2024
942
Communism.

Lol, just kidding. I'm a huge fan of chant, ambient music, spirituals, etc. Just a reminder that someone, somewhere, is looking up at the same sky as me and wondering about me...and they don't even know it.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,509
listen to music
mostly Melodic Chill radio on You Tube
as a child, I always talked to my dead animals
they were always with me
I never had human friends
unfortunately, as an adult, I lost this ability
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
Oversleep and hug my pillow
 
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quietwoods

quietwoods

Easypeazylemonsqueezy
May 21, 2025
507
Watch my favorite movies. Remember the beautiful moments I've had in life. Screaming into the howling fury of Mother Nature while in a blizzard on the Appalachian Trail, that I am still alive and a human.

Remind myself that tons of other people are lonely. I am not alone in that regard.

Daydreaming which seems to be a common one. About the person I was supposed to be born as. She's pretty. Has a wonderful personality. Tough and optimistic. Beautiful family. Makes the world a better place while she's there.
 
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Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

"This place made me feel worthless"
Jun 12, 2024
652
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Who's the character you've talked to most?
This is going to sound strange, but...I have talked a lot to the T-800/Arnold Schwarzenegger in Terminator 2: Judgement Day. It feels good to talk to him because I like to explain myself and he is always interested to learn more in the movie, don't you think?
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,853
I don't. There is no soothing. I just sit alone and devolve in my loneliness.
 
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Unseelie

Unseelie

Member
Mar 31, 2025
81
T

This is going to sound strange, but...I have talked a lot to the T-800/Arnold Schwarzenegger in Terminator 2: Judgement Day. It feels good to talk to him because I like to explain myself and he is always interested to learn more in the movie, don't you think?
I think he sounds like the perfect listener : )
 
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Green_leaf

Member
Nov 5, 2022
90
Communism.
This just made my day :pfff:

If something so inherently capitalistic such as a competition for the best answer in this thread was made, yours would definitely win.
 
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Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Paragon
Sep 21, 2022
966
I just distract myself nowadays to take my mind of it or sleep.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,326
Distraccions: work. Work some more. Draw sometimes or here or yt.

I moslty work
 
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tookalongvacation

Member
Jul 17, 2025
25
Sometimes I hold my own hand to sleep. Wondering what you all might do.
Doom scroll and drink. Trying to stop the drinking though, the day after isn't worth it lol.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,489
To be honest, I'm lucky that I don't feel lonely that much. I do do the same though OP- hold my own hand sometimes and I always cuddle my pillow.

Mostly though, I just have sound on in the background- music, films, podcasts. Certain films/ series especially comfort me.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,241
spending 90% of my time on screens (which is not a good idea of course)
 
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jan28

jan28

Member
Aug 11, 2023
25
I know its only a temporary treatment but when im at my absolute worst, I'll listen to audio of someone sleeping so I can pretend I'm beside somebody at night. For a little while, it does help calm me down, as pathetic as that is.
 
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badatparties

badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
Nothing. I'm just real good at suffering.
 
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Kanoh

Student
Dec 31, 2024
116
I play computer games while listening to youtube videos. It actually helps me.
 
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deletednumber

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,603
Sometimes I hold my own hand to sleep.
I just did this last night...
I also talk to myself alone fantasizing about having a relationship and friends.
I imagine a lot maybe throught music and watching movies but I wouldn't say it works soothing the pain.
You just have this void and suffer,you can imagine and pretend everything is ok but you know it is not ok.
 
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Satori Komeiji

Satori Komeiji

Strange girl
Jul 15, 2025
167
Hug a pillow or a blanket. You could probably argue that makes the loneliness worse though. I try holding or cuddling my cat but he only tolerates it for about a minute usually :(
 
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22yearsbroken

22yearsbroken

Lost in the dark... with no sign of light
Feb 15, 2025
419
Loud music + alcohol + masturbation+ codiene + tramadol + mirtazapine
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
857
Well, I used to do heroin, which didn't actually fix anything, however it eliminated any pain or discomfort (emotional or physical) for 6-8hrs, plus it made me quite indifferent to my surroundings. Now I'm 159 days clean, but quite miserable.. perhaps I'm headed for a relapse. Cannabis used to help a lil too, but now it'd just make me anxious and way to introspective. Since I'm emotionally a disaster, I find cannabis just amplifies whatever I'm already feeling. So I've tried many healthy coping mechanisms but nothing seems to be working.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
579
maladaptive daydream
doomscroll
make several deposits to the "spank-bank"
cook good food

rinse and repeat
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,492
yup. fantasy land. As a person with dissociative disorder I'm a master at it. either that, or go research suicide on the internet.
 
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