i barely even know. i feel like im just insatiable, and that nothing could ever make me happy. maybe creative fulfillment, like if i created some creative work that become internationally renowned, celebrated, and held as a crowning achievement in whichever medium's history. i used to think finding love would help me, but the older i get the more i realized im jsut not built for that stuff. im too introverted to really make it work. its insane to me how many people larp as "introverts", and then still go clubbing or whathaveyou. i literally dont leave my home unless its to get food. nobody would be content living with someone like that