Venting What do I do?

[eleanorhere]

What do I do? Everyday is awful. I have been stuck in house for years because of bad depression and bullying growing up which made me not want to leave the house much. I go out lots now though it's just with my mum or my dad who I've just started to see again. I get disability, I don't work. I have no friends, I met some online they all left, and my mum won't let me meet anyone online because of some experiences that have happened before when I have. She has my step father. Everyday I just either watch YouTube or Netflix. I hardly eat, I just see others with good lives and mine feels really pointless living. I don't have anyone except my mum and I'm not allowed to meet up with anyone online. My parents said try in real life, how? I find it really hard socialising and I don't know what to do. I nearly committed suicide a couple of weeks ago too, which my mum stopped me from doing. I am really struggling. How can I make this worthless existence of mine worth living? I know it's not easy for loads of people and i Life is just really hard but I'm really struggling. It feels like I'm not even here most times, I feel like in a dream like state because I'm that stressed.I just want to drink alcohol because I can't cope.

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

What do I do?

How can I make this worthless existence of mine worth living?

Truly NOT trying to be funny but if any one of us had a real tried and true answer we would not be suicidal, nor would we be here on SS. Most of us are struggling too on various levels.


You may want to ask a non-suicidal person that question. I recommend that because I'm sure anyone of them could give you a myriad of answers. None of those answers are "right" per se but you may find something that works for you. Most of us here have not found anything helpful but who knows life could be different for you.


As for the other questions, you may want to try the search feature. People have asked similar questions such as "how to make friends," "how to date" etc. Those are life building skills that others may have discussed in detail on other threads.


I'm sorry you are struggling. You may want to at least try counseling if you havent as yet.


Best wishes to you.

 

[FutureNoomp]

Go in classes of dance, chess, martial arts, hiking etc. U ll socialize with people and make friends.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I have the same life as you. I dont have any hopes that anything can be fixed but dont let that stop you from pursuing solutions.

 

[eleanorhere]

Truly NOT trying to be funny but if any one of us had a real tried and true answer we would not be suicidal, nor would we be here on SS. Most of us are struggling too on various levels.


You may want to ask a non-suicidal person that question. I recommend that because I'm sure anyone of them could give you a myriad of answers. None of those answers are "right" per se but you may find something that works for you. Most of us here have not found anything helpful but who knows life could be different for you.


As for the other questions, you may want to try the search feature. People have asked similar questions such as "how to make friends," "how to date" etc. Those are life building skills that others may have discussed in detail on other threads.


I'm sorry you are struggling. You may want to at least try counseling if you havent as yet.


Best wishes to you.

I know everyone is already struggling. My life won't be different. Counselling doesn't change anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand how you feel. I have no idea how to make a life worth living. In my case, everything is hopeless and I simply have no will to live. I wish you the best, whatever happens. I know it is hard to carry on when you are struggling.