Venting What do I do when I've tried everything but nothing I do stops my depression?

[idiotparty]

My adolescence has been awful but I've tried to keep an optimistic outlook that life will get better one day, but that day hasn't came, I've been waiting for it for years, I don't think it will ever come. I have tried all the common methods to recover from depression like talking therapy, anti-depressants and non-medical ones like exercising regularly and having a social life, along with countless other stuff I have tried to make myself feel better, but nothing has "fixed" me and I just think my problems are too deeply rooted in my brain that there is nothing I can do to stop them. The psychiatrist who prescribed me antidepressants told me that she has no idea how to help me, after I told her the anti-depressants aren't working. I have no good memories to hold onto and my present day life is so bad, I have visions of shooting myself playing through my head at every moment. I would like to hear if anyone else has been in a similar situation and what your experiences with it were like.

 

[divinemistress36]

Clinical depression is for life. You could try ketamine infusions helps some people

 

[cowboypants]

My adolescence has been awful but I've tried to keep an optimistic outlook that life will get better one day, but that day hasn't came, I've been waiting for it for years, I don't think it will ever come. I have tried all the common methods to recover from depression like talking therapy, anti-depressants and non-medical ones like exercising regularly and having a social life, along with countless other stuff I have tried to make myself feel better, but nothing has "fixed" me and I just think my problems are too deeply rooted in my brain that there is nothing I can do to stop them. The psychiatrist who prescribed me antidepressants told me that she has no idea how to help me, after I told her the anti-depressants aren't working. I have no good memories to hold onto and my present day life is so bad, I have visions of shooting myself playing through my head at every moment. I would like to hear if anyone else has been in a similar situation and what your experiences with it were like.

Same here. I think my problem stems from being lonely and no medicine can give what another human can. And I feel pointless doing anything all by my own after a certain amount of time. My autistic characteristics doesn't help me from social connections and here I'm stuck in this cycle of trying to get better and hit a threshold then getting depressed.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

That has been my life for 17 years. There were years when I could justify my depression being caused by a toxic home environment, lack of money, too much pressure, or other things. I solved those problems along the years and groups of months during some years weren't that bad but I always go back to severe depression.

I've done therapy for all these years, and medication for 5 years. I don't think the meds helped beyond making me numb, super sleepy and given me a general feeling of being drugged.

Just like you, I feel like it's something in my brain that is wrong. It sucks so much to feel this way, I wish you didn't have to suffer with this.

 

[set0553]

The only thing that's had any effect on my depression at all, has been my dogs. There's something about rescuing and transforming abused animals into happy, healthy dogs, that has changed everything. With my actual kids, I did the best I could to teach them to be good and decent human beings, to do what's right, and they turned out great, but there was that depression barrier always, that prevented me from getting too close to my family, and kept me on the outside, never been able to be close with people, but for whatever reason, it hasn't been the same with my dogs. With them I've allowed myself to open my heart like never before.. no idea how or why.

 

[Neon Grave]

"What to do" next truly depends on what you want. Do you feel like you could give it another shot? Is it genuinely too much to keep going? Is there anything that you feel like you could still do or achieve (a hobby, game, travel...)?

Like divinemistress36 said, depression is for life. You really need to work hard to find something worth the struggle of living with it. I've been there, done that. "Tried" for well over 15 years and I'm getting sick of it honestly. But you may have better luck.

This question is yours to answer.

 

[UKscotty]

I don't think depression ever goes away once you have it.

We can either find meaning and happiness or leave this life I think.

 

[Nettles]

My adolescence has been awful but I've tried to keep an optimistic outlook that life will get better one day, but that day hasn't came, I've been waiting for it for years, I don't think it will ever come. I have tried all the common methods to recover from depression like talking therapy, anti-depressants and non-medical ones like exercising regularly and having a social life, along with countless other stuff I have tried to make myself feel better, but nothing has "fixed" me and I just think my problems are too deeply rooted in my brain that there is nothing I can do to stop them. The psychiatrist who prescribed me antidepressants told me that she has no idea how to help me, after I told her the anti-depressants aren't working. I have no good memories to hold onto and my present day life is so bad, I have visions of shooting myself playing through my head at every moment. I would like to hear if anyone else has been in a similar situation and what your experiences with it were like.

I'm there too. Only thing I haven't tried is rTMS magnet stimulation of the brain or ECT. Ask your doctor about that. These can help if medicine hasn't.

 

[SecretAgent420]

Hello there been depressed and suicidal is the absolute worst! I am 34 years old I don't know how old you are but I believe you said your adolescence has been bad so I'm guessing you're in your late teens maybe early 20s now? Anyway, you mentioned you've tried everything but have you tried filling your void with spiritually?

To be honest I haven't tried therapy or antidepressants, I don't think I have clinical depression though I believe I have situational depression, meaning I feel depressed, hopeless and suicidal because of some issues I'm enduring at the time of which it's been some years but I am aware of the exact issues that make me depressed. I recently started reading the Bible and it has helped me grow spiritually, it's given me relief to fully believe a higher power loves me and that while our mortal lives go through pain and suffering so do the rest of the living species. It's after death that our souls find eternal peace, it may sound crazy for those who don't believe but crazier things roam our heads when we're depressed like seriously I do not know where you're all from but I'm in the United States and I feel lucky because I know there's millions of people living in third world counties ruled by crime terrorists or are total war zones. I say I count my blessings not my curses.

It's only been a few months of my new Christian path and yes I know for some of you may make no sense but following this path can do more good than bad, think about it Christian values lead to a decent life, a sinner life only leads to trouble; in the form or drugs, violence, infidelity, hatred, envy, pride, and all the evil you can think of.

I am just saying you only live once so may as well try asking Jesus for help, I recommend using an audiobook or podcast because actually reading may be boring but listening to the word as is written is easier to understand for me. I hope you don't ignore my post and that you can find peace in your heart, and for all of those reading this, it goes for you too try it if you can be humble enough to accept that you're just a mortal incapable of understanding the complexity of life challenges and powerless to face them, humble yourself to God.

 

[Ernest1964]

Being depressed is not about having a positive outlook. Depression is a medical condition where some chemicals in your brain are deficient. If it weren't for Effexor, I would have CTB many years ago. I take 150mg a day and it saved my life. Am I still depressed? You bet, but the medication is not supposed to make you happy, it's just supposed to make the depressive moments not so low.

 

[nohopeforrope]

Ok so your depression is chemical or your life just sucks? Because if it's external, there's no drug to solve your problem, sometimes our lives are terrible (mine for example). I've been trying different drugs for years and none of them worked. So I tried vitamins, suplements, I got hepatites for taking too much and my depression still kicking. Now Im on keto zero carb diet in order to make my body feel some changes, but I'm pretty sure that it wont work because my life overall is a mess. And you have no friends, no relationship, no job, no money and your family is the scum of the earth, there's no drug to take care of it. so maybe you're just wasting your time and health taking drugs that will never work because the depression is "outside" and it's the terrible part because if your brain is chemically unbalanced, just take those damn pills and move on, but when it's a depressive reality, like mine, we're just want to disappear or going to sleep and never wake up again.