What difficulty level is your life set to and why?

[Darkover]

my life's just been a series of disasters one after another from schizophrenia, no sex to a broken shoulder to a damaged stomach lining to decayed teeth, to tinnitus and a brain injury, no job never worked, no qualification, criminal record, no home, no love, no care, no money, neglected and abused, going to jail for a crime I didn't commit, can't drive got no car.

I am playing on hardcore mode

 

[wsx-rt]

I also have a lot of problems

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Honestly my life is probably really easy but it's still tedious and not worth it much like most easy games tend to be. It's so easy that even minor inconveniences feel like final boss level threats.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

My life is set to nightmare difficulty because I have a bad case of autism which has fucked me up permanently. I survive through everyday with constant headaches due to life itself being overwhelming for me. I get overwhelmed so easily at even the most basic things. I have never made a single irl friend during my entire life and my social skills irl are basically non existent. I am also not conventionally attractive which makes it harder for me to compete with others successfully. I never enjoyed anything throughout my entire life and everything that I do is only done because of obligation, not because I want to. Even the slightest amount of effort done fatigues me massively

It's unfair that I'm forced to live like this when I never asked to be born to begin with

 

[Vicolo cieco]

CTB level: almost unemployable, uneducated, inept, talentless, avoidant personality disorder, erectile dysfunction, never been in a relationship, never kissed, only had sex once with a prostitute otherwise I'd still be a virgin at 29 years old, etc.

 

[accountnamerequired]

I'd say set to hard:

Born into dirt poor family

Born with multiple genetic defects

Born with mental issues idk where they even came from

Literally no game as far as talking to girls, like talking to girl coworkers and stuff is fine but anyone I want to make a move on I suddenly fall apart socially, mom's spaghetti

23 and still a virgin

 

[Ambivalent1]

God mode. I'm like Hercules in the Disney movie just trying to regain my right to return home by suffering through trials and tribulations.

 

[iloverachel]

Beyond nightmare difficulty
I have severe agoraphobia and severe generalized anxiety and get crippling panic attack around crowds, so that makes it virtually impossible to leave the house and be around people

then theres the equally bad crippling depression, anhedonia, ptsd etc and also nothing helps to heal me, 8 years of trying everything

Life is on nightmare x 1000

 

[Ambivalent1]

Beyond nightmare difficulty
I have severe agoraphobia and severe generalized anxiety and get crippling panic attack around crowds, so that makes it virtually impossible to leave the house and be around people

then theres the equally bad crippling depression, anhedonia, ptsd etc and also nothing helps to heal me, 8 years of trying everything

Life is on nightmare x 1000

Metoo

 

[Hollowman]

If it wasn't for my moms help it'd be hardcore mode. When she dies I need to go.

 

[tvo]

Game Difficulty Level = Insane - You will not survive

Extremely violent household with two parents who detest eachother. Forced to Hustle at a very young age (highschool). Working double shifts on Weekends at college and managed to graduate in record time. Struggling to get a job despite my qualifications, and my childhood traumas being triggered and finding myself struggling with suicidal ideation and self-harming.

Soldiered on and continued to hustle while teaching myself how to make money online and then out of nowhere; crash, shattered windows, shattered bones, shattered plans, shattered life.. mind blowing pain from a car crash (drunk driver). Long road to excruciating recovery and loss of all my savings in medical bills, therapy and healing.

Relatives (members of a dark cult) making attempts on my life. Health deteriorating dew to chronic pain and trauma. PTSD and Chronic pain becoming unbearable and being forced to CTB. Three impulsive and poorly executed CTB (very traumatic aftermath). Slowly dying and in urgent need for euthanasia.

If I have intentionally set the difficulty level before entering this game of life, then I was full of myself, foolhardy, and insane.

 

[sancta-simplicitas]

Insane Expert. Especially so because I've single-handedly had to undo years of damage by the people whom I hired to help me undo the years of damage before them. Rage-quitting any day now.

 

[DepressedDude]

Difficulty = Hard + Keep having to replay the same mission.

I have a few physical conditions which bother me sometimes but I feel they're minor compared to what some other people are suffering.

My main problem is the feeling that everything's pointless, it stops me from doing or enjoying anything so I'm bored to death as everyday feels like it's on repeat. I'm also way too aware of things and have severe anxiety that something bad could happen that'll make things worse.

I would've always loved to have worked, studied or travelled but now all those things seem like difficult tasks, it feels like there's nothing to do except suffer or die at this point.

 

[Forveleth]

Honestly, my difficulty is set to normal, but the tutorial screwed me up for the rest of the game and the romance scenario that I'm locked into has done nothing but use of all of my resources while giving me zero stat bonuses. It's now just a daily grind while my party members get all of my xp and rewards and only debuff me.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Nightmare mode that could have been normal mode if I wasn't so fucking stupid when I was younger. Now I just don't want to play the game at all, haven't for years.

If I could reload an old save and play that one level better, that'd be great, thanks.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it'll always be undesirable and dreadful to exist no matter what, I find it beyond tragic how humans create so much harm by bringing life here even know nobody can suffer from never existing at all with their being no need for existence in the first place.

It's certainly hellish to exist as a conscious being in a reality where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer with no straightforward way to die in peace, it's unacceptable extreme cruelty how suicide isn't accepted even know nobody consented to any of this, it's all meaningless and we are all just going to die anyway.
I'm tired of suffering, existence truly is such a harmful, futile imposistion, I just wish for eternal nothingness, I have no interest in suffering for decades on end just to be tormented by old age and die anyway.

 

[bearbrikk]

My life is on the level of yk in the past we had a Nintendo and played Mario Bros on it after weeks of playing You finally reach the end level Bowser in the tower and you're on your last life line and it is all or nothing

 

[wsx-rt]

Game Difficulty Level = Insane - You will not survive

Extremely violent household with two parents who detest eachother. Forced to Hustle at a very young age (highschool). Working double shifts on Weekends at college and managed to graduate in record time. Struggling to get a job despite my qualifications, and my childhood traumas being triggered and finding myself struggling with suicidal ideation and self-harming.

Soldiered on and continued to hustle while teaching myself to how make money online and then out of nowhere; crash, shattered windows, shattered bones, shattered plans, shattered life.. mind blowing pain from a car crash (drunk driver). Long road to excruciating recovery and loss of all my savings in medical bills, therapy and healing.

Relatives (members of a dark cult) making attempts on my life. Health deteriorating dew to chronic pain and trauma. PTSD and Chronic pain becoming unbearable and being forced to CTB. Three impulsive and poorly executed CTB (very traumatic aftermath). Slowly dying and in urgent need for euthanasia.

If I have intentionally set the difficulty level before entering this game of life, then I was full of myself, foolhardy, and insane.

Oh, if this were possible, how many people are there on this site who want euthanasia and cannot get it?

 

[permanently tired]

My life could be livable if someone else replaced me right now, but it's not for me bc I have bpd so I'm feeling anger, sadness or emptiness at all times and can switch between any of the three at the drop of a dime. Aside from my mental issues I don't have any others. I'm physically and financially ok. Just a shitty childhood that made me hate everything and care about nothing.

 

[Eudaimonic]

Nightmare mode because of all my mental issues + minor physical ones to boot

 

[passivethought121]

Intermediate because it'd be easy if the rng did not ruin you and give you a brain that depletes every need and resource within a few minutes and you're still expected to pass the level

 

[itsneverbeenmoreove]

Deck was stacked in my favor and I still managed to fuck it up. Born to upper middle class family in rich suburbs, went to great schools, my family is super supportive of me, I have tons of resources. But I still managed to slowly fuck up everything over time, starting primarily in middle school, but in steady increments from there. Reached the point where nearly 30 years in, my only accomplishments are having graduated high school (disputable due to some circumstances) and being a really supportive grandchild. I actually did have one accomplishment which was my 8+ year relationship with my high school girlfriend, however that ended recently for a number of reasons, many of which were my fault, but also included were her starting a new relationship the same day she ended it with me and explicitly saying that she hadnt found me attractive for a long time and that was why we hadnt had sex in like a year. She also expressed that she didn't think I would ever accomplish any of my goals. And just generally confirmed all of my deepest insecurities about myself.

Not sure what difficulty that is. Because dating her was like playing on a challenge mode, as I consciously set aside educational and career opportunities throughout my life in order to maintain my relationship with her. And then she (probably) cheats on me with someone she explicitly says is more attractive than me and proceeds to cut contact with me while owing me $2000 and blocking me from our shared pet photo album.

So like... challenge run with cheat codes on that I somehow managed to fail anyways?

 

[Lady Laudanum]

To me it'll always be undesirable and dreadful to exist no matter what, I find it beyond tragic how humans create so much harm by bringing life here even know nobody can suffer from never existing at all with their being no need for existence in the first place.

It's certainly hellish to exist as a conscious being in a reality where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer with no straightforward way to die in peace, it's unacceptable extreme cruelty how suicide isn't accepted even know nobody consented to any of this, it's all meaningless and we are all just going to die anyway.
I'm tired of suffering, existence truly is such a harmful, futile imposistion, I just wish for eternal nothingness, I have no interest in suffering for decades on end just to be tormented by old age and die anyway.

You're not even answering the damn question...

 

[sserafim]

My life is set to hard mode because of the 'tism. The most annoying thing about it has to be that it's an invisible disability. I look normal on the surface and therefore nobody knows about my problems and struggles. I'm still forced to conform to neurotypical standards despite being neurodivergent. The most difficult thing would be a lack of understanding. People just don't understand me. I'm also forced to change myself to fit the world. Why can't it be the other way around? Why should only I have to make a change? Society should be more understanding and accepting of me and other ND people. I see no point in changing myself to conform to a society not built or meant for me

 

[DefinitelyReady]

My game is defective and needs to be returned.
It never even loaded... just buffers, won't go past the main settings screen.

Can't get a return or refund as I have no "receipt."
My game is worthless.

 

[Leichter Kampfwagen]

Peaceful mode. I'm literally out here dying to fall damage.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

Hard mode. I would say 7 out of 10 (10 being the most insane hardship). Too disabled to function normally and not disabled enough to get support.
I had to deal with emotional and a degree of physical abuse as a kid. Autistic - cant mask properly, BPD, difficulty regulating emotions, dyscalculia, low energy, chronic headaches, endometriosis, fibromyalgia, sinus problems because I grew up in a polluted area. Cant drive because of poor sense of direction and severe morning nausea due to low blood pressure.
I was always treated as if theres nothing wrong with me and as if everything is solely my fault and responsibility.

 

[Esokabat]

You're not even answering the damn question...

I agree. She keeps repeating the exact same thoughts on every thread she participates like a pre-programmed AI, completely ignoring what the thread is actually about or to even attempt to answer the question. This is why I don't read her anymore because it is like reading AI that has pre-programmed answers. It is more useful to have a conversation with a Chatbot than her. Not sure if this is mental illness, egoism, narcissism or all of the above. Just my thoughts.
I feel my difficulty level is around 4 out of 10, so much much better than most people here. I am just tired of being Autistic. I don't identify with Autism. I am like a player that is playing on Easy setting and still finding it difficult. I don't hate the game though, it is OK, but I have been playing the same game over and over, and over, not getting better at it, I no longer want to play it anymore.