Discussion What did you see in the world that made you lose hope in humanity and living in this world?

[Random__Lover]

tell me something that made you lose hope in everything and any kind of happiness that might exist here.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

I won't go into details for privacy but my ex and I had a horrible breakup and that made me lose hope in myself and my life.

 

[Deleted member 60002]

It would be hard for me to narrow it down to just one thing. Do you have a moment in mind that you'd like to talk about?

 

[nbc]

Not feeling love or being unable to commit to any kind of love without pushing it away

 

[wiltingorchid]

How people are only judging you by the things you're capable to do. You only matter if you "are" something, and if you do something. You can't just be loved by being yourself, you have to be loveable.
And god, I'll never be loveable.

 

[unplug]

The simple fact you are what you give in this world, and if you have nothing to offer, you're nothing.

 

[leavingsoon99]

For me, I guess it finally became clear during the COVID-19 pandemic lockdowns and restrictions. The panic buying. The violence at grocery stores. The mere fact that this pandemic (to me) seemed a little orchestrated. The massive increase in gun purchases and hate groups infiltrating police departments. The way that societal morals and behavior just deteriorated within a matter of months. Just looking at all of that, plus stewing on my own life finally broke me. Thinking back on all of the things I turned the other cheek on. The insults. The rejections. The meanness of people. The evilness of the system and organization in which humans have created for themselves. Looking at my place within all of it. Wanting to belong, but then looking realistically at what I was trying to belong to. The love that will never be. The hope that I had as a naive youth was dashed by the bitter reality of (my) life, itself. Thinking back on how foolish I was. How deceptive my optimism was. How unrealistic my expectations were. All of this has become clear since the COVID era began.

 

[Unending]

It was coming to the conclusion that chance dictates everything in my life and that years of effort and forcing myself to try to get better didn't put me in a better situation. That was pretty devastating for me.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Interacting with the bestial Homo sapien

 

[goodbye_._]

So one time I attempted and it was stupid, not a very serious attempt. Anyways I went to the hospital and immediately they told me they psychiatry wasn't going to treat me. Then they told me to take off my bra but I was kinda starting to shut down at this point. Instead of talking to me they started to get made at me then got the security to take it off instead which I kinda get but like they could have talk to me first. I won't go into more details but it gets worst lol. After they I was physically stable I was sent to a treatment centre for 9 months against my will. The people there aren't trained at all. They forgot about me on multiple occasions. They told me that I need to be like everyone else. One of the staff told me about his two friends that killed themselves and how they chose to be depressed and so I was also choosing to be depressed (he said this at my lowest at the time) when I got heath issues from long covid their first reaction was that I was faking or overrating and to take away any coping mechanisms but I just didn't care by that point. This is just some of the stuff they did. I live with trauma from it like nothing else and I was abused. I lost all faith in humanity in that time. Sorry this is so long.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

How people are only judging you by the things you're capable to do. You only matter if you "are" something, and if you do something. You can't just be loved by being yourself, you have to be loveable.
And god, I'll never be loveable.

this
once you become useless, everyone hates you

 

[Forever Sleep]

Watching nature documentaries and in most cases, finding that 40% upwards of the animals/habitat have already been destroyed. Finding out that wildlife and nature in the radioactive zone of Chernobyl is likely doing a lot better than other places.

Watching other documentaries about awful disasters where big corporations put profits before safety.

Plus, just living day to day really. Seeing how people treat one another. Knowing that by living myself, I am undoubtably causing harm to others- both nature and people- do you suppose everything we have is made by people earning a fair wage? Not that I'm earning a fair wage either! Plus, companies I've worked for have annoyed me because it's so clear that they value and promote ruthless sociopaths. Just makes me feel like the whole world is like this.

 

[OceanBlue]

What's on my banner: wars, genocide and annihilation. That's the history of mankind.

Who could even pick the worst ones out of these? And there are so many to choose from, they are more of a norm than exception.

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And humans who refuse to acknowledge they live in hell. Depressing responses they come up with to anti-suffering advocacy.

We can't change the world - it's inherently oppressive. Every kind of activism asides from complete destruction is welfarism - to be a little more comfortable whilst being exploited, before we get slaughtered.

If an intelligent, benevolent species stumbled on this planet - they would be horrified and try to find ways to permanently close this factory of suffering. But we are sadistic little soldiers of Nature wreaking havoc on Earth, deluded with illusory superiority, propagating our own misery, causing harm to others. Cutting off and eating baby's legs is a legit tradition to celebrate life and the return of better weather.

And the goal is to find meaning and happiness on a planet like this, we have people who teach others to treasure every moment. We're deranged.

 

[savoytruffle]

the rising fascism and hate and anger, and the fact that the term "mental health" has been cannibalized into a political talking point to such an extent that it's meaningless now, nobody truly cares about mental health

and of course, the second you're not contributing anything to the machine you might as well be dead. i will NEVER be able to function in this world and that's why my future is either homeless or dead and i hope it's the second that comes true

 

[Random__Lover]

So one time I attempted and it was stupid, not a very serious attempt. Anyways I went to the hospital and immediately they told me they psychiatry wasn't going to treat me. Then they told me to take off my bra but I was kinda starting to shut down at this point. Instead of talking to me they started to get made at me then got the security to take it off instead which I kinda get but like they could have talk to me first. I won't go into more details but it gets worst lol. After they I was physically stable I was sent to a treatment centre for 9 months against my will. The people there aren't trained at all. They forgot about me on multiple occasions. They told me that I need to be like everyone else. One of the staff told me about his two friends that killed themselves and how they chose to be depressed and so I was also choosing to be depressed (he said this at my lowest at the time) when I got heath issues from long covid their first reaction was that I was faking or overrating and to take away any coping mechanisms but I just didn't care by that point. This is just some of the stuff they did. I live with trauma from it like nothing else and I was abused. I lost all faith in humanity in that time. Sorry this is so long.

I'm sorry to hear that, I hope all is well with you! You deserve all the happiness in the world after everything you've been through..

It was coming to the conclusion that chance dictates everything in my life and that years of effort and forcing myself to try to get better didn't put me in a better situation. That was pretty devastating for me.

I don't know if it makes much difference, but if you need someone to help you I'll do my best!

the rising fascism and hate and anger, and the fact that the term "mental health" has been cannibalized into a political talking point to such an extent that it's meaningless now, nobody truly cares about mental health

and of course, the second you're not contributing anything to the machine you might as well be dead. i will NEVER be able to function in this world and that's why my future is either homeless or dead and i hope it's the second that comes true

the world is extremely cruel and it seems that everyone around us doesn't see it.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I simply have awareness of the fact that this world is a hellish place, anyone who is conscious and isn't blinded by privledge and severe delusion can come to that conclusion.

But anyway "hope" and "happiness" are certainly delusions that don't reflect reality, they are something that humans invented, they are lies to stop people being aware of the reality of existing as the society needs slaves because suicide can seem like the most logical option once one is aware that life is just a futile struggle where we are only destined to decay.

Nobody can deny all of the torture being experienced in this world and how life holds potential for the most extreme suffering and harm. In fact the delusion of "hope" is what is harmful as it inevitably leads to more pain once it's finally taken away, existence truly is a curse which is why people shouldn't procreate, nobody ever needed to suffer and the tragedy lies in the fact that they do. Life was never a good thing to begin with and hope was never lost. Something cannot be lost if it never existed, life is something completely hopeless in the first place, it's just an unnecessary and horrifying consequence of evolution.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

The amount of terrible illnesses and disabilities there are, it's like witnessing people in hell.

 

[Chocoholic]

My ex. He was my last chance and hope. But he broke up with me. I tried really hard and did everything I could but he left me. I don't want to do anymore.

 

[Amaterasu]

The realisation of how insignificant, disposable and replaceable I am to others.
That perhaps all along, I've been the fault.

The significance I have for someone has never and will never be reciprocated to the degree I experience.
No matter how much meaning or love I have for someone time and time again it has never amounted to anything, they've all left me in the past which my mind resides in.

The most recent confirmation was this week when the only person I had, left. It became increasingly apparent that I was only ever wanted on his terms, never mine, and maybe it was my fault for saying anything, for merely wanting him to be there for me every once in awhile; to want to feel any semblance of "okay".

"All I wanted was for you to be there for me every once in a while because, you're what makes me feel okay. I know I can't be reliant on you, I try not to be, and I know you don't owe me anything but please, don't take this from me" was my final text to him, to which I received no response. I asked if he would come with me to see a artist we both like who's touring for the first time in our country, something he was entirely unaware of. He said no. I had a sinking feeling which was only confirmed when I saw that he had posted that he was looking for someone to go with him.

Guess I wasn't good enough.

It became apparent where my place is when he removed all avenues of contact without as much as a word. Yet still, I have no capacity to fault him but rather, myself.

 

[Mortalist]

Everytime I turned on the TV just to see one bad news after another. It's too much to narrow it down.

 

[deleted442]

Manufacturing of a mass psychosis.

Class wars and AI although that last one could backfire and wipe us all out.

 

[whatevs]

For me, I guess it finally became clear during the COVID-19 pandemic lockdowns and restrictions. The panic buying. The violence at grocery stores. The mere fact that this pandemic (to me) seemed a little orchestrated. The massive increase in gun purchases and hate groups infiltrating police departments. The way that societal morals and behavior just deteriorated within a matter of months. Just looking at all of that, plus stewing on my own life finally broke me. Thinking back on all of the things I turned the other cheek on. The insults. The rejections. The meanness of people. The evilness of the system and organization in which humans have created for themselves. Looking at my place within all of it. Wanting to belong, but then looking realistically at what I was trying to belong to. The love that will never be. The hope that I had as a naive youth was dashed by the bitter reality of (my) life, itself. Thinking back on how foolish I was. How deceptive my optimism was. How unrealistic my expectations were. All of this has become clear since the COVID era began.

This is very common on SaSu. Trans people, autistic people and then those that see through the deceit of social engineering are the most common groups from what I have seen. It's tough to see reality and be absolutely powerless to even ameliorate the momentum.

 

[absolomonisgone]

Well, I never blame humanity for my wanting to CTB. I blame myself 100% for my inability to be able to adjust and fit in on humanity's terms. I refused to appreciate and find meaning in the ways humanity offers.
God knows I tried, but it just doesn't work. Tried the whole package: wives, kids, career, materialism, religion, education, being dumb and compliant, etc and it still didn't work.
So, I figured, I must be the problem, because most people find humanity's package more than enough.
So, humanity is perfectly ok. I am the problem, so, common sense dictates I leave.
PS: Speaking only for myself and what I have gathered in my personal experience of 50 years of living.

 

[NoWayOut015]

The sheer ignorance of people acting like "everything is fine you just have to be positive" while it's obvious the world is falling apart when you just look around

 

[lawlietsph]

Animal and child abuse. Makes me sick just to think about it. I always thought that it's a very rare thing, but unfortunately it's not. It's actually everywhere.
And people in general... So much hate it makes me sick. Humans are horrible.

 

[leftdreaming]

The passage of time I guess. Mental illness slowly chipped away at my mental health. Suicidal ideation has always been a part of me, though.

 

[soft-flower345]

Some of my first memories did this to me, when I was 3yo my dad died in a car accident, some time after my mom took me and my 1yo sister to a bridge and told me this was where we were gonna jump off and be with my dad forever. She tried to drag me to it so she could throw us off and I fought her and she eventually relented. I told a grandparent sometime after and she lost custody of us and we started living in my grandparents home. They abused me and my sister. I developed ptsd and was misdiagnosed with adhd, and they essentially subjected me to their own conversion therapy for wanting to be a girl (I'm AMAB and trans); holding me down and cutting my hair, then beating me after. Beating me for being unable to focus at school, getting in fights. Beating me if I caused a disruption at dinner or challenged their rhetoric. I lost all hope that life could ever be anything but tormentuous or sadistic in principle. I lost myself and became a sick masochist, been that way ever since.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

lack of empathy

 

[NoLightRemains]

Some of my first memories did this to me, when I was 3yo my dad died in a car accident, some time after my mom took me and my 1yo sister to a bridge and told me this was where we were gonna jump off and be with my dad forever. She tried to drag me to it so she could throw us off and I fought her and she eventually relented. I told a grandparent sometime after and she lost custody of us and we started living in my grandparents home. They abused me and my sister. I developed ptsd and was misdiagnosed with adhd, and they essentially subjected me to their own conversion therapy for wanting to be a girl (I'm AMAB and trans); holding me down and cutting my hair, then beating me after. Beating me for being unable to focus at school, getting in fights. Beating me if I caused a disruption at dinner or challenged their rhetoric. I lost all hope that life could ever be anything but tormentuous or sadistic in principle. I lost myself and became a sick masochist, been that way ever since.

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I'm amab/trans myself and it made me realize from an early age that the world is unfair and cruel. The people who are supposed to be our guardians will use any means necessary to get us to conform.

 

[soft-flower345]

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I'm amab/trans myself and it made me realize from an early age that the world is unfair and cruel. The people who are supposed to be our guardians will use any means necessary to get us to conform.

Being trans really is like living on a harder difficulty level. I still have a hard time accepting that people are willing to torture and wound children just to preserve, what? Their ego's? Religious schema that reduces death anxiety? People can be so cruel.